I wrote I love you in the sand
The waves washed it away
Before you got the chance to see

I whispered I love you
Sleep stole you away
Before you got the chance to hear

Maybe this is meant to be
A missed connection
Between you and me

I’m scared you’re going to be
The one who finally breaks me
My trust you betrayed
Cut my heart with your blade

I cannot take much more hurt
My brain is on high alert
I have to protect the pieces of my fragile heart
I’ve told you this from the start

I don’t understand why you hurt me still
You knew I’d do anything at your will
I never expected you to play games
I believed every one of your claims

I want to trust you
To know everything as true
I’ve never felt so afraid
These feelings I’m trying to evade

I love you more than I should
It’s bad for my livelihood
I am trying to forgive
But I’m running out of trust to give

Regret
Consumed my thoughts
Swallowed my soul
Ate away at my sanity
Unable to stop this cycle
Of negativity

I should have passed
Less judgement
I should have been
More understanding
I should have cherished
Every moment we shared

Worried that I have lost my chance
Will I ever make you laugh again?
Will we ever make new memories?
I should have told you I love you
When I had the chance
To hear it back

I don’t make arguments
Out of nothing
I make nothing
Out of what should have been an argument

When I see you my chest tightens
Suffocating under your stare
I can feel your hand around my throat
Pinning my body to the bed
Choking, gasping, crying

When I see you my skin crawls
I can feel your body
Forcing its way inside mine
Using me as an object
Made for your pleasure

When I hear you speak I taste blood
Biting my tongue
To keep your secret
I can hear every threat
You used to keep me quiet

Firey flowers
Burst in the sky
Celebrating independence
On the 4th of July

Booms echo off buildings
Rockets launch sky high
Exploding into colors
Quickly floating by

Awestruck by the beauty
Infatuated with the sound
I love watching fireworks bloom
And its petals fall to the ground

It’s hard to keep myself together
When the world keeps pulling me apart
sheltered myself from pain
Hid behind a guarded heart

I just want someone brave enough
To scale these walls
Someone to catch me
When I inevitably fall

I need someone
To look me in the eye
And knows when I say
“I’m fine” its a lie

Please care enough
To save me from myself
Care about my physical
And my mental health

The world is cruel
But I am still here
I just need someone
Before I disappear

Silence isn’t always silent
Sometimes silence itself
Is the answer we seek
Confessions, dreams, fears
Our greatest truths
Are hidden in our silence

Losing friends is inevitable
I’ve lost many before
Death, distance, and lifestyle
Has already taken its toll

You were the friend
I couldn’t bear to lose
Although you are gone
My hope is not spent

I will keep you in my heart
Holding on to the sentiment
Even the lost can find their way home
If you leave the porch light on

Someday you will miss me
And when you do you’ll realize
You only have yourself to blame
For pushing me away
I hope that blame
Causes you as much pain
As you caused me
When you left me behind

She learned not to be hurt
That he only reached out
When he needed her

Instead she chose to see herself
As a light he reaches out to
When darkness consumed him

She was searching for a home
In an empty house

I lost myself
Unable to see my own eyes
Staring back at me in the mirror

It wasn’t until I saw
My reflection in your eyes
That I could finally see myself again

Watching the sky turn
From black to grey to blue
Only means
Another day without you

I bite my lip
Until I bleed
To prevent my thoughts
From pouring out
Drowning you
Before we have a chance
To swim

In trying not to lose you
I lost myself
I had to let you go
To find who I am again

I had accepted my fate
Content with drowning
You woke me up
Made me crave life again
And just like that
You saved me
When I wasn’t looking for a savior

You didn’t know how to love me
The way I needed to be loved
You didn’t know how to hold me
And show me I was enough

When she spoke
I watched her eyes
Her lips expounded love
But her eyes revealed disappointment
I resented her more
With every kind remark
Softly spoken
Behind a deceiving smile

I’m afraid my heart has forgotten
How bad it hurts to be broken