Be real,
But not so much that you lose yourself,
You don't have to express your every thought and every desire,
You cannot wish for the one who isn't you to appreciate every dream you aspire,
It's not you who's at fault,
The world simply doesn't conspire.

In the end,
My mother,
Is the best solution.

I love flowers,
In the garden.

I've set my thoughts on happiness,
They are so different for me,
Motivation as well,
I don't seek it from the outside anymore,
I went through my Fit app,
It's officially 4 months on and off,
I can see the big lines on my big belly,
Even the slightest flat, is a sight,
I can see my double chin hanging on a little tighter,
Now I will do a thousand steps more,
Now I will happily cut my ties with junkies,
Oh, now I love diets.
I'm amazed,
I cried in the beginning,
Now I'm enjoying the same.
Consistency is a journey,
Of unexpected lopsided turns.

Plants are breathing,
So am I,
Trees are dancing,
So am I,
The weather is cool,
And my coffee is hot,
This morning feels so nice.

"Uttam", " excellence"
How do I reach you,
Can I ever?
I'm pretty average in everything,
So is the feeling,
But
Will someone like me ever change,
Can I ever be Uttam,
I want to taste how it feels.
How excellence feels.

How do I tell her,
That it is " the foolish her", which she is desperate to hide,
made her more beautiful, natural and has my love.
How do I tell her, that I miss her "main kya hi karoon" waala laugh,
How do I tell her that I understand the world is mean but,
You can be yourself before me,
How do I tell her without telling her?

Cherish when you can,
Or
You will be shattered
When it's gone....

I'm writing this,
When I don't know what to write.

The place where,
You don't willingly go,
End up reluctant to return from,
Is called shower🚿

Whenever I'm nervous,
Whenever my mind stops working,
Whenever I feel I've nowhere to go I look for you Krishna,
My magic I need you again and always.

A boosting quote I've read today,
" I've known my limits,
  To cross them."

Dear God,
Can you fix my malfunctioning,
There are many nonsense embarrassing memories, I'm troubled with,
Can you replace them with my tomorrow's test work?

Not all the encounters end up to be glad,
Not all arrogant ones are bad,
Not all fangirls should be considered as mad,
Eventually, not all poets are always sad.

It's pretty burdensome,
When you swallow the tears,
Deep into your heart,
As their peace becomes more important than your pain.
But when alone they don't stop.

Shapeshifters
Exist
In me
My thoughts
My emotions
But not in
My behaviour
Now they are
Squealing  altogether
It's so noisy and stifling
And yet I'm staying calm.
Because
Someone has to be.
Right.

Well it either takes
Tremendous courage
Or
Tremendous ignorance.

Aksar mai Jo dhikthi hoon
Woh hothi nahi,
Par woh dikawa nahi,
Haan nahi hoon mai bold ya sigma,
Mujhe doosron ke kushi se hi kushi
Miltha hai,
Thoda selfish kayal bhi aaya na,
Toh khud kushi lagtha hai,
Aur shahad mai yeh accept nahi karpai,
Par sach yahi hai,
Ki main kabi galat raasthe mai thi hi nahi,
Chahe gussa ** ya gham,
Haalath kaise bhi **,
Apno ke liye jaban se theer na dena,
Yeh bhi toh ek kala hai,
Aakir ghum mai bhi sahi hone ka sukh
Kithno ko miltha hai.

My mind says Give up! Give Up! Give Up!
And I say Shut Up! Shut Up! Shut Up!

I keep repeating the same mistake,
Regret it every time,
It is Opening up.

No matter what you choose,
Regrets would never leave you, would they?
So I'm weighing my regrets

I'm craving books,
Please give me as many best names as you wish!

I regret letting you know me,
I liked it when we were strangers.

Reppavesi loppale aapesina prathi kanneeti binduvulu,
Samrudram la yuddhaniki vasthe,
Poraadedhi ela

Mustered up all the courage,
I've unlocked the door,
I don't know what's behind that,
Even if I open it,
Would I be able to step outside the door?
Or the concern of this unknown new world and self-doubt,
End up killing my curiosity?
What's making me scared, will it turn out real or is it just an illusion?
I've opposed many to get here,
Will I be able to answer them?
Many questions are making my heart sore,
Would I  be able to step outside the door?

Din raat mann mera bas yahi soche,
Bina paronke aasmaan ko kaise chuye.

The moment I saw your silhouette,
Everyone else became a blurry shadow.

Maybe because of the familiarity
Or knowledge of their real lives
somehow
Movies and actors never made me feel,
How my old and shredded books have.

It was raining yesterday,
I was at the balcony,
relishing the usual beauty,
soothing breeze, dancing trees,
until something caught my eye,
amidst the woodlot, thin and high,
unmoving, not drenching,
it was extricating
amidst the sways, still it stays,
dip... dip dip drip the drops
pitter-patter, whoosh and splash
everything subsides,



I see the silence,
I hear the silence.

When you let go of what others think of you,
When you know you are doing right,
When you know you're hurting none,
That is when you start
To let embarrass yourself,
Let you embrace yourself,
Take all the colours,
And paint yourself,
A wonderful and colourful life.
Be Your Own Muse sometimes.

Honestly,
I don't know either.

I thought a smile was the most beautiful thing,
Until I met your eyes.

I don't do drugs,
But I feel high.
I'm not ashamed,
But I feel shy.
I am brave,
But I do cry.
I am no bird,
But I wanna fly,
Touch the sky,
Very high.
But the sky,
Is a lie,
I thought as I lye.
Things I've half done begun to pry,
Before I give up and sigh,
I know I must give it a try.
Before I regret it all and eventually die,
Under the sky,
Which I know is a lie,
I will go and give it a try.

Few flashbacks are so dark,
At times,
No distractions can change my mood,
Then happened something,
I felt really good,
It was written something on my book,
There's still 'HOPE' take a look!

It's a universal thing,
Those who tend to care for everyone,
Always stays in the last place for everyone...

First
You are
Scared,
Then
You feel
Wronged,
And
Everything seems
Unfair,
Soon
You feel
Exhausted,
And next comes the best part,
You end up
Enjoying it.

I'm need a new home just anywhere,
Gotta take my despair somewhere!!!

The problem is always
With the"nice people",
Who are just nice.
Nothing more,
Nothing less.

It's always those unpredictable nice people,
Who inspires me so much to become like them.

Haal kya hai janab ka?
Jawab kya hoga,
Iss sawal ka?
Zara sa mann duniya mein, Zara sa mann kaagaz ke panno mein,
Hum to kud gumshuda hai,
Humare in khayalon mein।

I don't hate anyone,
But sometimes
I hate everything...

My feelings flowed as my eyes graced the sky,
Finally, I can say goodbye.

I wanna be free
I wanna be safe

Do they comply?

I'm home, I'm safe,
I'm happy??

When I leave
My body,
If there's is a soul,
In my body,
They wouldn't have much inconvenience,
Adjusting
In
A
Smaller Coffin.....

I bought you jewellery,
I take you to dinner,
Oh my dear
I know I've been busy lately
But I've sent you flowers and greeting cards,
Yet you seem unhappy every time.

"Or you could have just bought me a Pizza,
You would have won."

Overwhelming,
Is it how love is?
I guess it is,
But no one will warn,
If it was happiness or hell,
If love was supposed to feel like this,
Every single moment has become enacting  hell,
To the point where death seems so well,
All the tears that were swallowed,
My heart has reached its absolute swell,
Now that I think,
Am I even being loved?

How does it feel to be loved?

Why can't I just feel the joy?
What's with all these trepidations?
Whyyyyyyy?