What was that?
Did it mean anything to you at all?
Of course it did.. you love me, right?

Im unsure
I know at one point you were everything.
I know that I loved you..

some you see
some you dont
not all will heal
not all end in groth
i know youve heard
what dosent **** you makes you stronger
but thats not always true
some time it just makes you realize
no one will ever be there for you

I long to see me
As you do,
Entirely foreign and
Mundanely beautiful.
I wish to trace
The curves of my lettering,
Attempting to decode
A message I have already
Memorized.
I have already unraveled
All of my mysteries but you
Still startle at each creak
Of the floor, each squeak
Of the door.
Nevertheless,
That elsewise wonder
Is only reserved for
Strangers.

i’m still heartbroken,
lost without the person i turned to when my world was upside down.
but you proved that you stopped caring,
just like everyone else before you.
i know i am difficult,
a mess that’s so broken you kept getting cut on the pieces.
you promised me you would be there through thick and thin,
but now here i am becoming a narcissist writing about the pain you’ve caused.

I looked through the files of my soul
and after searching, all I could find out is that I dont wanna die
And that's enough for me
For my body is a masterpiece
Not to be tampered with
Not to be harmed
Especially not by me