Isabel

Isabel Aug 4

Death

The life being stripped from their eyes
Their souls on the ferry to the afterlife
At the moment death has you too
Has you riding the ferry of grief
Staying aboard as if you live there
Each room a living nightmare
Each room a feeling you can’t escape
Many visit the ferry of grief but few leave
Many believe they have escaped but no one truly escapes the void left when you lose that someone special
No one can escape the numbness once you remember you never got to say goodbye
Remembering their soul is on another ferry never coming back
But as many say “nothing last forever”
Not the hugs, laughs, late night talks, or the promises that lay in the air wishing for them to come true
If any of us had one wish it would be to relive every memory with them
To ride the ferry of life with them one last time
7-3-23

I don’t know if I like this one. Not my favorite

Isabel Aug 4

Love

I wonder when I can meet the person who will make me feel loved and alive
It feels so lonely and depressing waiting for them
To be so alone in my thoughts that I start to believe them
Wishing someone could come and quiet them while holding me
Until then I must wait patiently for my heart to be fulfilled

Let’s hope this is the ending to my writers block. Thoughts on this?

Isabel Jul 7

Visiting

Seeing childhood places should bring me joy
I should feel happy remembering all the wonderful times
But all I could do is stare at these places as if I have never stepped foot inside
All I could do is stare and remember the life I left behind
Having to reopen doors that I closed long ago
Reopening wounds that were simply “healed” by putting a bandaid on them

Seeing the park that I ran around in only makes me remember when I witnessed my brother get hit
Passing the school I once attended brings back when my brother went to the hospital
When entering the home of my grandma one would think I would remember the smell of her cooking or her telling us stories
But all I could remember was when I had to go to the neighbors apartment because she was having an episode

All these places I’ve visited
Places where to others they would remember playing in the swings
Hanging out with friends during lunch
Eating food there grandma cooked them
All I could do was gaze and think how she once walked this path beaming at the sight before her
Not knowing later on that these sights would bring her sadness
9:48 pm 3-31-23

Isabel Jul 3

Perdida

Te extraño
Extraño a todos los que perdí
Todos los que tuve que despedirme Simplemente porque el tiempo dijo que yo tenía
Extraño el tiempo que pasamos juntos
Todas las risas y sonrisas que compartimos

Entiendo que tuviste que irte, pero ¿por qué?
porque de esa manera
porque tuviste que dejarme
Por qué
Por qué
Por qué

Te voy a extrañar
voy a llorar mucho que el tierra se va a ahogar
nunca estaré bien sin ti
Porque cuando te fuiste te llevaste una parte de mi
te perdono por dejarme
Por el tristeza que me distes
6:08 pm 3-31-23

Isabel Jul 3

Melody

How lovely your voices sound together
Like the ocean they flow easily
A calming sound to a hectic mind
A beautiful melody mixed together by your lovely voices
A melody that has my soul flying to heaven
Voices so enchanting it’s like I’m stuck in a spell
Oh how it makes one feel like they’re floating
Floating in the sea on a warm day
Your voices bring me peace
Reminds me of a time where life wasn’t like a hurricane
The sounds of your beautiful melody is the one moment I get of feeling like I’m in heaven
4-22-23

This one was inspired by music! Specifically a Latin boy band I like to listen to but it has turned to representing the days where music helps me during a bad moment.

#music