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SheOfNeverland Feb 2014
When I look in the mirror there's one thing I see
The ghost of a girl that used to be me
So pale is her face, so tattered her shirt
The tears on her face make streaks in the dirt.

Fingers that clasp her heart in her hand
She watches it beat as she struggles to stand
Her lips form an O as she cries and she screams
She falls to the floor, comes apart at the seems.

This ghost of a girl once had her own name
But now that she's gone every word sounds the same
Inside out on the floor in what once was her room
Surrounded by darkness, gone blind from the gloom.

The girl in the mirror walks away from the glass
From her world to ours she somehow has passed
She approaches the ghost that now lies on the floor
And helps her arise while her insides still pour.

She gathers her up, every last little part
Gets a needle and thread and starts with the heart
Each thing put in its place then she sews it all in
And returns to the mirror she was meant to be in.

The ghost of the girl stares in awe at her face
The girl that once was has come back to this place
She was there all along she just needed some help
What a shock that she found she just needed herself.
SheOfNeverland Feb 2014
I didn't know his name
Though it still would be the same
Had I known I'd be in pain
I never would have played his game.
I didn't know I'd die
When I looked him in the eye
If I had I might have cried
But of course, like most, he lied.
He told me I'd feel good
That I'd feel the way I should
With what happiness I could
I proudly told him that I would.
So I tried it and I loved it
And I wanted some more of it
Down my throat I tried to shove it
The feeling others seem to covet.
Feet are high above the ground
I'm lost and don't want to be found
There are words, I hear no sound
My heart and soul no longer bound.
Soon the buzz wears weak and thin
And the pain comes from within
Now the withdraw will begin
And we prepare for our next sin.
I'm so glad he introduced us
I don't care that he seduced us
With this new love that I feel
I'll never care for what is real.
SheOfNeverland Feb 2014
Alice in wonderland
Alice in chains
Down the rabbit hole went
The child's remains;
Remains of the girl that she never was
To make room for the woman that she has become.
Alice in wonderland
Alice in chains
Old Alice lays dead
By herself she was slain;
Blood spilled by the blade conjured up by her mind
Or was it a Wonderland pill she did find?
Alice in wonderland
Alice in chains
As she falls down the hole
She forgets she's insane;
She'll wander the hills of this conjured up place
Singing songs with flowers with a painted on face.
SheOfNeverland Feb 2014
Pack the bowl
Nice and tight
Drive away
In the night
With the pipe
In my hand
Smoke as much
As I can.
Thoughts are gone
From my head
I can't help
But feel dead
Even through
All the laughs
I can't escape
My awful past.
Stars dance
In the sky
I am so
Very high
Cigarette
In my hand
It's so hard
Just to stand.
Float away
To the clouds
Silence broken
By these sounds
I can't see
Through the haze
My whole life
Is ablaze.
No solace
No love
This drug's
Not enough
All I wanted
Was to feel
But I don't
Know what's real.
Broken heart
Broken smile
Broken dreams
Like a child
Time has slowed
To a stop
Jump from the ledge
The tippy top.
In the back
Of my head
I can hear
From the dead
Saying stop
Right away
So alive
You can stay
They are jealous
Most, of me
And the world
I still see.
Now the high is
Wearing thin
Feel the aching
From within
So I pack a
Little more
And get high just
Like before
So the pain
Will go away
If for only
Just a day.
SheOfNeverland Feb 2014
E scape from myself, if only for a little while
M ake pretend that everything is ok
P ray to a God I don't believe in
T ell them all that I'm fine, but only
Y ou see through all the lies...

I ll conceived notions of happiness haunt me
N ever give me any peace while
S miles tickle my cheeks, but the warmth never makes it
I nside...and I
D ie a little more
E very day.
SheOfNeverland Feb 2014
I love you but you don't exist
You live within my mind
Why is it that my heart aches
With the thought of losing a thought...
I dreamed you up one night
With perfect little toes and a tiny little nose...
My baby, my darling child
Sometimes I take a nap just to play with you.
You were real once upon a time
A little blip in my belly
Barely even recognized as life...
But I knew you were there...
And I knew as soon as you were gone...
SheOfNeverland Feb 2014
These words are my best friends
My saving grace
The only thing that
Saves me from
Myself
And my darkest face...
I trudge through this muddy mess
I call my life
The truth laid plain on my ****** dress
I should know
I wield the knife...
I write when I don't have the courage
To speak
Some call this art
Some call this lame
Some call this weak...
But there is a beauty in the silence
The way your eyes read the words
That your ears can't hear...
But sometimes I wonder why I'm alive when
There are so many others
More deserving of the space I use
More deserving of the life I abuse...
And I turn to my only friends, these words
The only true friends that I deserve.
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