My heart races and I cannot escape it.
I'm stuck inside my skin.
I itch with anxiety and my chest collapses.
I'm stuck inside my skin.
Tear me out, piece by piece.
Let me go from this bag of flesh that traps me in this horrid place.
I'm stuck inside my skin.
I'm not insecure; this is not about appearance.
I want to escape my self.
Hide n go seek with my own mind, inside my mind.
I'm stuck inside my skin.
This skin that is the cocoon for a worthless worm that could never grow wings to escape.
Unzip me and let my contents pour out.
I'm stuck inside my skin.

It plays and I'm at home in myself for once.
Therapy through a headset.
It thumps through my body and my mind is at rest for 3 minutes and 46 seconds.
The memories behind it is its own measure of infinity.
The remedy for the feelings I can't understand.
It says the right words when no one else can.
Medication being injected in the form of sound waves.
The formula for how I am humanly made up.
The antidote to the poison that is my constant surroundings.
This is to you, My favorite song.

Without you I am at loss of words.
The words that once explained how you were my world.
Without you, they say I'm free but they don't know me.
I don't see you for months, you walked right out of my life.
My friends try to drag me out.
Finally I agree.
I didn't expect to see you there, not at this degree.
Intertwined in her arms.
Your lips touch and my heart is taken aback.
I grimace at the sight and kiss my bottle of Jack.
When you finally noticed me, it was all but too late.
One look on my face and you knew who really moved on.
Without you, my dear, isn't how to put it. I could never be without you. You are the one who is without me.

IF THIS BODY
WEREN'T MINE
WOULD I STILL
HATE IT?

Reminder:
It's better to be losing her in books
than losing her to someone else.

a.g