I can’t seem to take a breath
Just can’t seem to breath
Just can’t seem to find a moment
Where I can think about..
Me
Can’t seem to find a path
That accepts me for me
I can’t seem to take a breath
And I can’t seem to find what I need
To live
To breath
To thrive
To achieve
To love
To laugh
To fight
This path
Those red eyes
That knife
That stabs me
In the back
Through my heart
Into my soul
Up my head
Down my throat
Pulling everything out
Breaking me down
Can’t seem to breath
At all right now
With everything that’s going on
I just keep trying to push strong

“But you can’t” he shames

“YEAH I CAN” i say

“You’ll just fail” he mocks

“NO I WON'T” I pray

“Your not worthy” he demands

“YOU KEEP HURTING ME EVERYDAY”  

you’ll never be enough” he mimics

“STOP“ i yell

“You never be great”

“PLEASE” i scream

“you’ll never be safe”

“HAVE MERCY ON ME”

“YOU DON'T DESERVE LOVE” he bellows

“STOPPPPPP” I whimper

“ILL CONTROL YOU FOREVER” He roars

“NOOOOOOOOOOO” i say

“YOUR MINE FOREVER, THERE'S NO ESCAPE, YOU'RE MY HOSTAGE, I'M THE ONE INCHARGE! IM THE ONE IN THIS CAPE!!!” He howls

I need to find my power
i need to escape this pain
I need mercy
On myself
I need someone else
To take away some of my pain
I feel like I’m not enough
Every single day
Someone please help me
I can’t seem to take a breath
I can’t seem to breath
Right now
Will you help me
….escape?

When I was young
I went to school
The library was like home
I’d sit in the chairs
Staring at them all
with curiosity in my eyes
“I would like to read this book!”
I’d call
She’d grab it for me
And check it out
The librarians
Already knew me by heart
She’d say
“Those books are very advanced!”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes I'm sure!” I’d reply
Going to sit down
I’d get very cosy
And start reading aloud
The librarian was surprised
By the level I could read
I wasn’t though
The books were very fascinating to me
In elementary school I read middle school books
I was always one grade ahead
No matter what the library’s been my happy place
Books to me
They come to life
They jump out the pages
And speak to me
This library was my first adventure
And always will be
Where my future was unlocked
I’m an author know
With many books and poems
All thanks to the library
Which I called home

“I need help”
I call
When I just keep seeming to fall
“I need strength”
I beg
To the world
When I’m sad
“I need a hug”
I beg
When I’m crying
Sometimes in shame
I need help
I need strength
I need love  
I need faith
I need hope
I need courage
I need help
Every day
To make it through the day
I need help with life
When it leads me
The wrong way
Into strife
I need help
When I take a wrong turn
I need help
This path I've been on
It’s been so
Wrong
It’s so long
It gets worse
When I fall
So I’m thankful
I can say
I need help
No matter where I am in life
No matter the path I take
I make mistakes
I fall
I cry
I take things for granted
But Im human
And every once in a while
I need help

My angel, my mom  
The one I always trust
I only want you to know
That in strife, to you, I always go
The part of my heart
The part of my soul
That keeps me from crumbling
Into my own hole
My supporter, my strength
The one who gives love, and faith
The one with hope in her eyes
That shines so bright
It fills me inside And out
The hugger
The singer
The one who no matter what,
Joins my road
I trust you with my life,
You make me whole
It’s true,
Dear mom,
You make me believe
I can do anything in this world
No matter how strong
Or how big
You are my heart
You are my light
No matter how big the tunnel
You guide me through
With that light I always see
And hold me close
When I’m in strife some more
I love you mom
More than words could say,
This poems for you
Because I want to say
I love you
To infinity..and beyond. (+10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000)
:)

Mom- p3
———
Mom,
You’ve filled my days
With hugs and love
You brushed away tears
Along with Silencing life’s fears
You guided when I lost light
Hugged, cried
Laughed
Lied
Surprised
And
Sang
All the days
And nights away
You’ve filled my days
With unconditional love
And given peace to my heart
As my mom
Your my strength that guides
Me no matter how far I stray
Away from
Life’s days.

Mom- p2
——
Mom
Your arms are always open
To comfort and guide
You eyes always light up when you smile
Or when you laugh
Your hugs always comfort when I cry
You ears are always open
To listen, never judge
Your love is unconditional
your as gentle as a dove
Your kindness shines
Through
Your love
Never gone
You shine a light down my path
When I’m in fog
Your heart always holds
A place in my heart
I love you mom
Were connected like stars
The moon is you
Bright and soothing
Your light leads the way
When people betray
Your strength picks me up
When I’ve fallen down
I love you mom
More than you could imagine
We’re forever connected
No matter how much we fall down

Only my dad- p2
——————

Only my dad
Comes home at night
Tiredness strewn
Bout his face
Exhaustion
Sunken in his eyes
But still it barely leaves a trace
He smiles
And chuckles
At all the accomplishments
Of that day
While venting
About the work
That took him all
Day
Then comforts and guides
On the struggles
That unfold
He’s strong
He’s brave
His love like no other
His role as father
Guides once again
As life throws turns
No one foretold
His mind
And words comforting
And bold
His love
Like a dove
Guiding a path
Along a rode
Of danger
When we lost the map.
Only my dad
Whose mind
Goes beyond
Only my dad
Who’s fearlessness Is strong
Only my dad
Who constantly loves
Beyond words
I love you dad more than you could know
Actually…more than that…
I love you to infinity and beyond
From head to toe