as i stood by the riverside
lost and alone,
with death as my only friend
searching for horizon
to find the very end
my whole,
broken
pathetic
fragile
life ,
flashed infront of me
and the regrets i had in my mind
i looked , and
kept looking
at the knife in my hand
the thought of the cool blade
on my pale skin,
the thought of the crimson beads
popping out of my skin,
it all semms so perfect
the shrieks inside my head
had the urge to come out,
i want those scars
i want those cuts
oh! i wish they would never fade
now! those scars seem prettier than mascara
that blood seemed prettier than gucci and prada
my body started shivering,
my eyes started watering,
my stomach growled
and my lips started trembling,
all of a sudden,
''I'M FINE''
rang on my phone
a SORRY was what i got
from the other side,
the knife i threw
and the tears drew,
and i thought that-
that message was all that turned my death to my life
                                                            -Shy­sta&Nandini; x)

when my life was going well
and it never seemed as a hell .....
why did i fall for u ?
when everythng was no less that perfect
and the happiness popped into my life in a rocket
why did i fall for u ?
when all my love was given and never recieved
and that there was nothing i could deceive
why did i fall for u ?
when everything was going out as i planne dit to be
and happiness and love and affection was all i could see
THEN why did i fall for u ?
when i had everything
and tht i needed nothing
why , why did i fall for u ?
with all the luxuries i had
i wasn't able to live
with all the jewels i had
i wasn't able to give
with all the wealth i had
i wasn't able to believe
cause what i lacked was my heart
which was miles and miles apart
made me think ,
think why did i fall for u ?
the day i saw u
sparks flew
the day i saw u smile at me
made me think what could the reason be
the day u came close
and let me be on toes
and kissed me on my lips
in pure water less are 100 dips
the i was with you
i never notices how the time flew
was a whole year
seemed like a night's near
when i closed my eyes
i only saw you
i only felt you hand
i only felt your breath
i then wondered again WHy did i fall for you ?
the answer was crystal ....
ur my heart
and you fixed it all ....
soo that it could never fall apart ...
never fall apart ...
never fall apart ....
         -Shysta **)

you turned my life upside down
killed me from inside
kicked me down and threw my crown
and left me here , with no one to guide

cut me down in half a million pieces
treated me worst and the love decreases
between u
between me
between us

millions of lies
never thought about my cries
cause wht he did was no less than a crime
and he can never be worth a single dime
cause he traeted me worst than a dog
and that he was a clog

happy was my life going
he entered and it all got ruined
for his love was something i dreamt about
and what he did ...haa ! Flout !
love ? :o  love was like ****
and every second my heart was bit

with all your lies
and that fake shine in ur eyes
how did he do it ?
how dare he play with my emotions ?
why did he do it ?
why did he do it ?

you held me tight close to ur heart
and u said em ur life's most important part
but i dnt think that part exists now !
cause someone else is to whom ur vowed

you broke my heart at a tender age
and left me ,
all alone in a metal bound cage

em shouting screeming , crying out loud
but em just an ordinary girl in a crowd
u used me ,
cheated me ,
played on me ,

u broke that trust
and came in like a gust
u have to pay back
u have to pay back
u have to pay back !
                   -shysta x)