Na khush *** na udaas ***,
Baz khali *** aur khamosh ***.....!

I had literally reached a point where I find myself apologizing for my
" existence " and that's when I knew my self-worth had vanished. It had pilfered right out of me. My light had went out............and I forgot how it felt to shine....!

Somewhere between "Crying loud to seek attention" and "Crying silently to avoid attention", we grew up!!
Somewhere between " Believing in happy endings" and "Accepting the reality", we grew up!!
Somewhere between " Yay! I can write with a new pen tomorrow " and "Dude, do you have an extra pen?", we grew up!!
Somewhere between " Mom, I want to distribute chocolates on my birthday " and "OK, my treat today", we grew up!!
Somewhere between " Cartoons" and "News Bulletins", we grew up!!
Somewhere between " Just five more mins Mom" and "Pressing the snooze button", we grew up!!
Somewhere between " Crying out loud just to get what we want" and "Holding our tears when we are broken inside", we grew up!!
Somewhere between "We are best Friends Forever" and "Knowing nothing truly lasts", we grew up!!
Somewhere between "I want to grow up" and "I want to be a child again", we grew up!!
Somewhere between " Let's meet and plan" and "Let's plan and meet", we grew up!!
Somewhere between "Crush" and "Ex", we grew up!!
Somewhere between" Having hundreds of friends" and "Having few good friends", we grew up!!
Somewhere between "Parents fulfilling our wish" and "We fulfilling our parent's dream", we grew up!!
Somewhere between" Craving for pizza" and "Craving for home food", we grew up!!
Somewhere between " Waking up at 6 am" and "Sleeping at 6 am", we grew up!!

We hope you enjoy your stay,
And please feel free to be yourself,
As long as it’s in the right way,
Make sure you love your body,
Not too much or we’ll tear you down.
We’ll bully you for smiling,
And then wonder why you frown,
We’ll tell you that you’re worthless,
That you shouldn’t make a sound,
And then cry with all the others,
As you’re buried in the ground,
You can fall in love with anyone,
As long as it’s who we choose.
And we’ll let you have your opinions,
But please shape them to our views,
Welcome to society
We promise that we won’t decieve,
And one more rule now that you’re here,
There’s no way you can leave…..!

What a shame baby,
Could have been with me
Instead of what’s her ******* name…..!!

What if we feel alone because we are terrified of being intimate with another especially ourselves…?

Lemme give you an example...:
Jsut see tihs msg. Evrey splleing of tihs msg is wrnog. But sitll yuo raed it wihtout ayn mistake. If yuo want true raletionship.....Just ignoer mistaeks and understand them.....!

is for you
to read my poetry
and be able
to breathe again —
to hear my sound and remember
what your favourite summer
felt like
when it lived
inside
your
skin….!

They will
insult you,
hurt you,
defeat you,
betray you,
injure you,
set you aflame
and watch
you burn.
                                             But they
                                             will not,
                                            shall not,
                                              cannot
       ­                                  destroy you.
                                                            ­                                  Because you,
                                                            ­                                       like Rome
                                                            ­                      were built on ashes,
                                                          ­                                            and you,
                                                            ­                                like a phoenix
                                                         ­                                     know how to
                                                              ­                                                 rise
                                                            ­                                                  and
           ­                                                                 ­                         resurrect.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YV7NA50Tlak

Isn’t the moon dark too,
most of the time?

And doesn’t the white page
seem unfinished

without the dark stain
of alphabets?

When God demanded light,
he didn’t banish darkness.

Instead he invented
ebony and crows

and that small mole
on your left cheekbone.

Or did you mean to ask
“Why are you sad so often?”

Ask the moon
Ask what is has witnessed.

You loved me like a flower
The ones you leave to die
Instead of loving me wild
You kept me locked inside
You let me slowly wilt
Until there was only a piece of who I was
And keeping something wild, locked
You should see what it does
If you meet a girl like me
I ask you to let her go
So you can see what happens
When you let a flower grow
And I didn’t get that choice
But I don’t blame it all on you
And I let you take me away
Because thought you were beautiful too
It is true that you broke me
But I still wish you well
And I hope I was beautiful
Before my petals fell…!

There's a world,
Somewhere between reality and fantasy,
Where there is no separation
No fear of death, that makes us apart
There is no hate,
There's only happiness,
Where there'll be just me and you...!

I hate you more and more everyday but there is this little things that keeps bothering me and I don't understand it:
Why can't I stop loving you? Why am I always thinking of you even when knowing that you don't even remember me, but I keep missing you.
I miss you so much that I can't explain. I wish I could turn back time, so that I'd meet you sooner and stay with you longer! And I'm still thinking of you because you are the only thing on my mind every time. I wish you'd know how I fall for you everyday and how my day doesn't go good without seeing you, how I'm hurting as well as having immense happiness seeing you, but I want you to know every single thing. I still see you everyday, I see that it didn't affect you but it affected me too much that it changed me, to the point that I stopped doing the things that I loved, to the point that I hate myself so much for everything.
I just can't hold on anymore. I feel like I'm falling down and this time I won't be able to get up. I'm so hurting. I miss you so much. I'm tired...!

Hey you
Yes you, sitting behind your screen reading this. I don't know and you certainly don't know me either. But I want to tell you something. Everyone has their own story. Yours may be filled with happiness and joy, or it may be clouded with pain and misfortune. I want you to know that you are beautiful, wonderful and a talented person. Even if your life isn't going your way right now, I know you can get away with it. I want you to do me a favor. I know I'm just a stranger but trust me okay?
Everytime, you see your reflection, whether it's in a mirror, a window or in a puddle on the street, I want you to look at yourself and give yourself a big hug. Because even if you're not the prettiest, the smartest or the funniest, you are something that no one else can be: you. Smile at strangers. Have confidence in yourself. Cry when you feel like crying, laugh when you feel like laughing. Treat yourself like a god/goddess because you deserve it. Keep your head up and keep your heart open. You're worth everything and something more. And always remember that whatever happens, even if it doesn't seem like it, you're everything to someone. Make sure you love yourself…!
You are special.
I love you…!

Trying to explain something you don’t even understand
Trying to find a beginning, or a end to start with
There is no such thing
I don’t know what the **** is going on
I just always remember, remember things I shouldn’t
I know I’ll break down because of them
I value things, people, their thoughts, help, love and everything they do or did for me so so much
So it basically rips my heart out and
Shatter it into pieces, when a person like that leaves me or hurts me
I always try to glue it back together…
But guess what?
Every ******* time it’s about to dry,
Someone leaves or hurts me…!

The person who does something that inconveniences them, but does it anyway because it’s important to you. The person that’s always there for you at the end of the day. The person that can’t wait to talk to you and listens to every word you say. The person who no matter the mistakes and the choices you’ve made, wants to be with you. The person who you call at two am and would drive over to hug you and talk to you. The person who wipes away your tears and kisses your tear stained cheeks. The person who would throw everything away, the person who knows and knows what you want without asking— that’s the person. That’s the person that loves you more than life itself. And if you have someone like that, don’t ever let them go.