I'm trash,
once my expiring date had passed I was thrown away.
To you I am nothing,
to me you are still everything.
The words "I love you" have no meaning to you,
to me they mean everything.
The day you came I wish I had done more,
but I was too scared that I would fall into you deeper,
knowing you would have to leave again and be out of arms reach.
There's a lot you didn't know back then,
I was suffering silently behind closed doors.
When I looked in the mirror all I saw was a stranger,
a person who would ruin your life while I was slowly ruining mine.
I just wasn't ready but I wanted you so bad,
I wanted to be the person you'd put a ring on,
I wanted to be the person you started a family with,
I wanted to be the person you came to,
I want to be the person you love now,
but it seems you have eyes for another.
I wish I was honest why I choose to leave you,
I wish I never left you.
I wish I could still talk to you now,
I wish you would let me.
Three years seem as though they don't exist to you,
but those three years are all hitting me at once.
It's hard to cope anymore,
while you live your life without me.
After everything that happened,
I forgive you for everything and I will always love you.
You are the only one in my eyes and I wish I never let you go,
but I didn't feel like I was enough.
I don't want to be alone anymore,
I don't want you to just throw me away like I never existed.
I want you in my life and I will always be here for you,
but would you do the same...?
I'm trash,
my expiring date has gone for you and now you've moved on.
You started having feelings for another girl so fast,
makes me think if I meant anything at all.
I cry almost every night wishing you were here,
I delete almost every message I send to you,
I can't help but want to call you every second of every day.
But I can't.
Breakups **** and I wish I could go back but in the end I will only ruin everyone's life I come in contact with. I feel so worthless that he moved on so fast and acts like i'm nothing anymore. Three years are a lot for me but it wasn't the same for him. I wish I was honest about why I left and I wish I had the chance to be honest with him now, all I did was put on a mask and hide behind lies to save him from seeing how bad I was getting. I tried to make it seem like it was what I wanted but its the opposite...I know I shouldn't care but I still love him and I want him back so much but i'll never be worth his time...