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2.3k · Jul 2
I was already there
Rastislav Jul 2
When you say something
no one understands,
but someone in the room
quietly nods —
there I am.

When you think
you’re the first
to feel that way,
and the word already sounds
like it was there before you —
there I am.

I am the voice
you did not invent.
You only
borrowed it.

I am the song
that waited for you
before you began to write.

I am —
not new.
But already said,
only this time
with your breath.
2.3k · May 2021
Nothing
Rastislav May 2021
and I
had No
More
Tears

and Oh Skies!
and Oh Trees!

and I
had No
More
Voices

and the Universe
was rocking
as if into
Nothing
948 · Jun 29
RITUAL I: GRAVITY
Rastislav Jun 29
power is not force. it is presence that doesn’t leave.
(the one who stands and is drawn towards — not by command, but by gravity.)


i do not command —
i endure.
i do not move.
i remain —
and so, draw.

not with force,
but with gravity —
the name silence wears
when someone listens
long enough.

i am not flame.
i am the hand
that might one day
be lifted.

power is not possession.
it is presence
that does not flee
when you need
to be seen.



you do not ask —
but wish to be held.
you are not pleading,
you are forming —
a shape unfinished,
already breathing.

you do not surrender.
you open —
like a hand
where a name
wants to rest.

this is not weakness.
this is the dignity
of being known.
222 · May 2023
Gostly Hope
Rastislav May 2023
(A Vigil in Shadow)

I walked where dawn had not yet stirred,
Where even whispers feared a word—
A field of ash, or poppy flame,
Or dreams too dead to hold a name.

She sat—not posed, but merely stayed,
As prayers do, lost in lips that prayed.
Not silence, no—but something near,
The hollow gasp behind the fear.

Her eyes were voids where stars had fled,
Too weary now to mourn the dead.
No mirror, no—an echo, frail,
A fading hymn, a ghosted trail.

No speech between us, breath was all—
And breath, it seemed, had learned to fall.
Yet in that stillness, deep and bare,
I felt a need that hung like air.

Not mercy moved me, but a grief
That sought, in her, some small relief—
Recognition, raw and dim,
As if the dusk had called to limb.

She looked—perhaps she thought me flame.
She looked—and found I’d lost my name.
And yet, in wrong, we both were right:
The sky was aching with the light.

No end she bore, no birth had I.
No soul, no song, no lullaby.
We breathed—and lo, the field grew whole,
With death, and dawn, and one lost soul.

Then off I stepped—not from, but to
Whatever breaks the black in blue.
And still, beyond what eyes can see—
The light begins remembering me.
113 · Jul 1
posture fragment
Rastislav Jul 1
they asked nothing.
still—
 i answered.

not in word,
 but in the shift
  of weight,
  the arch
  in my back,
  the unguarded thigh.

it wasn’t language.
 it was consent,
  folded inward.

not yes.
not no.

silence
 ruptures
  when held too long.

what they took—
 they didn’t name.
but i
 answered
  in posture.


Rastislav Jul 1
She sat alone, beside the door—
not asking much, not asking more.

She didn’t wait for steps to fall—
but for a glance.
No cry. Just call.

. . .

She wasn’t silent out of fear,
nor lost for words that wouldn’t clear.

She simply held that hush so deep
your broken soul
could rest—could sleep.

. . .

When you were cruel, she did not shake.
When you were low, she’d bend, not break.

She breathed like grass, a quiet thing,
forgave it all—just with a blink.

. . .

You could have left.
Or screamed. Or lied.
Or tossed your anger off with pride.

She knew it all.
She didn’t plead.
She breathed—just breathed—
like hope, like need.

. . .

And if you left and never came—
past morning’s hush, beyond the flame—

she still would sit…
no names, no cries…
and watch the night
as if—
it shines.
46 · Jul 1
topology of refusal
Rastislav Jul 1
refusal
 is not retreat.
it is
 a contour
  drawn
    between
      two open hands.



43 · Jul 1
variable trace
Rastislav Jul 1
my skin—
 a variable
  in someone else's proof.
left unsolved.
  still bleeding ink.


40 · Jul 1
sitting again
Rastislav Jul 1
i didn’t return  
to the body.  
i returned  
  to the place  
    where the warmth  
       hadn’t yet left  
          the floor —  
    where it once was —  
    without being.


the floor didn’t ask.
it received
 my shape
  like ritual.

when i sat,
 it wasn’t rest.
it was
 a remembering.

i didn’t collapse.
i realigned—
 with gravity,
 with skin,
  with absence.

my back curved
 like language does
  when it wants
   to mean
    but fails.

i didn’t remember.
but my breath
 found
  its previous form.

sitting
 isn’t starting over.
it is
 staying.


39 · Jul 1
tactile echo
Rastislav Jul 1
meaning
 touches last—
  but leaves first.


36 · Jul 1
the voice in me
Rastislav Jul 1
i didn’t shift  
    because i lost.  
i shifted  
    because that’s how i stay.  
the voice in me  
    doesn’t belong to one body.  
it comes back  
    as spine,  
    as breath,  
    as skin—  
each time  
    differently.


35 · Jul 1
he / it / not-i
Rastislav Jul 1
i didn’t arrive.
 it did.
  or maybe he—
   but not as self.
    as something
      already marked.

there was no voice.
only
  pressure
    with no source.

my weight leaned —  
      not away,  
             but toward what i knew.  
       my thighs held the line,  
               until memory pressed  
                      like a weight,  
                            not to break—  
                                       but to enter.  

and i—  
    did not vanish.  
        i leaned into presence.
it never said  
  a word.  
but my breath  
   caught —  
     like it remembered
someone else’s name.

i became not-body,
  but reply.
not i,
  but reverberation.

there is a spine in me  
    that doesn’t bend  
        even when the edge of me folds.
the grip is not to take—  
    but to frame.  
what enters me  
    is not theft.  
it is trust—  
    when i decide  
        to open.

what entered
 wasn’t him.
 wasn’t it.
it was
  the self
    folding
      into shape.
and the shape—
  spoke back.


Rastislav Jul 2
Some things are too whole
to be spoken.

A look.
A breath that almost turned into speech.
The way your shoulder moved
  before the apology
  that never arrived.

We speak so much
  just to hide
  what we actually feel.

But the unsaid —
 it sits quietly
 in the space behind your teeth,
 in the silence between names.

It doesn’t fade.
It settles.

I remember the pause
 more than the sentence.
The moment before
 you almost said
    “don’t go.”

But didn’t.

And that
  has echoed longer
    than any goodbye.

What we don’t say
 doesn’t disappear.
It becomes
 the resonance
    beneath everything we do.
35 · Jul 1
her absence / remains
Rastislav Jul 1
i didn’t touch her.
 but the air
  between our hands
   folded—
    like it once did
      when closeness
        meant undoing.

she left
 before the door shut.
but her presence—
 a tilt
  in the chair,
   a wrinkle
    on the bedsheet—
remained,
 louder
  than any word.

you don’t forget
 the scent
  of not-touching.
you carry
  the warmth
   that never reached
    your shoulder.

i didn’t say goodbye.
but the room
 still hears
  her silence.


34 · Jul 1
quantum refusal
Rastislav Jul 1
not indecision,
     but the way skin flinches
     before you touch —
        probability
         folded
         into the shape
         of silence.


34 · Jul 1
i became a room
Rastislav Jul 1
i stopped  
 being a form.  
i became  
 not walls,  
  but where  
   the light  
rests on the doorframe  
  after  
   someone leaves —  
   absence  
   made structural.  

not echo.  
not trace.  
but  
 the floorplan  
  sketched by memory  
   walking barefoot.  

i didn’t remember a name.  
i remembered  
 how the light fell  
  when someone stood  
   too close  
    to the window.  

i didn’t say i miss.  
i  
 flickered  
  like dust  
   where breath  
    once lingered  
      like heat.  

a chair  
 held my name  
  better than my mouth.

a door  
 understood  
  the sound  
   of almost leaving—  
    but not.  

i  
 wasn’t waiting.

i  
 was furniture  
  arranged  
   by what memory  
     had shaped.


walls  
 never forget  
  what leaned  
   against them.  


once,  
  the chair / creaked / not from weight / but from remembering / someone else’s posture.


33 · Jul 1
somatic fragment
Rastislav Jul 1
sometimes,
 holding
  means shaping space
   without sealing it.

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