At night, the darkness is the worst.
Not the lack of light
The lack of courage in my soul.
My demons rush in
The monsters come out
The worst thoughts make me want to hide.
But I can't.
I don't get to run from the past
I don't get to hide from my mistakes.
I only get this night
And the morning that follows.

When the darkness closes in
And the monsters bare their fangs
I hope for you then.
I hope for your touch
For the smell of your hair
For the light in your blue eyes
For the whisper of your words
Of your love.

I hope for all those things.
My shields against the terror
My beacons in the darkness
My guiding light through the fog

I hope and wish for you
In the darkest night

Swiftly running,
walking quickly,
champion
oh ye achilles.
writer scratch pen and scribble
breakest morn
oh eggs ye dribble
wander now oh complacent traveler
and know ye hear
that blood doth spatter
kings afoot and kings abhor
this deceitful day of Elanor

Our religion is time,
Our life is work,
Our love is sleep.
And we say
"Look at how free we are"

A million things to apologize for.
Ten thousand times I wish Id said
"I'm really not ******* okay".
A thousand days I want to do
Over again.
A hundred times whispered
"I hate who I have become"

Ten days that all I saw
Was the end I need to carry out.

And one
Just one
Simple step.
Slide the knife
End your life.

But instead I held on.
I hoped for better.
I prayed I could be more.
And I found
That I'm not.

I'm still broken,
Still shattered,
Still lost.

I still hate who I've become.
Only now I scream it in my mind.
Hoping the world will hear
But praying no one will bother.

I don't want to be a burden
I just want to love her.
But maybe broken people are meant
To stay broken
And to break the things the touch.
Maybe I'm broken
Because I'm meant to be this way

Smiling
While inside your breaking

I need you
That's how it is.
I need your smile
The way it is when you look at me.
As of I, somehow, am incapable
Of doing any wrong.
I need your kiss
Softly on my lips.

I

Need your eyes.
The bluest I've ever seen
A thousand worlds spin in the blue sea
And I'm the center of them.
This feeling
I need it

I

Need you whispering "I love you"
Because I know you mean it
Like no one ever has.
I know you mean those words
With every ounce of your being.
And that

That....

I've never had that.
Please don't ever leave me.
I know I'm no where near perfect.
But I love you so much.
Can that be enough?
My love for you.
To see us through
All the bad and good
Forever?

I need/want/have/desire/love you

On this night
The king-god Zeus does battle
With the titans of old.
The sky is livened
By his hurled bolts of lightening.
Their targets simply
Unseen to the mortal eye.

The calm is shattered
By the clash of thunderbolt
On stone and molten rock.
Our protector, he remains.
Though many have forgotten him
To myth, legend, and lore
We have forgotten the safety
That his lightning strikes provide.

On sunny days
Cloudless nights
We are allowed to forget his ways.
But on this night
In these dark and stormy hours,
The true believers remember.
That Zeus has watched over us
For millennia. Battling an unseen
War, waged in the tales of old
But carried out before our eyes.

We must recall that he,
The one King-God, Zeus, has
Watched over us dutifully since time
Before time before memory.
He has kept us safe
From the titans of old.
And the lightening strikes
Remind us of stories untold