When I pull up a new page on Word, I just want to fill it all up with words.
Words that could make it onto the front page...
I always seem to fail at this part.
I just want to be one of those artists who get noticed and people pay attention to what they post.
See? I'm starting to fill the page up with words.
Words that mean nothing.
They just sit there and stare at me waiting for their new neighbor that I pick.
Hey! There's an idea...
Write a poem or story about words.
But then again,
Who would read that crap?
I don't know what to write that would make it on to the front page.
I should just give up shouldn't I? That's what I'll do.
I am no great writer, just a lousy teen who throws a few words onto their computer screen
And marvels at it.

If tomorrow you find that I'm gone,
Will you guys begin to understand
How weak and isolated I ended up being?
Or will you figure I'm off at school..

If tomorrow I don't wake up
Will you start to comprehend
How long I've been attempting to never take a breath again?
Or will you gape at the mess on my bed..

If tomorrow was my final day
And you knew it
Would you try to make me smile?
Or would you continue on acting like I'm invisible..

If tomorrow I don't come home,
If tomorrow I never open my bed room door
If tomorrow I took my last breath..

Do you think you did your job?

Nat,
I've been trying to push you out of my heart
I've been fighting it,
For 3 years

Nat,
I've been crazy about you
Crazy in love
And it's 3 years now

Nat,
I've finally realized something,
The girls I called, "Mine",
Weren't the reason why:
Why my heart continued to beat,
My lungs kept filling with fresh air,
Or why I kept smiling...

You're the real, true reason as to why I'm here,
Typing these words and listening to the soft drizzle
Now, I'm ready to face you and tell you how I feel
What I've bottled up for 3 grades

I trust you,
With my heart,
With my life,
With everything.