I'm very ugly
So, don't try to convince me that
I'm a very beautiful person
Because at the end of the day,
I hate myself in every single way
I'm not going to lie to myself by saying
There's beauty inside of me that matters
So rest assured, I'll remind myself
That I'm a worthless, terrible person
And nothing you say will make me believe
That i still deserve love
Because no matter what,
I'm not good enough to be loved
And I'm in no position to believe that
Beauty doesn't exist within me
Because whenever I look in the mirror, I always think
Am I as ugly as people say?

(Now read bottom up)

Na khush *** na udaas ***,
Baz khali *** aur khamosh ***.....!

hear the falling rain
hot coffee and poetry
love is in the air.
8/7/2021

I miss you when something really good happens Caz you're the one I want it share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me Caz you were the only one who understood me so well.
I miss you when I laugh or cry Caz you were the only one that made my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times spent with each other; for those are some of the best times of my life......!

It feels like I've been endlessly cutting my wrist,
'cause of my negligence to tend to my wounds.
The very wounds that bleed these words and agony.

Now as my pride gives me immortality,
this brokeness is my eternal damnation,
an endless torture,
a neverending attempt for suicide
with no death.

Am the only one who always feels left out?
I feel like I'm always the last choice, I'm always the least favourite person, people around me, I feel like everyone has their own things, groups and friendship circle and I got nothing just.... Me, myself and I ......!