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Z Dec 2024
Growing up in an unstable home, I never had much,
I was taught to accept the little and be contented with the few I was given.
I am no saint and I caught myself complaining a few times,
Though I get myself back to the realization that sufferation is a part of life and along those lines bla bla bla.

I began to appreciate the little from a very tender age,
Getting familiar with hard times was once a difficult stage.
I still face difficulties, I thank God for it every time I can,
I am only human and I acknowledge that not everyday I pray.

When my tears wave to God I ask forgiveness for I am of sin, things I do wrongly,
Whether it was knowing or unknowingly.
I appreciate the little and understand the reason for my journey,
Auspicious, for success and I cannot stay down such concerns me.

The days we had no food and the weeks our cupboards went arid,
The times of no electricity and water at our disposal.
This brought me to accept life as it is.
That saying "Good people endures the hardest fights" or how ever it goes,
Allowed me to be much different from others and bring fort my brightest light.

Some people may think they know me, but truly they don't,
I programmed myself to figure people out, so being friendly is something I wont.
Vanity isn't behoove and isn't apart of my heart,
Therefore the riches of man stains me not and wont tear me apart.

Indubitably, I appreciate every little and praise God for his continuous provisions,
I pray that God shows me my friends from foes, and register the division.
So I can be at ease and have peace of mind,
At this point it's circumlocution, I know I speak too much but in spirit, happiness is all I wish my family to find.
Z Dec 2024
To apply focus is all I really need to fix,
My confidence as well takes a play in that mix.
I had to become better than I am but I am too timid,
the picture I want to paint is there but it's not showing to vivid.

I am behind and I am seeing blurry,
I lose focus too fast and confidence appears not to be my style.
I yearn for wisdom of how to become accomplished, high Oh High Court please send your Attorney,
And Judge, judge me, criticize the fact that I lack equanimity.

I desire to be a focused, confident person,
I wish my lack of focus and confidence doesn't worsen.
I want to stand out unencumbered from my darkness but quite shy am I,
Soft as clouds that paradigm the sky and confidence as Splendiferous as my love inside.
Z Dec 2024
Forgive me, a fool I am not to hold her to her words of loyalty,
Yet I expect her to hold fast to mine, that's a messed up morality.
It's not like I'm doubting her words because of its repetition and false meanings of past or meaningful but less action that last,
I assumingly find it hard to trust anyone fully that likely.

Yet to her I gave my trust willingly and humbly,
Occasions on such that she shows her loyalty.
She speaks of a firm foundation and pushes a steady mind,
Only God knows how many times I think of her with this lost soul of mine trapped in time.

Nicola, the name equaled to my first love and my third,
My mother of course and my girlfriend shares the same name.
I look at them and they have similar acumen and major things the same.

Mrs. Samuel, maybe, maybe not some day to be,
My wife or not probably as long as she stay with me.
I'm not praying she stays mine forever, but if she does would forever be mine?
I am trying to mold myself to be a better me than I was before,
The apropos way to ensure I'm worthy just for future time.

Still when I think of Angel I see "Her" smile,
When I sit and write tears for that "Her" flows from my eyes,
Because my soul misses "Her" but she is what I can't have,
It pushed Angel further away, but in great strength I alone can over come and understand.
Z Dec 2024
I embarked on a situation, create the hypothesis for mistakes,
Mistakes isn't knowingly adding too much sugar to the cake,
Then you let it bake, afterwards the cake is baked it's too sweet, now it's a mistake.
Or is it?
But adding the right servings of salt and the cap releases allowing half the bottle to fall and the cake is salty, that's a mistake.

Don't get me wrong that simple explanation won't explain the full extent of what a mistake is and what it meant was that mistakes are depended on the understanding that knowing and not knowing finalizes the decision of making such mistakes.

If you can meditate on things that are wrong trying to put it in form to disguise it as a mistake, then that's your mistake.
Initially you make mistakes when the ignorance of something is present.
On the contrary carefully analyzing your actions and thoughts making proper covers for loopholes then doing the decided portion isn't considered a mistake.

don't tell me lies and afterwards say sorry it was a mistake,
You had time to think over those lies and the in this it results in life sentences.
Heart with no recompences,
Anger of the soul tenses,
Your mistake commences,
Now we're left with negative consequences.

Back to the beginning of your path heartbroken apart asking yourself, "Was that mistake worth making?"
Was that toothache sweet cake worth baking?
Was the thinking process worth taking?

Mistakes are out of the ordinary,
With lack of knowledge and wisdom and doing as we think rather than we know, it slow, we think, NO I don't think so, but even though our minds are clogged like someone's front door at Christmas with snow, we go the distance to allow our ignorant selves say or do things that we don't comprehend or have the evidence to show then we say sorry under low yet we learn and we will grow because that was a mistake.

So, before you approach me saying sorry it was a mistake think before you speak the same way you thought before you spoke or acted, rewind the tape repeat the situation again and again correct the matter in your brain before I ask you to maintain the words you are choosing to speak in vain..... "I'm sorry, I made a mistake!"
Or did you?
Z Oct 2024
It has just begun,
The past I ran races, some lost and some won.
This race is different, the audacity I have to undergo the mission,
Endurance is what I need, and its wisdom.

I no longer require to come first,
Even if last I shall be.
Passing the finish line with all point collected,
I the greater result for me.

I need sustenance and reason to run,
I need purpose until the race is done.
When my eyes are dreaming and my cold body laid down,
Where my race has ended, it should benefit my children to come.

Carrying myself to my utmost limit is not only the key,
I need to survive the burn out on my feet and not on my knees.
Omniscience is my strength and it heals me further,
Not to win the race, later to endure it for longer.
Z Oct 2024
I am feeling home sick,
Tell my family come get me quick.
My emotions are running wild,
I cannot control my thoughts even if I try.
Get me out of here I feel like I'm in an asylum.
I am not deaf, not lame, blind or dumb.
I feel trapped in a call deep beneath the ground,
So deep not even by the devil can it be found.
I want to go home, I am fed up of this,
No proper sleep and there're programmed people here with chips.
Left, right, left, right, left repeats even in my little sleep,
I already don't get enough so imagine my face when I weep.
Everyday is strangling me,
I am clustered and my body is getting weak.
I miss home and the qualities of my comfort zone,
I miss my family, so long I haven't been alone.
I want to escape and the door is open wide,
There's only two ways I can leave and graduating is the one I decide.
I am home sick I need to leave quick,
I am praying that grad day don't stick.
Z Oct 2024
Poetry is life and life is art,
Creating a new piece conceives a new life's start.
Poetry saved my brother, yes it's true.
Even though he messed up, poetry pulled him through.
The art of poetry is so divine and magnificent,
Words like mountains grounded firm such omnipotence.  
The passion is in the emotions the poet sets in words,
Every synthesis of symphony, the similes, metaphors tingle every nerve.
Categorizing vocabulary, an encyclopedia your brain should be,
Hitting the bull, yes that sweet spot definitely.
Like a tree your poetry must grow so tall, so strong, so big,
The simplest of words can make your poems more than you think.
Poetry saved my brother from the hands of the stern court of disclosure,
Though he was wrong, he held his composure.
His heart was made pure and sincere through faith earnestly to God he held on to.
Tempted in the garden, yet poetry saw him through.
Some of his brothers disowned him and remembered him no more,
Thou shall not get caught, he failed to observe the 11th law.
Some who called him friend and partaker in the crime,
Like Judas they threw him to the crucifixion line.
Whispers of him going astray and gossips, that he was selfish they assured themselves that he was wrong,
The proud man stood leaving their heads bowed to the ground.
Poetry saved my brother, and on forward his head held high,
A man who can acknowledge his deeds, the most respect never past him by.
A poem to my Batch Mitchell J.
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