Who are you?
The one that pretends to cope
  letting oceans of liquor drown you
from your purpose,
is it me? No
You're just a being I created
to withstand the pain
that I can never tolerate,
a being of which to take the blame.

Who are you?
A disgrace to the world,
  A world that is full of ******
and you adding to the population
won't even have the slightest chance
to overcome this cruel life
Is it me?? Never
You are just a person I made
to carry all of my burden,
     to endure the void that ***** out
every goodness I have to give.

Who are you?
Man in the mirror
  eyes that look like it haven't seen
love for too long,
What more can you give?
How many more mask
do you need to make,
before you realize
  it was you all along

it was you all along

You talk too much
It's either
Your pasts makes me regret
that I didn't met you earlier
Or a feeling that
I'm not used to deal with
But I love you
And always will

I'll  pour my love in your cup
and let it spill
knowing you'll do the same

For how useless it is to offer a glass that they can never fill

When the one who loves you
will never be afraid to go empty

If love was an eight hour shift
  I'd work overtime
just to see you

I ran away with you
For you have promised an eternity of smiles
When we were halfway through
I have now seen my very own demise
The garden of roses that I dreamt on lying with you
was a burial with two coffins
for me and for my heart that bleeds for you

A man bestowed to carry a weight
  far more heavier
than his liver can carry
I need to write...

To my lover
who's eyes look like
the promised land
I quenched my thirst
through your lips
and as I held your hand
I held the garden of eden once more..

My pen will never go empty
that means the moment I entered your life,
    I can fill the pages on the chapters I entered in your story
and let no ink be wasted
even when I'm left handed.

I'll carefully use metaphors
and give it to you like flowers,
to offer you humanity
instead of things
that can only last a day,
  just to let you know
your love is my ink
  and my pen
can never go empty

I know your hands are full,
   all of the empty promises
with mouthful of lies
and broken ribs
  that been beaten by men
because you taught your heart
       to make it beat their name.
.
.
There's a free room
and it's there
between your fingers
that only need
a strong soul
and a grip that can endure
the remaining years

You can't taste your tears
   when she wipes it away
before it reaches your lips

I guess luck
comes in different shapes
and mine took form of a woman.
A humble personality
that  matches the angels
It's as if God let down
one of His children
made me hold her hand
and gave me a heaven
that I can reach

Even a five star food on the table
  can turn inedible
       cause of one star parenting
no matter what plate
a parent can cook    
    if he fills the child with misery
all things turn sour

When my time  comes
I'll greet death like an old friend
a kiss on the cheek like a lover
And in its arms
I shall be embraced
Like a son
Who went home

They said
    I make the most stupid choices
from choosing alcohol over books
    and cigarettes over gum.

Dropping grades
while raising my voice
 towards my mom for nagging 24/7
     You question yourself
to the point
your friend's room
     has been more of a home
than the hands of who raised you

But the world ain't fair
         when you were made
from your father's fake promises
   that made your mother's heart
colder than the beer she held.

I was called by many names
  from being the most stupid
to being the most hated
  
              But God I loved it
        when you called me yours

I told my mother
I'll stop drinking if dad comes back home

And it has been a year since I slept without drowning myself
with alcohol

I am aware my love
that in today's situation
we must distance ourselves
away from the world
But never from ours

You may not be the first one I see
every morning
but I always remember
Your fingers through my coffee mug handle
and your lips

You taught me
   that love is pure
when the present
    Doesn't hate you from your past
         instead waters you
to grow better in the future.

    To my beloved wife,
the strings of our fate
   have become one
We will journey this life together
       facing other demons
while taming ours.
         I'll love you better
for you molded me to be the best
             and for that...
     I offer you my remaining days

Difference between
your lover that does not pretend
and
   the actor who kisses you on cam
is that
     I won't leave you after the scene
and I wont stop
when they tell me to "cut"

While the whole world takes you away from me
  Take my hand
     and let my lips be the inhaler
to your lungs
     whenever you feel tired of running away from them

For we are like Romeo and Juliet
   without the blade and the potion
we die everytime our hands let go
   and our hearts distant from each other
  
FOR I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU
   THE MAN WHO HAS FOUND PEACE IN YOUR ARMS
    AND WAS LOST BY YOUR EYES

She has imperfections
     her scars are too deep
for any man can dive.
    As you walk down the aisle,
your feet takes you closer to me
         your eyes signal the words
                     "I do"
        before you can even speak
and yours lips
    holding the most beautiful vows
That's the time I knew
             This is for a lifetime

Your hands cramp
from holding too much promises,
for holding on to a love
that stays like an ice sculpture
and the heart will shatter
as you witness a love
that you once held
turns to something
your eyes make
whenever you cry

The longer I wait for this to end
    the more I realize
         your presence means nothing
without you feeling the same way
    that I do
Love will always be sweeter
     when you know
your heart rests on the right person
    and the right person
will love you
    no matter how long it takes
to see you

Don't be the flame
that lights the cigarette of promise
as fate slowly sips our love
down to the last tobacco
and
taps the ashes of our memories
onto my hands
as if it's an ashtray
for the past

You're beautiful inside out
Your voice is the only alarm clock
         my body wants to wake up
and your smile is the sun
      that lights my room.
Distance may hinder me
                 from holding you tight
but I'll tell you I love you
           in many ways  
   like my bed seems like the ocean and your touch is the only thing
     that's keeping my head
in the surface

Waking up beautiful
in a cozy bed
of comfort promises
you were finally covered
with blankets as thick as the love
he gave you
warmth and felt like arms
that tuck you to sleep
on a rainy day
and as you close your eyes
the last thing you'll ever hear
is a whisper that reaches
through the deepest
of your trauma
only to find out
you are loved.

If you give too much,
     love can hurt you.
The emptiness
   that drowns you
whenever she doesn't care
  everytime you knock on her door
without her knowing
   you'd go an extra mile for her....

But love will always be random
  Maybe in places you never know
Or
  She might be next door....
just waiting
  for you to come over

When you found love
   her kisses can cause alzheimers
and I got my first kiss
all over again
  
She can turn pain into a man
  that I've never met
and I can easily beat him up
     knowing all you need
to do is to fight

She can turn my traumas
    into monsters
She is the lamp and the teddy bear
  the protector and the way
             whenever I feel
my life is going dark

A woman who loves you
   can shapeshift into anything
you want
   All she asks for you
is just
be the man
that you promised her
to be

Sometimes I envy your ex
     he got the best out of you
turned it to something
          they could just use for a habit
while you treated them
         as your everyday necessity

Let me cover your scars
     make them as part of the art
paint them with our memories
         and turn them
into something beautiful
    
I know your fear  
that this might be another goodbye
   my actions tell more than my poems
     just press rewind
and treat me as your first
       while I love you
like I'm the last

Got to teach myself
that too much sweetness
can make a relationship sour

Handle me with care
A man may be strong enough
to lift heavy weights
       but sometimes
         it cannot hold the weight
              Of his emotions
Men can cry
Otherwise who can teach boys
To be men?

Saying those three words
While doing more is to prove
Iloveyou's are nothing
When you never gave her
Everything

It takes 1 kiss
   for the two of us
to say those three words
    that holds us for a lifetime.
At 5 Am we watched the sunrise
    I told you six of my fears
you said I was your 7th
   so you couldn't stand an 8th
you told me I was a benign one
and that I drop you off at 10
   cause 11pm doesn't exist on your father's clock

I never believed in God
But the moment I saw you
"*******! You are beautiful"
I swear,
whenever you hold my hand
I can feel the next 50 years
Of my life with you...

For I shed a tear
   everytime you're near
           I get goosebumps
        and butterflies in my stomach
whenever your feet chose my
        arms as the destination
I shed a tear
        in times we argue
             through dire situations
my tears will tell
          how I fear losing you
I shed a tear
           for thanking God
having to spend my life
       with you
              in times like this
where you can't tell who's fake
         My tears will always tell
          How I love you dear