i might look naive
                  but i have seen life
          from the position i'm in
                  from the dawn of the day
         *to the edge of the night
sitting on the head of a pin

             i may look to be
                       new to the scene
                  but believe me i've always been here
         you talk of the past
                   like it's history
                           blink and disappear

        i have seen life
                  in the face of a child
                         life in the crook of the old
                 at the edge of the hurt
        at the end of the smile
                   life for all that it's worth

                      i have seen life
            on it's darker side
   seen it on the left and the right
               seen it places never thought that i would
          from the middle
                    from the front
                            *from behind

Everything is fine
Everything is okay
As long as I am here
All by myself
Wordless and deaf
Blind to anything I chose not to see
Words will take the meaning I give to them
And language will no longer be
Something I learned
But only
Something I create
Something I will be

May you dream of me tonight
Darling?
And may I do the same
Lover?
May you hear all my little secrets
Stranger?
And may I know all yours
Friend?
May you sit by my side
Dearest?
And may I remain silent some time
Please?
May we forget language for a while
May we speak of no names or numbers
May we mention no person besides ourselves
May we only speak of childlish dreameries
And crazy foolish thoughts
Of everything that we are
And nothing that we are not
May we spend the night dreaming simple
As our hairs get tangled to the grass
Where cute little insects will build their realm
As we look up to a starry sky
On top of a mountain that will make us forget
Who we are
As a midnight breeze kisses us to sleep
As we lay side by side
This night in Forevermore
May we?

An X over my mouth
An X blinded my eyes
An X made me deaf
An X condemned my mind

I can not speak
I can not see
I can not remember
I can not be

Two worlds that will never collide
And a word that will never make it
Outside of thoughts
Into language

And I can not see
I can not say
What's on my mind
What haunts me down

Because of two straight lines
And a ******* X
Blinding my eyes
Putting me into an endless oblivion
Of all that is inside my mind

A ******* letter
And a world overlapping the other
Of nonsense and mirrors
Of reflections and thoughts

In the middle of chaos, you find life
In the middle of this ugliness, you find humans
You look at a monster, and you are scared
But you know what is scarier?
It is that when you look at him, you see yourself
All this filth stuck into your skin
This ugliness that will not go away no matter what you do
It makes you feel horrible
And sometimes…
It makes you hate yourself
You want to run away but you can not
We hate people for what we are
We hate them for what we are afraid of
We hate them because deep down
We see ourselves
All this ugliness inside us
This ugliness that keeps us humans
This ugliness that makes us beautiful

… Bittersweet ugliness
                 keeping me sane …