I now understand how he feels,
why he acts as he does,
God its an awful feeling, like drowning in the ocean with waves crushing down on you, while you slowly sink, the light fading out, while you sink so helplessly
So you take to the bottle and pills,
to ever so slightly numb the pain,
to not feel for a while, to forget even for just a moment, to be blissful and carefree.
For the moment it wears off you remember the pain and heartache as it wraps around your heart,
You hold back tears fighting to stay in one piece
But everyday, every moment becomes your worst nightmare you step closer and closer to the void, towards self destruction,
While you scream internally for help, "Please someone save me", but alas its too late, and you whisper goodbye cruel world and accept your fate.

In sleepless nights I lie awake,
Thinking about dying and lying in a wake,
Fearing the cold void that might await.

In sleepless nights I lie awake,
What peace would be like, to finally rest,
Thinking of the eternal slumber that awaits.

In sleepless nights I lie awake,
Tired and weary, sad and in misery,
Wondering when the day would get better.

In sleepless nights I lie awake,
Haunted by the memories of loved one's who've passed.

In sleepless nights I lie awake,
Reminiscing of the past, of the sweet precious memories that keeps out the dark.

In sleepless nights I lie awake,
Thankful I made it through the day,
Without falling apart and breaking away.

In sleepless nights I would continue to lie awake,
And stare at the ceiling in the dark,
Until Morpheus comes to take me away.

Feeling down feeling sad?
Feeling hopeless and in despair?
Feeling overwhelmed from everyday life,
Well I have a solution to make it right.
Follow my advice and be at peace,
For all you have to do is take your life.
I know what you're thinking at first,"That's insane"
But i twist your mind and make you believe,
A way out through suicide.
All you have to do is listen to me and believe in these steps,
These steps to feeling fine.

One, Life is a drag a bottom less pit,with no pleasure or joy in it, I feed you these words day and night,until you believe it without a doubt.

Two, You try to tell yourself it will work out in the end but i whisper in your other ear the suffering won't end.

Three, I keep you distant from family and friends,from much needed help that could save you.
Four, Your concentration is gone focus is impossible and I’ve deprived you of your self esteem.
Five, Everything has become hopeless and there's no way to feel better and I say to myself what a great job i've done.
Six, You lose your appetite,you cannot sleep,all of life's activities have dulled you,things that bring you joy and cheer are gone as i have robbed you.

Seven, You then can see only one end,one way to end the pain,you take aim and fire away,while thinking you've escaped the pain.

But what you didn't know was that the pain did not go away,
It now lives in the people you have left.
Now its up to me to start again
It has been a pleasure
Sincerely Mr Depression.

Have you ever fought back tears
Trying to stay strong,
Well I have

Have you ever gone to sleep
Hoping to die in your slumber,
Well I have.

Have you ever had pieces chipped off you everyday
That makes you feel less of a person,
Well I have.

Have you ever prayed to God
To take your life,just so the pain could stop,
Well I have.

Have you ever had a muffled cry
Holding yourself back,just so you don't break and fall apart,
Well I have.

Have you ever been disgusted by yourself
On your cowardice to fight back,
Well I have.

Have you ever known what it is like to be broken and shattered
Only to repeat it the next day,
Well I have.

Have you ever sat in the darkness black
Having dark thoughts, contemplating on ending the pain.
Well I have.

Have you ever found hope
Only for it to be snatched away and snuffed out in the dark,
Well I have.

Have you looked to each day with a renewd resolve to face obstacles,
Well.......... Im not so sure,not anymore.

If I am to wake up one day
In the same body but different mind,
Do not weep as I won't understand why.

If I am to wake up one day
With part of me gone,
Hold me close and hold me dear
For who I was before is gone.

If I am to wake up one day
Without any recollection of past memories so sweet and dear,
Judge me not so harshly,for I am not here.

If I am to wake up one day
Only for you to brave this alone,
Forgive me,for i can't be there to hold you close.

If you were to wake up to this one day
Know this and keep it in your heart,
That I love you,even if I can't remember.

For this will be a moment,
That will test patience and love against all odds.

For if this comes to pass one day
Then sadly it would be goodbye,
For I won't wake up on that day.