a postcard to my biggest fear:

do you remember when we used to fall asleep talking to each other? i didn't need solace from the broken down walls of my body. but the ocean was calling you home and she told you not to look back. i swam for what seemed like days to find proof of your existence. everyone who knew me thought my swollen heart had to do with the saltwater running in my veins.

wish you were here,

me

Just because I don't show, it doesn't mean I don't feel.

made a promise I can’t keep
don’t wanna talk just wanna sleep
I don’t want to find someone
for problems that are well past begun

I know I’m not the only one
who feels like they’re coming undone
the world is hard to bear a lot
suicidal thoughts are all I got

leaving all these friends behind
will surely **** with my mind
it’ll help, that’s what she said
to get these thoughts out of your head

life will always be full of pain
but if you keep it in, there’s nothing to gain
just find someone to talk it out
and you will have much less doubt

Whenever I see you.
I remember love.
Cause you so beautiful.

You make a cloudy day seem so much brighter.
And could take a gloomy day and make it so much better.

Yes, I remember love.
When I see you.

You close to a flower.
You make our love grow more and more.
You that vision of loveliness that many men dream of daily.

And I am one of them.
Who closely adore you.

I decided to ride the slide sideways

Letting my feet hang over

And one edge guide my neck

I went straight down for a second or two

But with my eyes to sky
I didn't worry

Rather, I just enjoyed the view

I met a man.. that I believe..I have dreamt into existence.
He spoke life into my dreams, dried my tears, when I cried from my ever healing soul, planted lavender below my window sills, surfed the ups and downs of my complicated moods and patiently waits..

He's the constant, I never knew was real, the strength that keeps my back from bowing, the gentle...that soothes every doubt.

He's the description of what Love..is truly meant to be.

VERSE
Is that where we fell short, ignoring all our options that weren't an honest picture of ourselves? Why spend a lifetime searching for the answers when no-one even cared to ask themselves?

PRE-CHORUS
You stood, lit by the moonlight, standing by the gate. Words laced with alcohol, reeling from your tongue. I thought this would never happen - turns out it won't. In the brief pause before our kiss, we ignored the signs.

CHORUS
It's different to hers, but no less enjoyable. That evening was ours, and her dress fell off her shoulders.