Stab in the side
                    Make me cry
        Stab in the foot
                     Yes, it hurt
     Bruises on my arms
              Don't be alarmed
         Cuts on my wrist
                    Add it to the list
          Burned my chest
               Definitely not the best
                                Lies on the side
                                    Laws to abide
           Tonight I'll die
With a ****** knife at my side

I haven't written in a while
Because I was with the suicide hotline
I lost my device
And my love with it too
So I am glad to be back
Writing my feelings
My thoughts
And words

A gentle touch to my skin
  You've won me, again
    We met on Magma, a digital art website
      But I didn't know you would abuse me
        My body trembled as you started to flirt
           And I wish that I never heard
              You sent pictures and messages
                 That I didn't want
                   And then you found out my name, my address, my home
                       You flew from Virginia, finding me here
                          And you took me, kidnapped me
                              You did things to me that I didn't want
                                 And I wanted to die
                                But you kept going
                               Scarring me for life
                              I ran away trying to live
                             Didn't bother to take my shirt
                            I thought to myself
                           Why is my life like this
                          I reported him, got him banned
                        But he found me again, threatening me
                      That he would **** me if I didn't do what he wanted
                     I said no, and he pinned me down
                    Breathing down my neck
                   With a knife in his hand
                  He said he wouldn't hurt me if I took everything off
                 But I still said no
                He forced my clothes off and did what he wanted
               Leaving my body alone
              He then yelled to me
             And said "Did you think we were done?"
            I said yes, and started to run
           He came for me, catching me
          Then he took the knife
        And stabbed it into my side
       I had to follow him or my heart would've been next
      But this abuse I have experienced
     Was the worst one yet
    He threw me to the curb
   With no clothes
  But still, I ran
Ran home
To the home I knew

It's fine to like a girl
But I want to like more
A gay trans boy
Forced to look cis and straight
And its nice for a while
But it gets uncomfortable
I want to be with HIM
Not her, but if I stop going out with her
She would **** herself
I can't risk it
So I have to cheat
But is it wrong?

I found you
                   d
                      e
                        a
             ­             d
                             Lying on the ground
                                                          ­    with a
                                                                ­        k
                                                       ­                n
                                                               ­      i
                                                               ­    f
                                                               ­  e
                                             In your hand
                      Knowing your death was on  purpose
                                       My heart
                S.    T.    O.     P.        S.
In the hope you would be fine
          Eyes cloudy
    Like an overdose on morphine
        But clear as day
  That it was a stab in the h      e
                                    a               r
                                             t
                     With a mix of oxycodone
                        Wish you were
                                                      e
        ­                                          v
                     ­                         i
                                      ­    l
                                       a
But fate doesn't

                           L
                              I
                               ­  E
               I'll join you in the afterlife
     With a match
Or a    n        o
       o                s
                e
                    Or even a
                                       e
                                   if
                          kn
           I'll figure it out
                                   I can't live
      with. out.- ------  
^-^^^^--------^^--------------------- *beeping stops

You're always in my head
Playing the same love song
The one that attracts me to you
I wish you weren't asexual
But I accept it
Even though I want so much more with you
And I know I'll never get it

Why would I confess to something I didn't do
If I was crazy, I would
But I do confess that I tried harming myself
Last night on 2/4,
I stabbed a knife into my side
I burned my arm
In hopes I would die
But I didn't
And I wish I did