I can no longer disguise
Contempt in my eyes
The lows and the highs
It is you I despise
Heart no longer complies
While your heart denies
It’s me you chastise
Deceitful demise
There’s no compromise
I agonize
While you apologize
But my love I surmise
It’s fossilized
And I've normalized
What you’ve minimized
Gone are my cries
I’m numb from your lies
Like this I will die

Outside my body, surrounded by others
They, comfortable in their skin
Wanting to slither out of my own
Emotions take me to that place
Dying to be an inanimate object
Bereft of existence
Foreboding apprehension
Thinking of the right words to gracefully speak
As effortless conversations cloak every nook in this room
My mind wanes
Into the solace of invalidation
Imperturbable is not my domain
Solitude is my comfort
Solitude is my strength
Leave me in the corner with a good book
And I will die happy

We have become a society engulfed in static noise
Ineptly assenting to untruths of money-grubbing publicity seekers
Garrulous banter by self-promoting fame hunters
Disintegrating our already fragile minds
Previously destroyed by brain rotting internet forums and absurdities
We are at war with one another with comments and supporting “likes”
My opinion, better than yours because I am louder and angrier
Your opinion, better because it is thunderous and provoked
Execrating each other over the words of self-important personalities
Spewing hate with ads in between.
Let us return to three local channels and phones clutched to the wall
Let’s go back to less information
Go to the library and read more books
Sit and talk with our families
Play outside when it rains
Let us stop listening to news that is no longer news
Because it is all just loud judgment
Let us retrieve the miniscule quantity of hope we once had
Before this world is gone

Two lonely hearts
Eager to accelerate love
I knew better
You, deprived of judgment
Too wounded to notice faults
Too aroused to feel otherwise
Past loves haunt our dreams
Urging us to move forward into oblivion
Time passes
One month turned into nine
Nine months turned into too many years
And here we are
Our seed
Watered with doubt and uncertainty
Feeling our love
But not seeing OUR love
Two lonely hearts
We will forever be

You and I are the only ones here
There is no awkward silence
It is just you
I am invisible
Your peripheral vision obscured by abhorrence
There is no anger, no willingness to invoke, yell or fight
Just a vicious battle within myself to convince you I am human

I will no longer fight fate
Confronting destiny is a losing battle
It will change the course of everything that is meant to be
No more contemplating an accidental run-in
No more “hopefully we will see each other soon”
If I never see you again, I know it’s kismet
Obstinance will not take over
I will write down everything that went wrong and repeat it until there is no more soul left in my tears

Until I make myself forget what was beautiful
Oh, but the beautiful was so beautiful
I can’t forget when our hands were gripped together, and we held on for dear life
Like they were about to be ripped from our limbs and neither of us wanted to let go
Your soul merged into mine within seconds
I felt electrical circuits binding us together and I’m sure we were emanating some type of energy force
This was our “I love you”
It’s hard to let go
But I will no longer fight fate