If you want to
Feel pain

Fall in love

If you want to
Feel happy

Fall in love

With whom
That only matters

Wake up
In
The middle
Of
The
Night

Consciousness
Can
Focus
On
Things
Normally
Out of
Sight

Exaggerating
Tiny
Details,
To which it
Clings

What
A
Relief
The
Morning
Brings

No longer can I deny it.
Laugh all you want I have grown to not care about your words of hatred and spite.
Why I didn't ever see it before I don't know.
Was it because I was in denial?
Or because I was so simply staring out a window too foggy to clearly see through?
You may have been in my life for many a year, but never as I always wanted you.
Caring then Not.
Warm then Cold.
Close then Distant.
Gone is the loving soul I once knew.
What is that thing who has taken up residence where your soul once was?
What hideous unkind creature have you become?
No longer does your soul shine bright like the stars.
No longer does your infectious laugh ring loud and clear through these walls.
No longer do your eyes hold the warmth they once had.
You are no longer the being I cared for and once loved.
Why has this insidious thing taken your place?
Your kind compassionate words now cold biting and cruel.
Your warmth now chilling and cold.
Your eyes cut into me and pierce clean through.
Do you even remember the times you smiled?
The times we laughed and had fun?
Do you remember what fun even is?
Where has that person in that THEY so lovingly married?
Where's the kindness you and them once had?
How can I call you family if you never act it?
How can you be the person who once sang, danced,laughed, smiled and loved?
How can you become them again?
Can you ever?
Will you ever?
Please...I want no...Need to know!
Please...
Please.

A cat sat on the mat
With its raven fur swirling into darkness
Like a cloud wandering into night