im not a fan of being weak
im not a fan at all
but all of us have moment when
Tears run and hit the floor.

Im not a fan of swearing much
I don't use ***** words
But all of us are human to
swear the **** out when hurts.

im not a fan of drinking games
i am a mummy's daughter
but hey, can you please hold my glass?
my turn to spin the bottle.

im not a fan of taking drugs
and that's how i was born
though they say yesterday i claimed
"i'm yellow unicorn"!

If you let me in, i might crumble and break
i might stumble and fall
i might make some mistakes.
I might let you down once,
i might let you down twice
but i'll never get tired
of looking into your eyes.

If you let me in, i will forever be yours
be as gentle as silk, i'll be your faithful voice.
I'll hold you in my arms
when you're scared or confused
hold your hand when you're falling
accept when you're  refused.

I will be by your side
i will fight all your fears
i will lessen my pride
and build bridges from piers.
I will always forgive
no matter how big the sin
i will be your best bet
If you just let me in.

"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

your very best
my very worst
your heart is healed
my pipes have burst
youre warm and dry
im soaking wet
youre home and full
im rarely fed.
you're bright and well
im tired and coy
youre confident
i am destroyed.
what happened
nothing i reply
i am ecstatic
i am fine.

and i dont want to go to sleep
for morning wont heal hearts.
and i dont want to stay awake so
i can feel all of my shattered *****'s parts.

no i dont want to be in my right mind
when i suddenly realise what i had had
it's been a year. i dreaded this day now
a year you've gone away and i am still in need, in need of you

my hands will hold you while my eyes cant see
my hearing will help find you when my legs wont lead
and when im breathless i will finally start living
for i ll forget who you are, yes, im willing.

Lay with me one last time
Hold me close, breathe me in
Cuddle thoughts of our past
Dark times are creeping in.

Lay with me one last time
Wrap your arms and your soul
Around me, let me know
what you feel, how you're hurt.
let me know, let me know.

Stay with me one last time,
before we part for good
we dont have hours left
i'd stop time if i could.

Be with me, oh, please be
i am hurting all over
pain has now taken over
i cant see.

Shut my eyes dead
i cant see you go
i wont let myself see you walk out of that door.

lay with me one last time
Stay with me, hold me close.
put your hand on my heart, feel it bleed, feel it stop.
lay with me one last time
While i die in this pose.

my very own dark corner is now gone
been occupied with someone i have never seen before;
so i don't have a place to hide no more
and seems my wounds are opened up by the fresh air and feel so sore.
the sunlight hurts my eyes and i can't see
not only what was in past
but also what it is that lies in front of me.
i wave my arms to find something to hold
that doesnt work too well for me for i am still unstable
though i can feel the rain and wind through my grey bones
everything rushes desperately to fold
in away from me.
ah am i sure i even want to be