Open Diary Of Me

Love and flame my poor heart speaks
I encourage true love
if I was a little girl
I would change everything that gave pain
I would wrap myself up in love,

But I am no longer a child
I am a woman that had been in and out of love
How sad it is to understand the pain of it all
when love leaves you to fall
Some say that is the beauty of it all,

Image the astonishing beauty of rain
I touch many artist eyes
readers minds as I write out my pains
I understand my own faith
yet, for my own sake I rather let out my cries
in the number of years I felt my heart slowly die,

I unwrapped my pains into my faithful diary
it is a heavy yet rough plaid material
it fastened with brass clasp
but as soon as it was to be open
the heartaches begins
with an outcry pain that has no end.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1999

Agony

Everyday it will rain until my pains go away
Dark Angel always love to see me in pain
Darkness is always around me all hope of an escape
has left me this is know the life I live,

Pain and agony the grunt of grinding teeth
My pain's run deep within my veins cuts of darkness
that never stops this is all my poor soul knows
that it now takes hold,

The hurt that consumes me
with no heart beat I'm hurt
like clockwork a rain that will never go away as long
as there is pain
Oh, the shame that holds me in Dark Angels lust
I don't want to cry you see,

that is weakness in Dark Angels eye's
I'm along most of the time
Locked away with no hope of an escape
I sit around with my black velvet gown
with red roses in my black hair,

Lips silk red and my eyes as blue as they could get
My bed is ready to be played in of lustful sin
When darkness descends on my light skin
the Moon shines
on dim Dark Angel wants to party,

Scattered pieces of my soul lying around
just to be found to gather up again
I can her a knocking at my door
Just to find Dark Angel wanting more
I can feel his lust creeping upon me

His hunger his needs for me
His breath, his eyes on my every move
His cold touch of death this fight is a fight I could
never win his darkness mad it's way
in it has consumed me

I felt I couldn't breathe his lust is all over me
His voice has soften by telling me a story
how much he waited to find his Dark Angel
Dark Angel exclaimed

When I found you Moonlight
It was the best thing that ever happened to me
In my darken life than
he looked at me and proceeded
to say more I waited yet again

For you to let my dark love in
But you keep hanging on to a faith
You don't have an escape
You don't have strong enough faith
Your rain will never go away

Poetic Judy Emery © 1986

THOSE LYING EYES

If I was somewhat mild, and sweet
Everyone would look at me as weak,
Love and flame my poor heart speaks
I encourage true love to stay with me,
But that isn’t the way this story goes
not yet in this show,

if I could go back to the time when
I was young a little girl,
I would had asked questions more,
but I am an older woman
that had to learn the hard way in life
where people wasn’t very nice,

Hate and strife was always at my door,
My poor heart was laid to bleed at my feet,
All my dearest thought where things was
Once sweet has been lost,
I always walked around with a broken heart,

I have seen so much things
that given me darken dreams,
Where love is truly lost,
I tried so hard to heal from all those lies
That eat away at my heart day and night,

I would change everything if I could,
Even my poor childhood,
Oh, weary eye come to me at night,
With trembling hands,
asking me to forgive all his sins,
If I could I would,
I can only try,
That’s when I started to cry,

Loneness’ was at my side
in teary eyes,
if I would had known long ago
what this love would had sown
I would had never entered his throne,
all he ever gave me
was much heartaches that always made
my body each, while my spirit breaks,
Oh, the pains of true agony,
I would wrap myself to sleep
But I always found him in all my dreams,

Words of unquestioning is the love
I once known some time ago,
A love so true way before I got lost
In to a darken state of life,
I was just a young girl with lots of curls,
dancing around in life,
where things were safe and nice,

But I am no longer a child
I am a woman that has gone into
A life of pain, now I just dance in rain,
What Dark Angel gave,
I see his dull eyes looking right at me
Oh, how I feel I can no longer breath
His old cold hands are on me
Telling me what is it you see?

Oh, how he is rattling my breath
Playing with my head,
there is no way out he said,
I got lost in all his lies,

that are in his eyes,
Images of shadows upon the white sand,
Blood being poured out in ancient times,
Like an old poet rhyme,
I touch many artist eyes
And reader’s minds while I write
down my pains of darken dreams,

Poetic Judy Emery © 1999

The Queen Of Darken Dreams

Now you will know
I am the queen of this show
In darken dreams,
Yeah, you didn’t hear me scream,

Behind the walls, they will crawl
on black ice, frozen are they
who got in my way,

They all meet me at my feet
Crying out queen of dreams
Stand up for me,

They all look at me if I was tall
But I wasn’t tall at all,
The slaves are in so much pain
They flipped and gripped at me,

While they are slipping, and falling
Down on black ice in the night,
Dark Angel don’t play nice,
and he never thinks twice,

He cold trembling hand touched me
Like he never touched me before,
Telling me to speak while I can,

So, I looked at the slaves saying
In a very loud way,
Wake up while you can,
Set yourself free from he,

who gives darken dreams,
Wake up I said are you will soon regret,
That’s when Dark Angel looked at me
Then he slapped me,

I thought I could trust you,
But I can see I have much work to do on you.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017

I SEEN BETTER DAYS

Oh, when I look at you
I see the unloving things about you,
I want to love you
But how can I love someone as you
That acts so cruel,

I need you
Yet, I truly don’t,
I just live in a confusing world,
I thought at one time in my unstable mind,
I thought I loved you,

that I could help you change your evil ways,
Oh, how I needed it to be true
Because I thought I truly loved you,
I needed you
No matter what others tried to tell me about you,

At one time that all I wanted to think about
Was only you,
Oh, but now, I truly changed my mind,
Now that I am walking in a healthy mind,
Now I cry all the time to get you out of my head,

You make me so crazy with your evil always,
No matter what I do
You are always there,
Oh, I have seen better day when you are not in them.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017

SWEET TABOO

There is no remedy for love but to love  
That is taboo to say I love you,
To wait an hour is long if love be just
Beyond to wait eternity is short if  
Love reward, just because I feel that  
Love from you,

The words rising in me strong and clear  
Oh so real like the sun in the sky that  
Shines so bright is the love I hold in my heart
That is taboo every time I think of you,

I hear the words in love songs of love and I  
Think of us just the way we were dancing in  
The bar singing to each other, You’re still the  
One we had been dancing on,

And the words I love you came to mind like
Rising moon that shine bright on our love  
That night to set our love on high,
I try to say the words never let me go,

But that is all taboo is my love for you,
Till I loved I never lived enough,
Love is a gift from heaven above,
Love is all there is to me,
when it comes,

To us, is all we shale ever know is the  
Love we hold Taboo could never take  
Control over what is inside of us,

If we love we must never walk in darkness  
I almost broke the silence many, many times
But was held back by the feeling you left me  
In when I saw the look in your eyes,
Our love was only taboo of lies.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2010