Never have i felt so alone.

All my friends have left
Fault of my own im sure,
For i never made the effort.
"Too busy, too tired" i said.
At first I blamed anxiety
But let's be honest,
I was just too lazy.

No family to be seen.
Packed their bags,
And off they went.
Still we talk in text, alas
no hugs through a screen.

Despite all this I was happy,
All this seemed as nothing.
As my girlfriend was my all
Best friend and family as one,
What more could i ask for?

Now we are no more.

Never have I felt so alone.

~𝘛~𝘳𝘺
~𝘙~𝘶𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨
~𝘈~𝘸𝘢𝘺
~𝘜~𝘳
~𝘔~𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴
~𝘈~𝘳𝘦
~𝘛~𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨
~𝘐~𝘯
~𝘊~­𝘩𝘢𝘰𝘴

~𝘔~𝘪𝘯𝘥-𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨
~𝘌~𝘷𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦
~𝘔~𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨
~𝘖~𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘭𝘺
~𝘙~𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨
~𝘐~𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘪𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦
~𝘌~𝘮­𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭
~𝘚~𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘳𝘺

The paintings in the night sky
The depth of the oceans blue
Couldn’t even begin
To compare to my rue
Of her crying eyes

He shouts, cause there was a time when he wasn't loud enough.

He pushes people away, cause there was a time when someone hurt him.

He doesn't trust anyone, cause there was a time when someone broke that trust.

He's quiet, cause he's sick of being unheard.

He wants to be praised cause someone didn't value him enough.

He loves more, cause he was loved less once.

I tried

but in the end

I died

I don’t want to
Open my mouth
Because I’m still afraid
The truth might come out
And if it does
If it really breaks free
You’ll see what I am
You’ll see the true me
The one I hide
With jokes and lies
I’m a terrible person
All jokes aside
You don’t seem to know it
You don’t seem to see
Even a glimpse of that person
That I know to be me
I’m such a good actress
I hide it so well
Cover it with a laugh
And you’ll never tell
You see depth in my eyes
You see love and emotion
But what would you see
If I ever did open
I can’t bear to find out
I can’t bear to show
The me you don’t see
The me that I know
If I let it out
If I let it be
I know for a fact
That you would hate me.

613 200 Hours
25 550 Days
13 Cars
11 Jobs
9 Dogs
6 Surgeries
5 Children
4 Grandchildren
3 Marriages
2 Siblings
1 Weary soul.
No regrets.