I tossed
& I turned.
Why is this lesson,
So hard to learn?
Each eye awake
& reminiscing over
Every single one
of Life's mistakes.
Right or Wrong ?
My family
My youth
My Integrity
My cowardice
My serenity
My complacency
or lack of generosity
& indecision
or was it apathy
love, hate, sympathy
that She had for me?
I think about
my place,
my plate
this space
&
the belittling
of Me
or just being irate....
Why should/did I change?
when in my Mind
its memories
its pain
its emotions
for Heaven's sakes
make it complete
Not deranged.
Psjwebber
(14 Oct 21)