"Chin up"
"Think positive"
"You'll get through this"
"Everything will be okay"
But what if I don't get through all this?
What if everything won't be okay?
"I'm here anytime"
But the truth is,
You are not here
So why bother telling me that?
Why bother lying to me and hurting me?

(s.m)

Last night,
I cried my eyes out
this morning they were hurting
I drew a line on my wrist
it was red
just like my eyes
I cried myself to sleep
and when my alarm sounded
6.45 this morning
I was reminded
that I’m stuck in an evil circle
6.45 everyday
I’m reminded
that I’m stuck

*(s.m)

you’re the only one I can talk to
the only one who actually understands
but every time I try,
you give up on me
you’re causing more damage than good
but i don’t wanna admit it
i need you
just you
so please,
try
for me
try
stay here
help me

*(s.m)

my thoughts are like cars racing faster than light
my not so balanced life is over flowing
the door to my mind is locked,
and the key is missing
i can’t find any answers before I find it
the lights in my eyes are broken
the cranes holding up my lips are not strong enough
the ink in my fingers is used up,
now they are just bleeding out the ink
my life is one big equation,
that doesn’t seem to be able to solve
i’m swallowing my words as shots
i’m feelling drunk
and I wake up every day,
with a very bad hangover
remembering what yesterday was like
and the pain is making me wanna drink again
it’s an evil never ending circle

*(s.m)

Where is everybody?
They keep telling me they are here
here for me
but they never are
lies and broken promises
I’m starting to doubt
is anyone out there?
truthful and actually here?

*(s.m)

You are there all the time
stuck in my head
I hear you all the time
you never leave
why are you here?
I’m fed up
with lies and hurtful words
you are all I got
all I’ve ever had
I trust you
I believe you
I know you are not supposed to be here
but I let you
I know I need help
but I’m scared
and who would even believe me?
I hide it
not wanting anyone so see
but I have nothing to hide
I feel like I’m drowning
feel like falling
I don’t want anyone to know
so here goes nothing

*(s.m)

I don't know where I'm going
where I'm headed
I'm just going and going
out into the endless universe
into nothing
I'm not going anywhere
I'm trying to escape
But I can't
I wanna go
I wanna run
escape from here
but I'm not going anywhere no more
time is standing still
my feet are standing still
I can't move
I can't breathe
I'm breathing, but barely alive

*(s.m)