Tell me your secrets
Tell me your sorrow
All of your regrets
Your dreams of tomorrow
If I asked you to stay
What would you say
Would you tell me right away
Or make it a game we play

Birthed a victim,
raised a suspect.

Trauma,trauma,trauma

To their hands,
from their hands.

Pain,pain,pain

Heartbreak inevitable,
heartbreak forever.

Hate,hate,hate

Mentally, physically,
physically, emotionally.

Abuse,abuse,abuse

Self defense mechanisms,
self sabotage mental illness.

Aware,aware,aware

Life is patterns,
patterns are life.

Broken,broken,broken

Safety required to grow,
safe environment necessary also.

Grow,grow,grow

People make mistakes,
God made people.

Forgive,forgive,forgive

If not yourself,
no one else you can.

You,you,you

If you cannot,
don’t feel bad.

YOU’RE NOT ALONE,
alone I remain.

Me,me,me

For some pain cannot be overcame,
for some pain like mine.

Tough,tough,tough

It’s not my fault,
fault I cannot change.

Past,past,past

Pain,pain,pain

Tough,tough,tough

Me,me­,me

You,you,you?

Aware,aware,aware

Trauma,trauma.trauma

Hate,­hate,hate

Abuse,abuse,abuse

Broken,broken,broken

Forgive,forgi­ve,forgive

Grow,grow,grow!

YOU’RE NOT ALONE,
nor am I!


Same words, different order, new pattern, new love
BREAK PATTERNS

I don’t have to keep what I was given,
my inheritance was all trauma.

Hereditary flaws the cause for poor choices and decisions.

Not one healthy leaf on the entire family tree, I had to branch off.

Free finally gaining the courage to flee, I couldn’t save them all.

I saved myself, I had to cut all ties in order to fix my life.

It’s not their fault, since grandpa left the whole family fell apart.

He was the glue keeping the house of cards from falling.

It’s crazy how one person can have so much wisdom and power.

Resentment arrived the day he died and made it clear it was never going to leave.

Every scar has a loved one’s name, blood hits harder than water.

Lost sons and daughters, cousins incarcerated from the patterns.

Being a good uncle or aunt doesn’t make you a good parent, I know.

Ever since that day I gained the courage to step away…

MY LIFE KEEPS GETTING BETTER!  
One chainsaw, one big bad tree filled with generational pain, one emancipated teen who desired something better…TIMBER.

They all had to be dead to me in order for me to live!

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      brush
      hand
     ARMS
eyes    eyes
                                        ART
eyes   eyes
    ARMS
    hands
    brush
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   Damage

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        /||\
      brush
      hand
     ARMS
eyes    eyes
CONTROL
                                        LIFE
eyes   eyes
    ARMS
    hands
    brush
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   Damage
REGAIN

Death has knocked on my door many times, so often we actually became quite good friends.

And although we haven’t met in quite some time, our last visit Death made it very clear.

“It won’t be me that takes your life, but that decision will be yours.”

Death has knocked on my door many times, so often we actually became quite good friends.

And although we haven’t met in quite some time, our last visit I heard Death’s advice crystal clear.