Hey
Would you listen?
If I said the words
You don't want to hear
The words I have locked into my soul
The words that would make you feel nothing at all

Hey
Would you smile?
Smile for me, tell me I know
If I told you that I loved you dear
loved you more then you would dare
That I love you more then I can bare

Hey
Would you hold me close?
Whisper sweet nothings into my ear
As time would slow
If I confessed to you these feelings
That you thought had no further meaning


Hey
Would you run away?
Not want to deal with this problem
Making your big getaway
Making your great escape
Leaving me behind with my heart agape


Hey
Would you feel conflicted
That the closest person to you
Decided that they didn't want to lose you
The one you treat better then any girlfriend
Would you make this confession the result of our bitter end

Hey
Time has torn us apart
Now You may never know
That you will forever remain in my heart
Like the spring after the winter snow

Hey

Tell me something
Would you dear?
Tell me something
I want to hear

Tell me I'm beautiful
That i'm better then the rest
Tell me I'm unique
That I'm incredibly blessed

Tell me that I'm creative
With all my writing skills and Art
Tell me that I'm amazing
That I'm insanely smart

Tell me that I'm special
The only one for you
Tell me that you don't need them
That you'll never tell me adieu

Tell me that I'm kind
That I'm tender and sincere
Tell me that I'm innocent
Even though I'm someone to be feared

Tell me that I'm not a mess
That I'm not broken inside
Tell me that I'm perfect as I am
That it doesn't matter that I lied

Tell me that I'm not unwanted
That my friends actually need me
Tell me that my soul isn't black
That you understand and can see me

So tell me with pure honesty
What is hidden within my eyes
Tell me that you know the truth
That there is more underneath my disguise

A room of pure darkness
Lit only by the silver screen
Rows of people sit
All watching the same scene

In the final row we sat
A boy to my right
A Girl to my left
holding my hands tight

The movie begins, all at the edge of our seats
As the movie proceeds, Our happiness deceased
As we reach the end, With the conclusion drawing near
We all sit there shocked, Completely in tears

Our hands tightening, As another disappears
Sweat forming between our palms, As we feel more fear
Knees tucked up tight, You look like an idiot
A sobbing mess you were, But to you this was serious

Your hand covering your mouth, As the salty streams run down your cheeks
Attempting to hold back the sobs that were echoing throughout the cinema
The front few rows all turning around to look, You could hear them giggling
The most heartbreaking scene, Their amused stares were belittling

When the credits begin to roll, You were still shaken up
I also teared up, But I wasn't nearly as bad as you
Rubbing your back to sooth you, To help you relax
While laughing at you, Because you cried to the max

Giving you a hug, You buried your head into my shoulder
This was really quite amusing, As you were so much older
You then throwing a fit, yelling
How can the film makers do this!
At this point we were all laughing at you
Calm down
It was only a movie

Maybe I can rewrite time
Change who i really am
Become a new person
Everyone will be like ****

Maybe I can fix myself
Paint my face with bright colours
Makeup does the trick
The boys will get flutters

Maybe I can become more wanted
By losing a bunch of weight
Going to the gym weekly
I could even get a date

Maybe I can change my style
Become beautiful and bright
Updating my closet
I could light up the night

Maybe I could become more intelligent
By studying a lot more
I could improve my grades
Then I wouldn't be as dumb as before

Maybe I can change my personality
Make it perfect and right
then everyone will love me
They would be filled with delight

Maybe I should learn to accept
That I can't change who I am
No makeup nor items of clothing
Can distinguish who I am

For I am, me
With all the faults and scars
Nobody is perfect
We are just one of a million stars

So maybe in the end
I can wish and hope with all my might
But even if i did change all these things about me
I doubt that I could ever be satisfied
As acceptance is the true key

You would think I would learn my lesson
That I wouldn't be such a fool
You would think after the first time
That I would know and follow the rules

You would think that a heart like mine
So tormented and broke
You would think that a boy like him
Wouldn't take it as such a joke

You would think that the friends around me
Would learn not to be so fake
You would think that I would figure out
That I can't change a snake

You would think things will change
We will become more mature
You would think that high school drama
Is something anyone can endure

You would think that since I am a child
My opinion are completely invalid
You would think that as a full grown adult
That everything you say is valid

You would think that as the years fly by
We could learn to love one another
You would think that as the world moves on
We wouldn't care about skin colour

You would think that since its been so long
That women have equal rights
You would think that with all the new changes
That the LGBT could finally sleep at night

You would think that due to the history of the world
That we wouldn't have bloodshed or war
You would think that we would learn more morals
that young girls wouldn't be labeled as ******

You would think that since everything we've been through
No matter how big or how small
You would think that since our world is so advanced
That we wouldn't build up such walls

But its clear to me that our world hasn't changed
We haven't learnt at all
But we all pretend things are different now
Because we simply don't want to fall

You Would Think That

To the boy who's heart i broke
I apologies in advance
I know I shouldn't have done what i did
I shouldn't have taken that chance

To that same boy who now hates me
With such you have every right
I do apologies that you will never see this
You will never see me in the same light

I was intrigue by you
That I won't lie
and i thought maybe
I could give this a try

I lead you on, I admit
It wasn't the best thing to do
But for the first few days
I was genuinely interested in you

You were funny and sweet
I was completely and utterly flattered
But then four factors came in
Which lead your heart to be shattered

I have my reasons for doing that
Reasons you'll never hear
Its all pointless now
As all you want is for me to disappear

My first reason which lead me to stress
Was that i couldn't handle the commitment
I panicked and I freaked, I cried for a week
You couldn't understand, I'm sorry for being weak

The second reason was that I noticed my true feelings
I realised far to late that I only saw you as a friend
I asked and begged my friend to hold off your confession
But in the end she wouldn't which lead to our digression

The third reason plays into the second
As my true feelings told me so,  I was in love with another
I was too naive to see, I only saw you as a brother
Once i discovered my feelings, I had to play it off
If you ever read this, to all of this you would scoff

My fourth and final reason was one that hit me hard
I noticed that my best friend, the one who got us together
Was secretly in love with you, And just did it to get closer
So I hurt you, and told you it was all over

I left you broken and hurt
I know, But I could see it her eyes
She wanted me to let you go
I never told you the real reasons i left you for dead
I mean how could I? When all you would see is red

Its a ****** explanation, Trust me I know
But I'm now playing the villain, a demon at most
Because I want her happiness, I want her to boast
So I'm willing to be painted as evil and cruel
All for a friend, No matter how brutal

To that boy who will never see this
For he will never know, the truth remains hidden
Buried deep below, I wish you could know
that I am truly sorry

So to the boy who once loved me
I wish you the best
Be happy and carefree
So I can finally rest.

You're playing a game
A dangerous one at that
You're trying to hurt me
But we simply cant have that

You're trying to play it cool
Attempting to pull the strings
Turning everyone against me
But its clear you cant be king

Everyone knows wiser
Their loyalty stands with me
So watching you "wrek" my life, is quite amusing I believe
Cause in the end I know the game,
But you're still quite naive

I'll sit back and watch
Leaving my cards perfectly clean
Giving you nothing to do or say against me
But it appears you're far too keen

No war is ever won
when one is blinded by rage
Its clear you've become your own demise
Trapping yourself within a stone cold cage

All you're assassination plans have failed
Trying to tear me from my friends

she hates you
He knows the truth
I'll reveal to them your lies

I make my move, and plan it well
By being straight forward and honest
I reassure them, express my feelings
Leaving with I love you and a promise

Each word becomes undone
You're tarnishing your own image
I want to start ****
You said, but even your friends think there is a limit

Informing me of you're plan
Their looking at you with pity filled eyes
The more you struggle the more you do
The more they loosen their ties from you

So please calm down, and step aside
I don't want to be responsible for your anymore of those tears you cry

You've hidden a rat within my midst
I know full well who it
So to that rat, I do understand
But its about time you Quit

So in this game of love and war
Where all things are fair
I believe that you should stop yourself
Otherwise beware

What right do I have to hurt?
Must I lock up my feelings and abstain
What right do I have to say out loud
That I'm in so much P A I N

When a breakup happens, what do you do?
You jump on to the latest gossip
Who dumped who, and who shed tears and cried
And you choose a side along with that too

One side receives pity and comfort
Support for what their going through
The other is hated by all who hear the story
But little do they know the complete truth

Snickers, insults and glares line the halls
its like everybody is watching you
You haven't seen the person in weeks
But still they are all especially rude

Once you make a choice to leave
You no longer get to play the "victim"
A villain who shattered another heart  
Is not allowed to feel afflicted

What right do I have to feel upset
As the other hates me, rightfully so
What right do I have to cry myself to sleep
As my friends watch as if this is a game show

What right do I have to want to forget
To not want to hear of that person
Nobody will believe or hear the reasons
They won't look beyond the surface

But I'm not entitled to that right
The right to speak these feelings aloud
So I'll plaster on this cheerful smile
Let's just hope I don't breakdown.

A Red Rose
Represents my Love and Desire
My Admiration, Devotion and respect
The words I can't convey
I love you

A White Rose
To show my purest of thoughts
The gentle innocence of my love
My Hopes of
A New beginning

A Yellow Rose
Symbolising our friendship
The warmth and the joy
The care of when our feelings were
Platonic

A Pink Rose
Serves as Elegance and Grace
The intoxicating sweetness
The gratitude and appreciation
Thank you

An Orange Rose
Full of passion and energy
Our Pride and Fervor
Delivering a sense of fascination
I'm Proud

A Lavender Rose
Embodies Majesty and splendour
My adoration for you
My Heart full of enchantment
Love at first sight

A Blue Rose
Unachievable by nature
Expresses your mysterious charms
My Desire of the unattainable
I can't have you, But I can't stop thinking about you

A Single Black Rose
As words of my final farewell
The mourning and sadness
Illustrate the death of the relationship
A Tragic love.

Hate

Such a powerful word
Leaves a bad taste in your mouth
Something you want to spit out

A burning passion
That ignites your soul
Consuming your mind
Its like a blackhole

There's a reason for everything
Or so we say
But feelings for somebody
Can change in just a day

The fateful time
when you discover their lies
All the tiny little things
You simply let slip by

It hurts to learn
That people arent what they seem
All the ******* up things
You have come to believe

The stone hard truth
Hits you in the face
It's cold and numbing
You feel like a disgrace

Pain and hurt
Morphed into a hate
Rage and anger
He's no longer your mate

Once a friend
Now turned a foe
You want revenge
Your hatred unknown

In silence you wait
As it bubbles away
Invading your mind
Thinking how dare they

Wanting to hurt them
And cause pain
To let them know
That you felt the same

Blinding yourself
Unaware of your actions
Your out of control
Not an ounce of compassion

Hatred binds you
Encasing your soul
An eye for an eye
But will you allow yourself to sink that low?

Hate
Such a powerful word.

Maybe we've changed

You're you
I'm me
We are two different people
From who we use to be
Time moves on
We do too
Feelings can be forgotten
Sometimes they break through

Maybe we've changed

You're no longer the boy I knew
I'm no longer the girl you need
We had smiles & happiness, it was pure & sweet
But that didn't mean, we didn't get hurt or bleed
Nothing was lost, Yet so much was gained
A Learning experience, with a boy unnamed

Maybe we've changed

You're walking your own path
I'm walking mine
Never interchanging
Our lives don't entwine
Perhaps thats for the best
We are moving onto someone new
This change was well overdue

Maybe we've changed

You've cut all the strings from our past
I simply watched, as it all fell apart
You're happy with your life
I'm happy with mine

We've grown as people
We've become more mature
We've fallen in love again
We feel so secure
The things that we learnt will never change our past
So we live them through each day, as if it were our last
The colourful memories will all fade away
But the things you taught me will remain to this day
So in the end
We did Changed.

Wandering outside
The fresh air caresses my skin
Music blaring from the shed
The celebration in full swing

Intoxicated teens dancing about
TONIGHT WE ARE YOUNG
You can hear them all shout

Roaming towards the bonfire
The flames dimly glow
I sit down quietly
Completely on my own

Warm arms wrap around me
Enclosed from both sides
who could this be?
I feel a calming vibe

I recognise his voice
Musky and deep
He whispers sweet nothings
My heart skips a beat

He speaks with a hushed tone
Lips brushing against my neck
Each word that is spoken
I've got to keep myself in check

The coarse stubble of his chin
Sends shivers down my spine
As the words become kisses
I wanted him to be mine

Holding myself back
As I wanted to kiss him right there
I couldn't betray my friend
And he began to stare

Exchanging a few more words
We spoke softly with each other
Trapped in his embrace
My cheeks filled with colour

Contentment fell over us
As we sat in peaceful silence
You Deserve at least this
He said, with a tender kiss

Dancing away the night
Still thinking about that kiss
We were both far too sober
To be making mistakes such as this.

Parties are a time to just let go

Put on your heels and just go with the flow

Let the darkness of the night, consume your identity

And let the alcoholic beverages bring you to pure ecstasy

A night of pure bliss filled with drunk teens and friends

Let the beat of the music take you further then you have ever been

Pretend you are different, you can do anything you want

Cause with enough alcohol
There is no need to put up a front

Forget all the consequences that the morning brings

Because for a single night
You are the king

Spread open your wings and soar to the sky

And for a fleeting moment you can forget about your life

The warmth spreads across my body like a feverish dream
Leaning into my chest, laying there
Her head upon my shoulder
Silently day dreaming
The slow, gentle rise and fall of her breath
Earphones in as we sit and await
The bus traveling to our final destination
attempting not to be late
My tired eyes glance to the girl by side
Her worn black shoes
Her pale pink socks, dyed from the past wash
Lightly Tanned legs leading up to the navy blue dress
Her matching year 12 jacket resting gentle on her chest
Her short golden and brown locks fall gracefully in front of her glowing blue eyes
A tired look adoring her face as she thinks of the day to come
Clutching onto my arm
That lay over here own shoulder
I wonder what will happen to us when we get so much older
Will the peaceful days of silence be as they are now?
Or will there be heavy conflict that will bring us so much closer?
Will there come a time where we both become loners?
A thought of a moment, a life we have lived up till now
Just close your eyes tight, We can think about it when the days over.

I need to leave
I've ought to say goodbye
This unrequited love
Simply must to die

I've completely slipped your mind
Fallen through the cracks
My only existence now
Is a forgotten name in your contacts

Below all those studs, that you call your great friends
And underneath all those girls you call at 3am
Covered in dust as it grows old with age
I sit here and wait, patiently within this stone cold cage

Transienting through life, days pass like any other
Sleepless nights, Friendships bite, Its simply quite a bother
Messages from others, blowing up my phone
Yet without yours, I feel so alone

I thought I had forgotten you
Moved on from my past
I was going to find another
But that was never going to last

It seems I cant escape
no matter how far I run
Is this merely my fate
Or is it karma having fun

What can I do?
What can I say?
Because a simple text from you
Consumes my waking days

Is this intentional?
Are you leading me on for fun?
Our texts are quite stale, answers are close to none
Every time we talk now, You always seem so done

But once in a blue moon
We call for a single night
Forgetting the conflict
Our souls filled with delight

I'll put it all behind me, Let it fade from my mind
I'll dwell in emptiness and move on with my life
Even though these feelings, cut through me like a knife
Acting like nothings wrong, Everything okay
Just force on a smile
It doesn't bother me anyway.

We all wear a mask
To hide whats beneath
locking away our true selves
Setting it in place, with hard concrete

Painting and decorating
It becomes colourful and bright
Our own unique mask
That we work on each night

Enhancing the features
Till its just perfect and right
It hides away our feelings
So everything will be alright.

Our souls are ugly and broke
Boring. Ghastly. Shameful.
Don't allow them to be uncloaked
Everyone else will surely revoke

Everyone will hate you
Everyone will lie
Nobody will love you
So don't even try

Is it really everyone else who made you this way?
From the way that I see it
Its you,
who lead yourself astray

I've been betrayed and forgotten
Thats what we say
Blaming everyone else
As we carry on with our childish play

A life so caught up on the outer appearance
just leaves you feeling empty
And you forget your own existence

Don't allow yourself to live this way
Because surely there will come a day
You're mask will become forgotten
And your hard work will be undone

Where your mask will slip
and crash to the ground
The decorations will shatter
and be scattered all around

And at this certain point you will come to learn
You worked on your mask so everyone could see
But you forgot that you're true self will always break free
You never allowed anyone to love you from the start
And yet you expected them to learn what was  hidden under your Beautiful Mask.

The light thumps of feet sound through the building
Wondering upon a staircase
Ascending to the top
Into a quiet classroom
The first upon the right
The thumping becomes clicks
Echoing gently across the room
Fingers brushing against the cool marble
Mind flooding with memories
Every moment recollected

Seated upon an old desk
A reflection of the past
An outlandish design inked upon his skin
Her hand gracefully lining his
leaving a hue of warmth behind
Two hearts entwined
Surrounded by people
Muted voices and soft chanting
A world enclosed to the pair

Fading into reality
Tears blossoming in her eye
Bitter bite of the present
Icy chill of the room
Sympathetic light streaming in
Enlightening the dull room

Music graced the air from her phone
The sweet tempered rhyme
Imprisoning her
Coursing through body and soul
His melody and tune

The numbing cold becoming pleasant
The silence no longer dwelled
And for a fleeting moment
Just as though he were present.

We live in an Eternal fantasy world
Everything is make pretend
All the characters we befriend aren't real
But even in a world of a fake reality
We still somehow get hurt

Do I miss you?
Or
Do I miss the Idea of you? .