Looking in the mirror I see the man I am Not perfect but surviving Doing everything I can To provide for my family Give them everything they need Hoping with my being That they see my tiresome deeds I wish to put my feet up To finish with my work But I know my family needs me And for that I’ll never shirk
The demons are real They whisper to me The monsters are here Don’t try to flee I try not listen To block out the noise To keep my composure And act with good poise But every so often Just now and then I might hear whisper That does make some sense Then ever so slightly the mask gives a slip The madness exposed My sanity stripped Just for a moment the monsters are free Until I I can cage them And return to be me
Stress and weakness bring the worst out in people this tries to explain that fact and that it is only a temporary situation for most
Life is change The seasons The years All you can do Is change with them Lives are taken New lives are created Mourning, rejoicing An eternal conflict That brings us all To the inevitable
Is my pain reality Or is it in my head Will it disappear Or stay with me till I’m dead My existence is a struggle Day to day a living test But the love of my family Keeps me trying my best
We are all different None the same So who are we To judge insane To see the world Through different eyes The things you’d see Such sweet surprise Describe a colour With my senses Feel freedom from Enclosing fences Built by peers Sane and normal Doctors probing Pills and potions
The point I try to make Is that there is no point at all When you are gone from this world You are gone and that is all You may be remembered But that will not be for long So I repeat The point I try to make Is that there is no point at all
Am I see through Or am I seen Does anyone remember The places I’ve been The deeds all done From past to present Are they noticed Most likely forgotten Over time Your actions erased Even if mentioned Met with a confused face
Where or why the tears flow I have no control They seem to come from nowhere Mostly when I am alone Many people stand around me Not seeing all my pain I want to scream aloud Although it would be done in vain My ailments are invisible You cannot see what’s wrong And every day I wonder Can I keep on being strong
Take this life away from me I don’t want it anymore The pain is just too much to bear It runs into my core Emotional and real Why does no one listen When I tell them how I feel My life is pain and anguish Physical and not I’m waiting slowly dying For the final breath to leave me For the end of all my suffering
Little fly upon the wall Please oh please just tell all What they say when we’re not there I think that it would raise our hair So little fly upon the wall Please oh please just tell us all
From the moment that I met you You stole my heart away It’s you I want to wake to Each and every day I will be complete when you’re my wife Forever you are mine Together we created life Our futures looking fine
Will the soft dark take me To slumber so sweet The oblivion of dreamlessness Wonderment of sleep A dream so close to take me From my painful daily world And wrap my mind in velvet Till the dawn reclaims it’s hold
A new year a new me The mantra of the masses But people rarely ever change Unless it really matters So let’s have a real new year Don’t set the silly goals Just pledge to do the best you can And keep a happy home
The tears flow freely The pain is a thief Tearing away my sanity Piece by little piece Will there ever be a time When there is no pain That I do not cry Will I be insane There are no words to describe my plight But for now at least I survive to fight
Why is there fighting When we are all one race Can we not sit together And talk face to face Though we may all look different Our hearts beat the same So why is there fighting And looking to blame
Multitudes of galaxies Floating in the unseen universe Hidden by the pinpoints Of lights from the cities Insignificant through infinite time We wander along our minuscule lives Gone so quickly into nothing but memory Nothing but names forgotten to history
If you were a watcher What would you see My day to day acting Or me being me My smile as I work And chat to my colleagues Or when I sit silent Fighting the memories
If you were a watcher Would you be surprised To see me put my mask on When I arise After my meagre sleep Awake with pain To face one more day Put my act on again
Everyone shows a mask to the outside world and no one is ever really true until they are alone
As they stand there In skimpy clothes Ignoring the letching The leering Calling to the lonely The lost the sad The desperate The depraved Are you looking For a date A good time Always in danger Taking the risk To earn the Money for the next fix The next meal The babies clothes No one asks their Stories
Feeling lonely, feeling blue All because I’m missing you Wishing to be by your side In the flesh not in my mind To touch you would be such sweet pleasure Something that I’ll always treasure
Sitting sipping watching With one eye on door Waiting for old comrades He knows he’ll see once more Those left upon the battlefield Fighting by his side The men he toasts a drink to With a tear in his eye He’ll tell you all his stories To keep his mates alive And how it is his honour That they helped him survive So if you see a veteran Sit with him for a while Listen to his wisdom And keep his memories alive
Your radiance is greater Than 1000 suns Your beauty Always leaves me stunned Your grace would silence Heavens angels Your love Will last throughout the ages You are forever in my heart Nothing will ever Keep us apart
With the loss of a love That was sent from above Grief is a hole That appears in your soul That can never be filled No matter your will To try and replace The familiar face That was sent from above To fill you with love
I wonder at the universe So vast, empty, cold And realise it’s easy To feel so all alone We are all just a tiny dot Living tiny lives Insignificant to the universe Just as tiny flies So while we live our little lives Try to make a big impression So you will be remembered For a few more generations
This is a story That needs to be told Of the men and the women For whom the bell tolls They fought to the last ‘Gainst our numerous foes The names no longer Called on nominal rolls Are our brothers and sisters For whom the bell tolls
Will they ever just be silent The voices in my brain They talk so much of violence Look what you’ve done they say It was in our defence Is always my reply Although another question In my mind is always WHY?
Autumn brings the vivid colours Reds and yellows Trees all covered Till they drop onto the ground Piling in drifts all around
Walking with our hats and gloves All wrapped up as if in hugs With the people that we love Kicking leaves from empty boughs A time of love and laughter
We been sledging in the snow Kids all shouting GO GO GO Up and down the hill we run Laughing as we have our fun Sliding on the snow so fast Wishing it will always last
The love I hold is endless Deeper than the sea Your face is radiant beauty The only thing I see Your touch is pure pleasure It electrifies my skin Your kisses send me reeling Every second is a win I could not believe it On the best day of my life You agreed to marry me And forever be my wife
The voices speak Some are not friends I sometimes wonder When is the end I go to sleep Awake each morning To the clamour Of them returning Never knowing silence Can I ever know peace
Lying here without you On a lonely single bed The only thoughts I have Are of you running through my head You’re not there when I reach out I cannot hear you breathe This time away from your side Is a hell that doesn’t cease My wish to be beside you Even just to watch you sleep And etch your image into my mind Another perfect memory to keep
If god is our father Why won’t he answer Does he just not care He leaves us to choose But offers no guidance Just leaves us to blindly flounder He takes us all eventually But offers no solice Just an eternity in paradise To wonder if our lives Were ever worth living at all
without you time is endless, my heart yearns for your touch, as i draw nearer to you, my love grows oh so much, to feel your breath upon me, the warmness of your skin, to kiss your lips, caress you, know that you are mine.
Our time is limited To walk along our path Onwards to the future Unable to change what’s past We give to our children The knowledge that is ours With hope that our legacy Will light their darkest hours We hope to give them wisdom To build a better world Though really all we can do Is watch for what unfurls
People come and people go Though friendship is forever Those special people in your life Are in your mind whatever We may lose them physically But never from our minds As long as you have memories Their souls will stay alive
What am I here for What is my purpose Is my presence needed Or am I superfluous Will I have an impact On anyone’s lives Or just be forgotten Whenever I’ve died I’m not looking for anonymous Nor do I want infamy Though I would like comfort For all of my family