All white today
Pure as snow
Clear as glass
Cool as mist
Mind is cold
Listen and you may be heard
Skin so golden
Smooth as Egyptian cotton

It's a challenge
You either get them or not
Lucky if you get them
Out of luck if you didn't
8 am when they release
Running to see if you can reach
Stressing out months ahead
Wondering if you'll ever get them
Then it crashes
Then you're suddenly sad

When I'm around him
It feels like we're connected
He speak life to me
I speak life back
He grabs I feel warmth
The ways he talks
The ways he look
It's just our chemistry

Lost my Bestfriend
He moved on
I was left in the dark
Scratching the surface for more
Then I realized
He's not there for me anymore
So my self esteem went up
And look at me now

Our minds are intertwined
He speak mentally into my mind
The love I have for him is indescribable
He's a beautiful man
I touch his smooth face and his beautiful mole
His raps goes along with my paintings
He's meant to be my husband
I'm meant to be his wife
I fell in love with an artist

The fact that I thought we was closer
The fact you didn't even tell me
The fact I had to come ask you
The fact that you didn't care to talk
The simple fact that I thought you knew I was always here
The simple fact

I bleed from the drunken veins
I talk from the wicked mouth
I love from the solid heart
I touch with the harmful hands
I keep myself in solitude so the dangers won't get to you
I am danger

I told you I was no good
But you begged for me
You cared for me
Then I needed you
But you was no good for me
I told you I was trouble

They think I'm sick
I'm just addicted
Addicted to this life i have
I just need a friend
To help me and help me get stronger
No, I don't need rehab I need trust

I love her because she's always there
But I hate her because she's always there

The sooner I go
The sooner I know
I know it's time for me to go

The love you had for me was no longer there
But I kept loving you more
You left my heart in the dark
You told me to get over it
But deep down you pulled me in more

We've only known each other for a couple of days
But you listen to me
You didn't even know me
But you heard me and you care
Its truly my pleasure to share your company

Had my first breakdown at 14
Felt like I didn't have emotions at 15
Had my first heart break at 16
Had my first betrayal at 17
Felt more powerful at 18

Heard the wind whisper
whispers
Live life a breeze and don't be discouraged"

Stop!
Stop please!
You don't know me!
You don't know what I had to go through!
It's over I conquered the storm!
I'm not scared of your harsh words no more!
I have the victory and the power!

At this moment
It's 10:44 pm
And tears are falling
And I want my mom
I want her hug
I want her advice
I need her at this moment
Why did I have to loose her?
Why me?

Have you ever lost a parent?
And you said it should have been me.
But it wasn't you
I had to talk to them one last time
They said "I left you so you can finish your life, you can live happy and conquer your dreams, and I'll always be here when you need me, never forget that"

One thing I know
I'm going to live
I'm going to conquer
No I'm not giving up
They said always have a plan B
But my plan B is my plan A
I'm going to show them
That I can do it
I know I can
I've been through the hardest storms
But I'm here today
Because I know
I know I can do it
And you can to

His heart mimics mines
His hands are soft as mine
His beauty is desirable
His shell is hard but he's soft on the inside
He makes me laugh
He's always there for me

Can't really explain it
It's a beat in my heart that explodes
It's a melody that's stuck on my tongue
It's you

He protects me
He looks after me
He cares for me
He listens to my problems
Everywhere I go he goes
He's my son and he's my heart
To my turtle, roscoe

You're  my soul from another decade
You're my inspiration for another day
You're the rhythm of my paintings
The soul of my canvas
The creativity of my mind
The overdose of my heart
RIP my brother

I don't want to seem self absorbed
But I'm beautiful inside and out
My exterior is tough and powerful
But my beautiful skin is soft and fragile
The veins running through me are made of gold
My skin is as bright as my soul
Everywhere I go I get admired
But guess what?
I'm just a turtle
**And I belong to the beautiful Donna Bella. I am her heart and she's mine

I gave in
They yell at me
They call me boney
They call me a anorexic
They tore my heart
But this toilet healed it
They knocked me down
They told me to die
They said I'm no good
But my mama tell me to eat more because honey you're getting smaller!
How can you stand tall when the world shuns you down?

I gave in
They yell at me
They call me fat
They call me a pig
They tore my heart
But this chocolate healed it
They knocked me down
They told me to die
They said I'm no good
But my mama tell me to stand tall
How can you stand tall when the world shuns you down?

I'm worst than fire and wind
I'm worst than thunder and lightning
I'm more powerful than a hurricane and a tsunami
I'm faster than a tornado and rain
Harder than hail
But I'm softer than snow
I'm a woman of nature
Powerful as can be

When that mind trickles that soul
It hurts
It gives you bad thoughts
It kills the souls
The mind could be so evil
The evil we've been expose to
Stand before us
Can it be controlled or will "it" control you?

Am I not good enough?
Why don't you like me?
Is my poetry not good enough?
Is my words not good enough?
Is my world not good enough?
Am I not good enough?

You think you better than me
But you shouldn't
You think you richer than me
But you not
You think you're prettier than me
But I'm beautiful
You may have everything I want
But I got everything I need

It's a sweep of emotion
That flows through me so quickly
I can't hold back and control it
Once I start thinking
I think of the world
I think about me
My future
You
Death
Love
I think about the children who felt like me
I think of the children who feel like ****
I think of the children because they don't deserve it
All we need is love
And people claim money is love so they don't give a **** about the children
You selling an innocent soul to the devil
But the innocent soul just want to be a child
The innocent soul don't belong to you
The innocent soul belongs to love
To happiness
To peace
To beauty
To courage
To life
There own life
The beautiful,peaceful,courageous soul of a life.

I lay here
Thinking
Poetically thinking
Thinking of words that can flow
Thinking of hard times and the good
Thinking of all the lies I've been told
Thinking of all the times I've been hurt
Thinking of all the times I had to walk past a casket
Thinking of all the times I've been in the hospital when I was a kid hoping you get better
Thinking of the time I walked home and found you dead
Thinking of all the times of watching law and order and I knew the signs
Thinking of the times we traveled
Thinking of your beautiful smile
Thinking of the story when you first held me in your arms
Thinking of the story about when you adopted me
Thinking of your kind heart
Thinking of us on how were intertwined
Thinking of all the love I have for you
I'm thinking on how much I thank you
Thinking of the day, I will reunite with you again in heaven and the stars.

You say you hate me!
We'll **** I hate you to!
You yell "*******"!
I yell "get the **** out my way"
You say "I'm sorry"
I walk away
You pull me
I feel the hate
I try to run away
I blanked out
I wake up
Lying in a pool of blood
I wake up feeling defeated
I wake up and leave why you sleep
And I leave forever
Broken away broken hearted broken forever

Eyes like Medusa
Heart like Cassius
Strength like Hercules
Power like Zeus
Soul like Cleo

Yes!
What?
Why?
Why do you bother me when you need something?
But when I come to you, you can't help so you run!
So what?
And hell no!
Goodbye!

Wind blows from behind
Blood flows from within
Love flows from me
Hate blows from you
Time flows constantly
Patience blows away
I'm tired of waiting

What do I need?
What do I have?
Why do I need love at this moment?
Can I get someone to care for me just once in my life?
Can I get someone to take care of me now while I'm sick?
Will someone someday be my heart?
It's all I need
A dose of love

Laying down listening to music
Wishing I had someone to love
Wishing I had one I need
Wishing someone want me to stay
Wishing someone would love me
Wishing I was wanted by you
I still need love because I'm a woman

Never had a person look at me like I was there world.
Never had a person that genuinely cared.
Never had someone to pick me up when I was down and sick.
Never!
But when?

I've been everywhere
Just not where I want to be

The armor of my heart
The light in my tunnel
The art on my canvas
The sway of my move
The rich of my riches
He was my brother
And I'm his keeper

Stuffed up
Fed up
Can't even breath
I just got a cold no big deal

I sit and think
Where will I be tommorow?
Will my dreams ever come true?
Do I have a soul mate?
Is my life worth living ?
Is love real?
Do you love me?
Who are my real friends?
How will I die?
Will I ever reach heaven and the stars?
I sit and think

Tired of this ****
**** this *****