My mother is hard stone
She is kind hands
Tired of seeing her work
Dashed against harder rocks
I find it hard to believe
I came from her kinda strength
I don't need anyone strength
Guard your heart strength
She called me today
Knowing I was in pain
She spoke to me on a plaintive way
Asking why I let
Myself fall in love so soon
Let yet another boy
Leave my heart bereft
I told her I couldn't help it
That even my broken heart loves completely
She at first tried to talk me strong
Failing that's she said Sweetly
Summer has only 20 days left
Can you avoid another heart break
Before it ends
I told her I would try
And I still don't know if that's a lie

I can't believe
I let this happen
Twice in a summer
My sutures pulled apart
I can't believe
I let them both
Drive steaks into my heart
****
You hurt me too
My heart's such a ******* fool
I hate him
I hate you
How could you say things so cruel
Why would you
I just wanted to speak
You screamed at me
You didn't care
Didn't give a **** about me
*******
I love you
You don't treat me that way
Because you're broke and hurting
I shouldn't be
Something you just throw away
I cried for him today
For the first time in a while.
And I cried for you too
And the fact you left me hyperventilating on a closet floor
You don't help me anymore
I called to help you
******* for not letting me try
And for making me feel so small

You are a ******* tragedy
I don't care
I want to play the female lead.

I should really stop
Writing poetry at 1:43
and fantasizing about pouring alcohol in my coffee
And fantasizing about making love to you
and fantasizing.

I should really stop
Spending too long online
and going to sleep 2 hours before my family wakes
and going to sleep (just to wake up a few hours later)
and not sleeping

I should really stop
reading Cummings late
and pouring over Byron late
and pouring over Burns late
and late night poetry readings

I should really stop
listening to death cab sleepy
and listening to brand new sleepy
and listening to la dispute sleepy
And listening to perfect lyrics sleepy

I should really stop
dreaming about love
and dreaming about those who don't love me
And dreaming about those who might love me
And dreaming about you loving me

I should really stop
but I cant seem to stop
any of it

I should really drink
Because then the next time we speak
I'll have some excuse for my slurred speech
Besides the intoxication of hearing your voice
and saying your name

If this is soul mates
I sorta hope ill forget
find someone without "leaving"
marring their kiss
conversely
i sorta hope
that this is soul mates
That when this ends
perhaps
our paths will cross again
That we will intersect
forever
the ropes of an inescapable net
I could spend a life time
bumping into you
And maybe next time
you wont leave when we do.

I want you to stop hurting
i want to take your pain
i want to hold you close
you ask me to refrain
i know that you are coping
i know you are afraid
i'm left here waiting hoping
that you will be okay