words
          flow
                out
                     of my mouth
                                           like droplets
             falling
out                          
                   of
                                         the
          air


falling
f a l l i n g
                                   further
                apart

never
together
again

I can't quite remember
the moment
everything
shifted

when I stopped waking up
feeling anything but tired
or when I stopped going to sleep
praying for anything but the end

maybe it was the day you left
physically, I mean
or perhaps the weeks leading up
the weeks that numbed me to my bones

perhaps it was the months that followed
and the way little parts of me
seemed to just
drift away

I stopped looking both ways
while crossing a busy road
stopped being careful
while walking alone in public

I didn't notice when I stopped running
to the safety of my bed once the lights went out
instead I slowly wandered through the house
no longer afraid of the dark or what it could hide

because what can a car
or a creep
or the dark, where my fears would once reap
do that will ever compare to the way
you broke me

I cry
For fake characters in movies

I dream
Things that could never come true

I lie
To myself

I walk
To places only on the map of my mind

I jump
Into an invisible hole

And I miss
Things and people, when they're alive

It's okay
Its okay
It's okay
It's okay
It's okay
You're okay
You're okay
Everything will be okay
Okay?
You're okay
It's okay
It's okay
It's okay
Breathe and everything will be okay


I feel like I'll never be okay...

I'm lost
In the depths of my mind
I feel so lonely
Even with people by my side
I don't feel support
My life is falling apart
The choices that I've made
Make me lose my mind
You say you understand
And yet you can't say that you're proud
You can't comprehend
The things that I'm going through right now
It's hard to believe
Any of the words that come out of your mouth
I need you to say that It's going to be fine
And that I still have time
To figure all of this out

I don’t think I love you anymore

I mean I think I will always love you
But,
I don’t think I’m in love with you anymore.

My tears
Have flowed
For years
For you
Only you

Now,
My eyes are dry