i use to feel happy
i use to feel sad
i use to feel altogether
i use to feel  all alone
i use to feel loved
i use to feel lonely
i use to feel here
i use to feel there
i use to feel gone
i use to feel forgotten
i use to feel aloud
i use feel quite
i use to feel safe
i use to feel everything now
i feel nothing

i watch you walk
i watch you talk
i watch you listen
i watch you sit
i watch you  just being you
i don't know why i do the things  i do just to watch you
but all i know is i could never leave its like a drug and drink just for awhile you feel nothing but then when its gone you feel unwanted so i watch as you do the things you do just know ill never leave you all lone.

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In my  dreams you were there and that makes happy
In my  dreams we were laughing
In my dreams nothing could hurt us
But when I'm a wake I cry I think I wonder I cut
I miss you like you were never mine
I just wish I could make you see
Why do you make me feel this way
I never wanted to feel this way
But something about you makes me wanna find out
I could dream of you all day but still ask why
I wish I could make you see but that will never be but you have eyes for ones who dont see
But I'll dream of you every time
They say when you dream of someone they miss you
I want to hold you
I want to feel you
I want to lay with you
I want to talk to you
Dreams do come true
I wish I had that luck but not me all I can do is dream

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When
When you talk
When you walk
When you sleep
When you cry
When you hold me
When you dance
When you smile
When you write
When you read
When you look at me I feel all warm insdie
You make me feel there's nothing I cant do and that makes me happy I'll never want to cry

I cried inside
Poem by me
When you hold me I cried inside
When you told me I cried inside
When you  talk I cried inside
When you walked on by I cired inside
When you held me I cried inside
When  I say hi I cired inside
When I talked I cried inside
When I asked why I cired insdie
Only time I didnt  cry was when you hold me tight and then I asked why and then I cried.

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Hold on
Dont go
Y no one cares anyways
Yes some do
Who
If they do they dont say
I just wanna go
Jump of that stupid bridge
Dont ur loved
Why
I feeling coming on
Hold on
No dont wanna
Stop it
No
Yes
Think
Think lil more
No
Leave me alone
In gonna do it
Do what
Jump.

come with me
come now
why you ask
cause i said so
you wait to think
but you know you want to
so you do
we walk into the woods and look at each other deep in the eyes and our souls come together as they kiss and we stand there watching them.
They look so happy and peaceful
it's getting cold and dark and the moon is shining and our souls leave
we go our spend ways but that moment will ever forget

walking along the street when the wind blows and you hear me say your name you better run cause i will take your soul
and let my demons play with it and as it does you will be screaming help me  ill be standing there  laughing cause you got  everything that god wished for you to get remember that
as a priest is doing exorcism on you and when you see me next  you look away  i laugh some more cause i'm not done playin with you yet .

Come with me down this path as we walk we can talk n talk until there is nothing left to say n keep walking in slients.
listening to the birds n watching the near by water fall.
As we watch lil tiny fairy's are flying around its looks so peaceful cuz the lights makes the sky light up and when you look up all you can see is the lovely lil fairy's
An tiny bit of light now as we go and sit on tree stub and thank the lil fairy's for the beautiful site

i was born in 1982
i was lonely childhood
i was lonely high school years
i was lonely child
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982
i was in loved with the wrong one
i was lonely
i was a mother
i was called names
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982
i was in loved again
i was beaten
i was lonely
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982
i was happy
i was sad
i was angry
i was happy again
i was sad again
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982
i was happy yet again
i was sad so sad again
can't seem to get out of it i just wanna died
i was happy again
i was sader again
i was lost so lost
i was happy happy happy
now im ..........
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982

stop stop stop stop
why why why why
cause cause cause cause
listen listen listen listen
talk talk talk talk
walk walk walk walk
stop stop stop stop
listen listen listen listen
time time time time
to to to to
play play play play
not so not so not so not so
nice nice nice nice
jump jump jump jump

everything gonna be alright
everything gonna be alright
everything gonna be alright
i think of what
i think of why
i think of when
i think of  how
i think of if
i think now
everything gonna be alright
everything gonna be alright
everything gonna be alright
i think of fighting
i thin of cutting
i think of what's in your head
i think go now
i think stop
i think of walking
everything gonna be alright
everything gonna be alright
everything gonna be alright
i think i think i think
everything gonna be alright

i like that your lonely  like me i must be a fool
i like that your broken like me i must be a fool
i like that your sad like me i must be a fool
i like that you're happy like me i must be a fool
i like that your angry like me i must be a fool
i like that your ugly like me i must be a fool
i like that your listening to music like me i must be a fool
i like that your hungry like me i must be a fool
i like that your liar like me i must be a fool
i like that your fighter like me i must be a fool
i like your warrior like me i must be a fool
i like your emotional roll raster like me i must be a fool
i like your like me i must be a fool

stay go stay go stay go
go now go now go now
stop stop stop
think think think
think think think
walk walk walk
walk walk walk
slow slow slow
faster faster faster
stop stop stop
sit down sit down sit down
pick up the phone pick up the phone pick up the phone
dial the number dial the number dial the number
hang up hang up hang up
think think think
think think think
get up get up get up
walk walk walk
slow slow slow
now now now
run run run
so fast so fast so fast
no one can see no one can see no one can see
now now now
turn turn turn
down down down
the the the
road road road
stop stop stop
go go go
to to to
the the the
tunnel tunnel tunnel
have a seat have a seat  have a seat
now now now
breathe breathe breathe
dont dont dont
cut cut cut
think think think
thin think think
close your eyes close your eyes close your eyes
now now now
sleep sleep sleep
when when when
you you you
wake up wake up wake up
everything everything everything
will will will
be be be
all all all
right right right

rain wash away my tears
rain was away my pain
rain wash away my love
rain wash away my hurt
rain wash away my hope
rain wash away my time
rain wash away my blood stain
rain wash away my cuts n scars
rain wash away my happy face
rain wash away my sad face
rain wash away my soul
rain just wash me away

i try so hard to stay away
i try so hard to walk away  
i try so hard to think a certain way
i try  so hard to make to them see
i try so hard to lay a certain way
i try so hard to not think of what if
i try so hard to just want to be happy
i try so hard to do but i can't your all  i think about
i try so hard to want to be with you
i try so hard to dream of you
i try so hard to run away
i try so hard but i cant
i try so hard but one day i know that it was all dream i made up in my head cause we both know it will never be

i'm becoming more of a homebody
im becoming more open
i'm becoming more  silent
im becoming more happy
i'm becoming more sad
i'm  becoming more not caring
i'm becoming more watching
for my eyes see more than i speak

listen to the moon
for it knows all your secrets
listen to the moon
for it knows your dreams
listen to the moon
for  it knows your pain
listen to the moon
for it knows how you feel
listen to the moon
for it knows you cried
listen to the moon
for it knows how hide
listen to the moon
for it knows  all your memories
listen to the moon
for it can follow you
listen to the moon
for it understands you
listen to the moon
for it knows how to handle
listen to the moon
for it will never leave you
listen to the moon
for it can do no wrong
listen to the moon
i no it sound so stupid but
listen to the moon

in my dreams your there
in my dreams you're talking
in my dreams you're laying there
in my dreams your standing there
in my dreams im watching you there
in my dreams im watching you sleep
in my dreams i'm holding you there
in my dreams i think how lucky i am
in my dreams im happy
in my dreams i have no worry
in my dreams i don't wanna wake up
in my dreams i with you there
in my dreams i don't wanna wake up
but in my dreams i do n its back to reality and i wait for night again hoping to have the same dream

i sit and think of something to say
i stand and think of something to say
i walk and think of something to say
i lay down and think of something to say
i talk and of something to say
you make me nervous
you make me laugh
you make me feel happy even if its for one sec
you look my way
you walk my way
you talk my way
but yet you don't come my way

come with me into the woods and see all the flowers and trees that  grow all over the place they grow for miles and miles.
The sun shines bright for everyone can see all the beauty
at night the moon shines bright you can still see all the beauty and wonder of the woods

why so sad
what made you that way
i want you to be happy again
but you must first come here and let me hold your hand
let me tell you all the wonderful things that are around you

The moon is full

The moon follows you just like stalkers do

When the moon is full alot of things start to go all wacky

Like cats

When the moon is full cats are running around

Like dogs

When the moon is full dogs start barking and howling

Like bugs

When the moon is full the bugs start buzzing n flying around filling the sky full

Like people

When the moon is full people do things they never do

So once in awhile if you like it blame it on the full moon

The night is dark
the ghost are going through people's  body to take them over for the night
the vampires are out looking for blood
the werewolves are out looking for food
the spirits are out looking after the loved ones who miss them
the zombies are looking for brain's
the living is out running the streets

i see  the sun coming out from the clouds to play for the day
i see the rain coming down from the cloudy gloomy sky
i see the people of this walking around with phones in their hands not talking to one another
i see the cars driving by not looking at the people that they pass
i see the leaves falling down off the trees
i see some snow coming down from the sky but it doesn't stay
i see the dogs out having fun
i see the cats in the windows looking out wishing they could go outside as well
i see the food being prepared for eating
i see clothes hanging on the clothes line waiting to dry
i see the phone ringing but no one answers they rather txt
i see smoking coming from people mouth
i smell the air when its cold
i hold the memories
i laugh at the dumbest things
i cry at the meaningful things  
i see the time going back
i see the time going ahead
i see flowers dying and growing
i see lots of things i just don't speak of
i think a lot
i know a lot

The weather is hot
Fan is blowing
The sun shines bright
The night is dark
The love is in the air
The flowers are growing
The birds are signing
The air is fresh
The marshollw are roasting
The wind is blowing
The chairs are full
The trist for a drink becomes one on everyone list
The time flys when having fun
The summer is short
Enjoy before the cold kicks in
Oh no it's fall again

When I get lonely
When  I get happy
When I can sleep
When I am a wake
When I get sad
When I cry
When I get short of breathe
When i walk
When I run
When I sit
When I stand
When I talk
When I'm quite
I think of you

The air is cool
The sun is out
The night is near
The people are walking
The cars are driving.
The campers are booking
The aminals are out
The waterfall is beautiful
The time is momerable
The dogs are barking
Oh look summer is coming

you don't see me
you dont like me
you dont need me
you don't love me
you dont talk to me
you don't see that it hurts me i feel like cutting but i wont cause your not worth it
you don't  spend time on me
you don't  how i feel
you don't hear me
you don't see my heart
you don't  see the damage
you don't see tears
you don't see walk towards me
you don't see me but i wish you did.

i'm only human don't get mad when you ask for my opinion
i'm only human don't get mad when i wander off
i'm only human don't get mad when i make mistakes
i'm only human don't get mad when i walk away
i'm only human don't get mad when i  turn the other way
im only human dont get mad when i say how i feel
im only human dont get mad when i take time
im only human dont get mad when i do something different
im only human dont get mad when i kiss
im only human don't get mad when  i love
im only human dont get mad when i yell
im only human dont get mad when i think
im only human don't get mad when i drink
i'm only human don't get mad when i stop
im only human don't get mad when i had enough
im only human

when they rains comes down and you feel like crying just think of me ill be right here waiting for you
when they rain comes down and you feel like dying just remember ill be with you from dusk to dawn
when the rain comes down  you don't see me crying cause the rain comes up all my tears
when rain comes down and you need me to hold you i will from dusk to dawn
when the rains comes down  and you  feel like cutting ill be here from dusk to dawn
when the rain comes down and you like kissing ill be with from dusk to dawn
when the rain comes down and its cold outside just remember ill be here
when the rain comes down and you feel like fading away just remember i'm here from dusk to dawn
when the rain comes down  and you feel hungry i'm here from dusk to dawn
when the rains down  and you wanna go for a walk ill be here from dusk to dawn

U have such a pretty face n wonderful smile n ok with ur body figure why do u feel so out of place my guardian angel look after she said

Why so sad what made you that way I want  you to  be happy again but you must first come here and let me hold your hand and let me tell you all the wonderful things that are around you

Me young
Me old
Me sad
Me happy
Me up
Me down
Me walk
Me run
Me stand
Me sit
Me cry
Me smile
Me sleep
Me awake
Me talk
Me quite
Me go
Me stay
Me dressed
Me naked
Me *****
Me clean

depresstons is not something someone can talk about
but someone wants to listen
depression is not something that everyone has
but everyone wants to get rid of
depression is not something someone can get rid of so easily
try to go for help  
depression is not something someone can pass down
smile and everything will be okay
depression is not something that wants to stay but does
smile and everything will be okay
depression is not something that stays away
take pills
depressions is not something  that people want
but do
depression is not something you  say
but you do
depression is not something you want to live with
but some do
depression  kills kills kills

Goodbye my love
Goodbye  my friend
Goodbye my happy
Goodbye  my sad
Goodbye  my depression
Goodbye  my sun
Good bye my night
Goodbyemy nature
Goodbye my drink
Goodbye my drug
Goodbye  my woods
Goodbye my life
Goodbye again.

Hello my love
Hello my friend
Hello my happy
Hello my sad
Hello my depression
Hello my sun
Hello my night
Hello my nature
Hello my drink
Hello my drug
Hello my woods
Hello my life
Hello to all
Hello again.

Charles Lee Ray is finally dead...
don't need him as a handle anymore...
it was always in my head....
I am not scared anymore...
I don't need a ****** to protect me from the monsters...
under my bed...
when I am really scared...
there is a near by shed...
where I am just as welcome...
as my brother Ted.

ove my Italian Queen...
that makes me feel like life is so serine...
makes me feel like a teen...
makes me feel like life is but a dream.

When I have nothing....
When I am empty...
When I am drained...
When I am poisoned ...
When I am weak...
When I am sick...
I have you...
nothing else but you.

i Am Nothing without you..

you have given me so many things...
things I don't deserve...
you have given me breathe, courage, and strength...
You have given me everything I've ever asked for and more..

I will stand by your side forever ...
I will never leave you...

You have my heart forever...
We are bound....
We are tied...
I am knotted to you forever...

You are the best thing that ever happened to me.

Everything is... wonderful...beautiful...perfect...insane and at the same time marvelous...gentle...kind...somehow the world around around me has once again become devine.
This goes out to every soul...every single piece of flesh that decided to stick with me...through the ******...the crack...
everything I have struggled with...
Thank you for still being here and having my back...even if it's maybe just a bed time snack.

Tina Marie Louise...

You have changed the way I think...
You have changed the way I am...
You have changed the way I drink...
You have changed the way I can...

and when I feel all ****** up and caught up in a jam...
I know I have you to hold my hand.

Our Love may seem obscure...
because we come from different worlds...
You're a valley girl...
and I come from a place where homies have jerry girls...

but it don't matter...

My love for you is out of this world.

You are sunshine...
You are rain...
You make me forget all my pain.

You are dark...
You are light...
Without you I have no sight.

You are summer...
You are spring...
You are far more than just a fling.

You are winter...
You are fall...
Without you I have nothing at all.

You are apples...
You are peaches...
You are far better than the country's best beaches.

You are cherries...
You are pears...
Maybe that's why everybody stares.

Carrots and cucumbers...
as long as I'm with you...
I can't fall under.

Peppers and cabbage...
thank you so ******* much...
for tearing away my bandage.

Every single person that know's me...
know's a fact...
I've been a ******* my whole life...

but for some reason...
you woke me up...
so many people tried..
over...and over...and over...

I owe you everything...
my life...my love...un dying.
stupid words I write can't even come close to express what you mean to me.

I will Love you until I'm dead and in the ground...
and I don't even think that would stop me.

very day that passes...
every second...
every minute...
every moment...
no matter how green the grass is...
or how much snow passes...

You are alive when I am awake...
I can't remember the last night that you were not in my dreams....
You are everything to me.

Thank you for your love...
mine for you is everlasting.

ou are...

My sunshine when it's rain...
My cure when I feel pain...

I'm the bus...
You are the plane.

You are...

the clean when I am dirt...
my shoulder when I hurt...

I'm the ****...
You are the squirt.

You are...

summer in the winter...
You are a needle when I have a splinter...

I am the ink...
You are the Printer.

You are...

Spring when it pours...
umbrella for my sores...

I may have a key to open the stores....
You can prevent the wars.

You are...

A dragon to my fairy...
when I am with you life ain't so scary...

I my have to pray to the ****** Mary...
to keep you...

don't wan't **** to get hairy.

You are...

everything to me...
everything i think about...
everything I dream about...

i will love you forever...
long after I'm dead....
forever.

thanks for loving me. <3

Leaves turn colours
Leaves fall down to say hello and good bye
Air is cool
Air is fresh
Rain falls down and down gets everything wet
Sun shines but not as bright but is a delight
People drive not walk
Hot chocolate saves the day
Heat comes out to play
Bed is nice a warm
Fire are growing higher and higher
Chairs come out to play
Fall stays only for short while doesn't want to stay
Fall looking for a friend to keep  for company
Oh no winter is coming

Wall stands tall
Wall stands high
Wall stands alone
Wall painted with colours
Wall wants to come down but won't
Wall needs new wall
Wall runs for miles with out stopping for air
Wall not what you want but what you get to feel safe
Wall time heals from scars
Wall can be beautiful when need be
Wall can come down when the time is right
Wall stands tall
Wall stands high
Wall stands alone .

iam the girl who sit alone
Iam the girl who stands alone
Iam the girl who crys alone
Iam the girl who talks alone
Iam the girl who walks alone
Iam the girl who  speaks alone
Iam the girl who runs alone
Iam the girl who sleeps alone
Iam the girl who eats alone
Iam the girl who crazy alone
Iam the girl who drinks alone
Iam the girl who smokes alone
Iam the girl who wishes alone
Iam the girl who loves alone
Iam the girl who shops alone
Iam the girl who lays alone
Iam the girl who texts alone
Iam the girl who listens alone
Iam the girl who showers alone
Iam the girl who plays alone
Iam the girl who calls alone
Iam the girl who swears alone
Iam the girl who paints alone
Iam the girl who lonely alone
Iam the girl who happy alone
Iam the girl who sad alone
Iam the girl who angry alone
Iam just a girl.

Days go by I sit I stand I lay
Days go by I talk im quite
Days go by I hurt I'm sad
Days go by I cry I laugh
Days go by I wonder I know
Days go by I sleep iam a wake
Days go by I eat I don't
Days go by I play I don't
Days go by I wish I don't
Days go by I want to live I don't
Days go by I feel like I should run away I don't
Days go by and I say love is true but it's not
Days go by days go by.

Iam the girl who's there for people
Iam also the girl who faces many things alone
Iam the girl who needs you but there's no one to be found
Iam the girl who wants to talk but no one around
Iam the girl who wants to be free but never could be
Iam the girl who loves to sleep for it only thing that doesn't leave
Iam the girl who wants to break free from this world
Iam the girl who demons are in her closet
Iam the girl who sit alone
Iam the girl who's lonely
Lonely girl Iam

Night dark and no light to be seen
Night light when your looking for trees
Night wind blows slow so you can hear voice of all the love ones who passed over the years
Night  demons like to come out to play
Night keeps ppl up
Night puts ppl to sleep
Night lovers come together
Night friends run free
Night does not want to hold you down
Night is beautiful

Tina lombardo