Hey, listen to your emotions:

Bitterness: shows you where you need to heal, when you are still holding judgements on others and yourself!
Resentment: shows you where you are living in the past and not allowing the present to be as it is!!
Discomfort: shows you that you need to pay attention right now to what’s happening, because you are being given the opportunity to change, to do something different than you typically do it!!
Anger: shows you what you are passionate about, where your boundaries are, and what you believe needs to change about the world!!
Disappointment: shows you that you tried for something, that you didn’t give in to apathy, that you will care!!
Guilt: shows you that you are still living life in other people’s expectations of what you should do!!
Shame: shows you that you are internalizing other people’s beliefs of how you should be(or who you are) and that you need to reconnect with yourself!!
Anxiety: shows you that you need to wake up right now, and that you need to be present, and that you are stuck in the past and living in the fear of the future!!
Sadness: shows you the depth of your feeling, and the depth of your care for others and this world!!

its hard to hide the way you feel,
losing the will on truthful words,
forgetting what is real
its hard when you are scared of laughing or crying,
that someone will see your agony and pain from which you are suffering from,
and you forget to laugh , you forget your happiest and cheerful nature,
because of the fear that someone may know about you and will start to judge you,
and may you will loss the love of your friends and family,
when you are sad ,
its hard to pretend that you are happy
When you are terrified that someone might ask about your situation and and your sadness,
then what will you answer to them,
its becoming harder every day,
its becoming harder to lie and hide things,
its becoming a very hard task of life.

They always crawl back
expecting you to be the
same soul as before

9:42 PM
6/5/21

I act like I don’t care. Like nothing can hurt me. I put up this big wall of toughness and pretend everything is fine. Like I don’t need somebody’s “affection” but in reality I think I’m just too scared. Scared of not being good enough. Or scared of getting hurt. Scared to let somebody in. Maybe even afraid. Afraid of the possibility of being loved by someone that I fear they’ll eventually let me down. Afraid that my heart will break into million pieces because I gave my all to someone who promised they wouldn’t hurt me. But that’s the thing. You will never know the outcome unless you take the chance. So embrace the risk worth being taken darling......!