Rear view
mirror
fogs
with fear
familiar faces
disappear
I sing a melody
in hopes
you'll hear
You are there
& I am here

Black tar
Daydream
China white
Fiend
Gold in
His veins
Soft touch
to
take away
his pains
Gal of the night
I do what you like
Far out my mind
he's
Still in my sight

elusive
queen of hearts
dabbling in
the darkest
of arts

save me
from
this
twisted fate
in this state
my vision
blurs
silence stirs
my voice
purrs
our worlds
merge

black ocean
yearns for
commotion
abyss
of trouble
summons me
calls my name
echoes
dreary syllables
roll off
his
tongue
the moon howls
for me
once
drowned me
darling
I now
bathe
in the
sun

Writing haikus amidst summer rain
to remember how all you brought was
dampened pages & pain

To remind myself
of how you went
then came,
to remind myself how no
weather condition
no man has every stayed the same
to remind myself

of the beauty in pain

to remind myself how
rain can come down
like omnipresent gods
& how it can rain in LA
despite all odds

I wrote you a haiku
in summer rain
to remind myself of how
you brought
dampened pages
and pain

Life of
vividly painted
walls
ups
downs
withdrawals
I crave the chaos
inhale
the insanity
Sitting quietly
seems like a tragedy
I need to run, run, and be wild
You look at me intensely
give me a smile
for we are birds of a feather
we fly
away together
Away from
the confinements of a winter day
Fly into the freedom breeze of May

The beauty is in the mess of it all
the purest moments
unravel
when ones treacherous walls
begin to fall

The source isn't angelic or heavenly
one can seem devilish or deadly
light emerges from the darkest of landscapes
one must find their faith
for the glowing ones
are dark glittering souls
Whom once fell down the depths
of a never-ending black hole

Looks deceive those blinded by the all encompassing white light
One must not be scared, one must let go of the fright

Appreciate the gloomy hours
dance in the heaviest of showers
inhale the scent emerging
from the rarest of flowers
For the beauty is in
the mess of it all

Drifting into
a dark abyss
full of
weary thoughts
blocked visions
I dream of a past
which
ceases to exist
one lacking
  impure energies crossing over
an unwanted threshold
I never asked the demons
to cross over to my side
yet  hidden fears can
manifest into the open air
I take a deep breath as
I dive head first into the cold
crisp water and swim into the unknown
water is shockingly cold
  mind is shockingly clear
What lies ahead isn’t nearly
as frightening as that which
I’m swimming
far, far away from

My fingers
numb
as I write
these
words
vermillion
blood
pours onto
the page
I spill
it all
in hopes
you'll stay
drain me
clean
  lost my
sparkle
lost
my gleam

My soul
is on
fire
with hellish
intent
burning
& yearning
in the
land of
lost
angels;
lost
dreams
I
no longer
glisten
nor gleam
solace
in
flames;
echoes
of
lost
fame

There is
one universal
truth
that truth
is that
the truth
and only
the truth
will
set
your soul,
heart,
and mind
free

life
of thine
intertwined
with the life
of ours
humanity
is utmost
divine
as
light
shines
on the
other side
of the poignant
night
when the morning
sun
does rise
darkness
meets
it's demise

Some mornings,
I awaken with
speckled
eyes of hope
as the sun brims
into
my
veins
pumping inspiration
into my stream
& the feeling
that I am no longer
bound to your chains

tainted blood
overflowing
flood
***** flower
refuses to bud
walk through his fire
I'm drenched
in desire
morals evade me
burn
higher
& higher

Let the inspiration
Flow through
Your veins
Only love remains
Let it electrify
The soul
& let the art
Take control

I'm looking
back
while
facing
forward
it's all
so clear
as it
drifts
away
fogged up
mirror
clearer
visions

The bright
morning
rise
of the
vibrant
heart
overpowers
the
foggy
dark
night
of the
soul

angels didn’t come to sing
That night
When i was all alone
By the desolate shore
When i was all alone
With the midnight sky

Feeling like the end was near
Feeling like there was no
Laughter left to hear

Angels didn’t come to
Sing that night
I found your dark shadows
Trick my light

No light on the pier
No angel near

Only I
And a desolate shore
And the midnight sky

It was a much
darker sunset
than I was used to
he tainted my heart
& swirled my body
black and blue
he kissed
the bruises
then asked me to stay
my mind was unstable
& easy to sway

His aura
was vermillion
electric
red
His hands crushed
a cigarette
stained with my
bright red
lips
I wore the color
in hopes
he would stay
amused
but deep down
I knew
I was serene
calm,
and
utterly blue

I walked the crooked path

My feet got chained

Now I walk towards the light

The all encompassing

white light

Your touch electrified me

It hurt

But it propelled me

to seek higher realms

stars dizzy my
melting mind as
the ground fails
to tether me
to the earth

Half in the earth
half in the ethers
never quite
here nor there
nor anywhere

I lost myself
at the
emerald sea
currents pulled
me into the
depths
&
the chaos
set me free

Not all worlds
Are meant to be
Explored

Not all fires
To be lit

We will not be
Rewarded
For every
Road we drove


But instead that
Which we
Walked away from.

I prance on your wooden
bed like a fawn in
the forrest of ephemeral desire

You sing to me a lullaby
in the distant landscape
where time melts
and ceases to exist

I heard heaven
is on earth
and the angels are
all around

For without your love,
I was once lost

Now I am Found

A master
mind
masters
their mind

A starry eyed gaze
catapults his mind
of intellect
into a craze
magic floats
in the
dreary haze
when her tone
of allure
sways
his way

Nomadic
tendencies
in the
night
I never belong
to anyone
in my
sight

Although I may
escape into a dream world
that is purely my own
I know in this life
I am never truly alone
Despite the dreary days of
solitude and disconnection
a deeper understanding  lies
within me
that I am more than merely one being
For I am connected to the higher powers
above guiding me sweetly
For there is no separation
from myself and the sky above
nor myself and the pigeons
on the ground below
alone is a mere illusion
Humans are connected
to that which is above us
that which is below us
never truly isolated
this can be a world of my own
but
I find comfort
in the fact that we are all alone, together

Your silence

Speaks volumes

Non existent

Music to my ears

We are not vibrating

At a similar frequency

For we are oceans apart

Miles away

I dream in bright electric colors

You dream in black and white

Grey tones

Highlight your mind

Purple hues electrify mine

I sparkle, gleam, glean

My love, you barely shine

Hands painted
crimson red,
eyes painted seaside
blue like the faded
sky of midnight

he destructs me
with each lingering
look and I explode
into a million
pieces by the hands
of fate and karma

We've died together
a million times, so what's
another night?

Morning sun rises
to reveal an ancient
truth and I dream
of a wise snake
showing me the path

We've died together
a million times,
so what's another night?

Birds of Paradise
Prey on me
I’ll follow you to the land above
Or the land below
Whichever direction
The tainted wind shall blow
My weary heart
compassless
& nowhere bound
My wandering toes
Won’t touch the ground

Birds of paradise,
prey on me
Take me far
to the land of the
free

I was born beneath
the waxing darkened sky & moon
I saw the depths
of darkness too soon

When the stars sparkled
and twinkled in my iris
I was born backwards and
remembered my past
life as isis

I was born beneath the waxing moon
I experienced the depths
of darkness too soon

So forgive me when I no longer
swoon- for lord knows
I saw the depths
of darkness too soon

Those who seek
the overflowing
abundance
of wisdom
on the treacherous
path
will eventually
reach the philosophers
stone

Your eyes are black

Your hands are red

Grasping, grabbing

Me by the moonlight.

Off in a distance-
An abyss.

I contemplate
How deep I can dive
To swim away- or to
Feel anything at all.

Seaside waves crashing
Violently into me,
As are you.

I let out a sound-
But My feet- they
Can’t touch the
Ground.

So now I float
Above the ground
And it’s hard for me
To ever come down.

Eternally lost- and
Never found.

You haunted me
With just one look-and
Your eyes black
Hands red

Now I lie here-
Not quite alive
Nor dead.

Words pour out
onto the page
words bleeding
into one another
like vermillion
blood
My heart pours
onto the page
I write
for you, not
for me
for
the ones
blinded
by that which
blocks
their vision
but they
can't see
nor grasp
it
fully
I write for
you,
not for me

Crystalized visions as I stand
tall in the eye of the storm

Look what they did
to me, for I
am savaged, broken,
and torn

Blood trickles
from my legs
like dripping juice
from rotten peaches

I am silent amidst
the red sun rising
as I stand tall
in the eye of the storm

Look what they did to me
mother, I am broken and torn