III

I got a dog, Charlie
just in case you were wondering
I named her after you

I read a book
you always wanted me to do that
It was your favorite
I didn't understand a word
but for you, Charlie
I breathed every single sentence

I learned how to cook
every time I do
I cook a meal for two
you would've yelled at me
told me I was wasting food

I would've kissed you
to shut you up

it wasn't planned but
I finished college

you never stopped talking about it
it was going to be amazing
you said

but you never got the chance to find out
so I did it for you

it would've been better
if I did it with you

i met this girl
she's so much like you
but so different
but no

I killed you
so why should I forget about you?
why should I replace you?
she'll never replace you

I forgave them
those people who hurt you
I did it for you
but it would have been better
if I did it with you

I never forgave myself though

I sometimes find myself
wondering if I could be with you up there
but you always said that life was amazing
and you never got a chance to find out

so I'll do it for you

I love you
I miss you

If I were as convincing
As true love on display
I'd speak without merit
As loud as I may

But...
I'm but a whisper
A voice in the dark
Speaking directly
To subconscious parts

Disturbed and forgotten
These thoughts left alone
I am the whisper
That comforts you soul

And if you believe
The whisperer's rhymes
You too shall travel
Beyond your own mind
...

There was a line
Of word design
I had in mind
To write

When open wide
My four o'clock eyes
In the slumbering side
Of night

In the clear of dawn
The words of songs
Quickly pass on
To rain

Where do epiphanies go
When energy flows
Off on down
Dreamy drains
...

Deleted from the mind