All he says are lies.
But he’s tied to me.
Pieces and parts
Of a broken mirror.
All the lines sharp with all the lies.  
Shattered.
I hate you.
Walking on eggshells is hell.  
I can’t truly tell myself the truth.
That I love you ?
What’s worse losing who you were?
Or finally accepting the reality of time?
Believing the lies
Wasting time
oh so ever-lasting.
What is the real reality?
The black-and-white thought’s?
Process or proceed
It’s like a seed.
Confirm or confuse.
But you can’t grow.
It doesn’t make sense.
Does it lack the perception?
When i have the clear evidence
Back track minutes hours and days.
The split of the parts where
There was no future.
But keep going further in.
Again and again
Year after year.
Persistent. But pretend everything’s fine
Im hurt
don’t worry, it’s all blurry
cross the t and dot the I
There’s no you and I.
Am I lost?
You always come back
lacking everything I need.
Forgetting what he does
Im lost inside the game.  
Who cares? There’s no way getting out.
Of the glass of shattered parts in you and I.
In my mind are all your lies
It’s not so kind in between the lines.
I know all the lies.
But it’s fine.
it’s part of his game.
I truly don’t mind.
I don’t know a single lie.

RLC

5 years later
who would have expected he’s moving now
You knew
at the end you hope too get a goodbye  
You always got abandoned
he was the first that stayed that long
it’s the part you knew
You wouldn’t get a goodbye
He took years from you look
you know it was 5 minutes for him
But it was 5 years for me
he is moving
You knew
You will never move on.
He always came back
You cling to that
But He won’t come back
You knew
now it lingers in my mind
  those thoughts in your head were always right
You knew
The ending
The end
RLC

You’re not allowed here
Your room
The smell of clutter
Cuts through you
The trauma the trash
The lies shatter you
stay in your room don’t go
I matter right
Don’t fight
Shhh dont lash out they won’t hear a word
Trash doesn’t deserve to get out
Your a monster right stay longer
your lost in the process toss in  piles and piles
I’m lost in the lies and the misery
Dont yell don’t make a scene leave
Don’t come back
That room isn’t yours
Was  I a guessed let’s guess
I was your daughter
But just laugh it off
Because what you keep inside
builds up just like the clutter
Don’t look back
Those roots rot  
Because they will lack the ability to move forward
You left but that trash stayed back
Don’t go back.

RLC

I think of you less and less
that memory is fading  
I forgot  you wanted it to fade


RLC

What will it take for you to say the words
It lingers in your eyes
When you stare at me
But why can’t you say it
Each year I yearn for that moment for you to say
the words
There’s me and you but when you kiss me time freezes you won’t let go of that coldness in your eyes in December  
But we stay frozen in time in this one sided love it’s not new it’s almost New Year’s Eve

RLC

There’s a fork in the road go left or right or just maybe go forward into the middle don’t decide to go where someone else goes. Go down the middle lane and plant your seed of hope for that it’s the middle ground  see both ways  Of the path of where you are heading be different be you there’s ups and downs but where you go is just a seed of hope plant it and it will grow see the light in both sides and stand in the middle isn’t it beautiful who cares don’t worry if you stand out you just have to keep being you see both ways because the middle ground will balance your  perception of hope .

RLC

🫴🏻
The risk of the trust
Is to sink into truth
But that bubble
Can’t double
Just pop the bubble

-rlc

What is  a memory?
What should I be thankful for
Honestly I have never actually known
I just can’t stop laughing about it now
The ******* the couch says Rebekah
that’s actually not a good memory
I tell her  it’s just funny to think about
I can’t make those memories into a bad one
Because those were the only good ones I got

RLC

So many doors  so many problems
I  say you make a better door then a window
But you are the doors that locked
blocking the light
the feeling of not being able to breath
I can’t see where I’m going from your door
I wish I could be able to see through that window
See the happiness I deserve
The light in my eyes seeing  whats out there
Wonder is it going to be better
I wish I could get to that window
But all  those places all those people
just have doors and those doors lead to other doors
And those lead to the worst memories
People have to open a door to let me in
I just want you to let me open the window.
But you’re blocking it.

RLC

people looks down at the ground
I look  like a clown being around
They say look in the mirror
But i can't because i can't read backwards
I want to go forwards
Who am I?
You all say I'm different
I try to see what you meant
Some people just go a far way to lie
Me I'm just a mile away From the truth
Who am
I'm the girl who was different
Then the others
RLC

I thought I knew you
I thought that you stud up for me back then
I thought we both were on they same base
about the past of you and me
you where someone who I looked up to  
I thought I knew you  for  years
but now that everything is different
After you texted me that night …


I   should have never let  you tell me to run straight to the base and let you slide into my heart I should have listened to my head telling me you can’t run to him your just going to get hurt .

RLC

It’s Almost fall
the tree start to turn different
But thats how it goes
Look around seeing those leaves fall
But because you’re falling out of my life
I’m not looking at the leaves I’m looking at you leaving….
After one thing falls apart it start to fade just like those leaves on the tree
Something beautiful Turns  into something
that Gets blown away
But that’s  how it goes…

RLC

As we sit across from Each other
At the table
You ask me
Are we here because
You went here with him
I look you in the eyes
I said no because your not him
10 hours drive away from you
You and I would write letter back and forth
I was so happy to get your letters
Its like when your a kid
running to the mail box with a smile
I started to need those letters to know you still care
2 month go by i still sitting in the living room still hoping for a letter
But in reality they were never going to come
the letters the texts the calls stoped  show up
And I wonder what happened
I go back to that day when you ask me
That one question are we here cuz of him
And then i realized you where him to me
I needed you to be him
But in reality you didn’t want to be him

RLC