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66 · Aug 18
When?- TW
When does the pain stop?
When will they know?
When will they realize?
They can’t cover up my pain—
“For show”  

I almost died.
I’m still dying,
STILL Now,
CONTINUED then.

Which was—
not-so-long-ago.

They said they could help—
But made it worse.

I’m being ignored,
Appointments are canceled,
Now I’m dying in my OWN blood,
Stuck in a body I didn’t ask for.
Drowning.
life right now—
Is a flood.

Seizures are constant,
Pain never ends.

I’ll never escape—

The hell,
My body and brain—

Has,
Trapped me in…

When.
Just. WHEN?
My body is trying to **** me..how do I keep pushing.. when I’m told lies..told to say “Im fine” while having seizures..and.. going blind.
62 · Jun 23
The Boat
The boat
It stays true
—Stays afloat

The long wooden frame
Not daring to break
Not afraid
—completely tame

Neat sails
Holding strong
Soft-velvet
No sign of betrayal

The boat holds many
But keeps to its word
To protect all who boards
No matter where they come from

The boat pushes through any storm
Sings all the songs
This new boat
Free from its dock
Staying strong

A symbol of hope
Is
The
Boat
61 · Jun 23
Bottled up-TW
Bottled up feelings  
In the ocean tide
A little bottle
Riding the oceans
Falls and rises
It’s motions—
Rapid and fierce
Like a lion on the loose
The wave makes moves
Prieces like a knife
In the raging waves
Bottled up inside my Brain
Is all there hang onto everything that hurts
Till the waves knock me out
And I collapseright-then-and-there
Everything is all bottled up
Forever and always
Stuck in that little glass bottle
Stuck in those waves
I'll always be stuck
Left to decay--
In my own world
When I was betrayed
60 · Aug 27
Unfurled-A Poem- TW
I can’t keep thinking
When my head
Keeps on spinning.
It’s all too dizzying.
The demons are lurking,
The shadows that creep,
The pain that climbs up
From my feet.
They greet me
With blood—
Their hollowed stare,
Knowing I can’t stop them,
'Cause even fighting for breath
Is fighting through
Metallic, smoke-filled air.
The chest pain
That illuminates
Like a firework
Through my lungs—
No pain I have ever
Been able to tame.
My heart working overtime,
With only a slow whistle
Or gurgle bubbling out.
I don’t understand—and never have—
What brought this about.
Each pain
That ignites
Like fire
Is a missile
In waves.
My body doesn’t feel
Like mine anymore.
My body is giving up trying,
No matter how much
I try to fight it
Or be brave.
I can’t fight this—
This everyday pain,
The everyday night terrors,
The everyday hallucinations.
Blame.
All the headaches,
All the tics,
All the “seizures”
With no fix.
All the
Fidgeting,
The loss—
The game of life
Is taking me down.
You say I'm “not hurting,”
You say “there’s no way.”
You say that I'm faking it
For attention.
But you’re not in my body.
You don’t see what I see,
You don’t hear what I hear,
Or notice from my POV.
It’s not fair—
The way you spread my words
With new twists
That never even came to exist,
Like a discounted fare.
I’m stuck in the mud,
Stuck in the swamp,
Fighting my body,
My brain,
My thoughts.
I’m fighting
It all—
But I'm stuck
Far beyond.
Trapped in the murk
That’s held me for
Years.
That’s why it feels like it’s
Dragged on for so long.
I’m getting help now…
But…
Will it ever work?
The pulling and pushing,
The tearing and screams,
The crying,
The pain
That never recedes.
I know I can fight,
I know I'm strong.
I just… am falling apart
In a new world—
New tornados
Keep coming unfurled.
I can’t make paragraphs all the sudden in HP!? Huh.. welp! Hope y’all like this poem anyways..it didn’t take very long as I was crying and let EVERYTHING let loose..that’s how ALL/MOST of my work is made. Thanks for the support so far y’all!
57 · Jun 11
All Up In My Head
All Up In My Head
A Poem By: Olivia Williams.



All up in my head
Can't even go to bed
Just keep seeming to fret
still trapped in a loop
Like I'm caged in a coop
Fighting every night
Demons always picking fights
Losing my mind

How many times
Do I have to count
Schools getting hard
That's why I'm writing this
I'm still fighting
but when I'm bout to escape
I miss my chance

And The Voices in my head
Can't seem to help me focus on my work
Can't seem to help me sit still
Its like my head Is being pounded like a drill

I know somethings wrong
But how do I speak up?
My body doesn't feel right
I am still having a hard time
Falling asleep and waking up

The world goes by in slow motion
My brains in a fog
While it feels like the voices in my head
Are yelling at the top of their lungs

I'm all up in my head
Am I losing my mind?
I'm still trying to fight
But I'm not sure when my body will..
Break..
Will this make..
Me change

Will this take its time?
When I express my concerns
It feels like the response or “change”
Is taking eternity

I'm starting to fall apart
not only on the outside
But internally

I'm all up in my head
Writing this because I can't seem to go to bed
I'm stuck here staring at these pale yellow walls
Wondering if sleep will come..

If any at all
I'm still..
All up in my head.
47 · 6d
Prairie
Prairie
-a poem:
Olivia I. WILLIAMS
———————
Cocktails tumbling —
Softly rumbling —
Tender, mumbling wind
Long grass
Grazes the woodchip trail
As morning grows past
And the sun prevails.
Immense oak trees
Tower and sway
Over clovers.
While whispering streams
Fill the day.
The oak
Sends shadows
Stretching across
The sunlit grass.
Though sun still
Lights the eager flowers —
It's one true task.
Worn oak lodge
Nestled in thoughts —
Dreams.
Moss on the steps
Small treads,
Leading to a true home
Of rest.
Inside — well kept
Floor-length light
Curtains of linen,
Billowing white.


The scent of firewood,
Lemon,
And lavender
Spills into every room.
Sunlight rests
Comfortably on the oak-paneled
Walls.
warmth resides
Flickering gently like campfire flame
In bedroom shadows —
Fire remaining tame.
A clock ticks on
With silent grace
Amongst the music
In the
Gentle, silenced place.
Teacups gather
Along the counter
From morning’s start
Still warm,
Resting against the
Oakwood —
Like integrated art.
The breeze glides in —
Stretching through
The yellow tulips.
Drifting near the prairie
Where deer settle along the creek,
Sipping from the teal cascade
While bending among grass
And settling in
The shadows spread —
Not even the rustling speaks.
Squirrels play —
Once they scrambled,
Now they stay.
Soon, the prairie settles
Warmth of sun retreats,
Sinking in ocean-blue sky
And cotton candy clouds
With new—
Starry night above.  
Faint golden glow
Of the lamp
Among the licking
Light of fire.
In the night,
As the last stars settle to rest,
A tender voice clears —
Singing as the sun sets
In pastel paint,
Voice elegantly swaying
A soft tune.
By the creek
Loons all coo,
Flying in tune together
Like a fairy.
The last gentle note —
Not leaving any weight
Of the day carried.
At last,
The day ends
On the
Prairie.
The Sea That Sparkles
A poem: By Olivia Williams
——————————————-

Sunset spills like melting gold,
Tumbling through my dry fingers—
Sifting the soft grain through my palm,
Some sand—almost forming a mold.  

Shells— sea worn, colors seeming to bleed through their rough patches.

Waves nudging along the sandy shore,
Seeming to lap the surface
In white foam,  
Slowly hushing and sighing
As they swirl together,
leaving shells—
More intertwining—catching on the fine sand,
Forever sifting just beyond the water's edge.

The lighthouse glows,
Casting light—
A silent voice that flows to those beyond the shallow waters,  
Holding the sea in place—
Just in case.

Soft humming surrounds
As cardinals glide—
conversing together in mounds
On the lighthouse top,
Attracted by the growing night.

Knowing sleep is eminent,
So they hum goodbyes,
Murmuring together as
Everything settles after crossing ties.

Still— Beaming light slices into
Teal—cascading waters,
Lighting a path of watercolored flame— lighting the last of foaming waves.
Never seeming to falter,
As if there stretching to reach me,
At the last grin of the sun.

Sea spreads molten pastels—  
Tints of sapphire, moss, and soft yellow,
Open valleys underneath
The sheltered coral,
Shuffling in place as tropical-hued fish,
Cluttering around it
While seeming to sway like bells.

Each wave of color layering
—unlocking a key.
Like a canvas—a small brushstroke in motion,
holding life only few ever see.

The sun,
Scattering jewels like Ember
across the fading horizon.
The clouds drifting,  
Leaving a Crystal sky
Where the shades of sunset settle,
To look like glass
—The view never seems to lie.

Distant murmurs of
Tide’s steady tune,
A salty tang sifts
the ocean air,
A faint scent of seaweed, and tulips  
Scatter the sea side,
Never leaving the beach bare.

Tiny ***** scurry about the sand,
Forming miniature shadows—
While creeping through crevasses
Of water-worn rocks,
Sinking into the land.

What's left of foam still laces the shore,
Like woven-textured fabric
—foam bubbling more.
  
Light bends one last time,  
Never faltering over the ledge.
Filling the sky
Where the last of day
Meets the eternal edge.

—till morning
Waves slither to an end,
Leaving any small damage
On the shore to mend,

Night drapes,
Stars shimmer softly.
Sea breathing–a soft and slow drum.
Sea’s quiet hum—
The softest sound of day,
Drifting patiently
For the next day to come,
To eternally illuminate the water
In miracles and chrystal’s.

As no matter the day,
The sea sparkles—
Either way.

— The End —