You are my friend…..

One of maybe two or three
I give that label to
and now you’re moving far away
I don’t know what to do

Of all the people in my life
you're one I like the most
And when you’re gone I fear I’ll be
a lost and empty ghost

In rough times you could make me laugh
No matter if crying
That’s how it was for you and I
Song birds always singing

Seldom in life those come along
with whom you just connect
No effort needed to belong
Each other, you both get

In a dark sky, you’re my North Star
Beacon of light and hope
But now it’s just an empty space
Left with six feet of rope

And selfishly, in fact I'd do
about most anything
If I could get you not to leave
Forever we could sing

But doing so would mean that you
Would live life in a cage
Taking away what makes you, You
It wouldn’t be the same

I’m not that selfish even though
the pain rips at my core
I’d take it for eternity
If it meant you weren’t sore

My dearest friend I hope you know
I love you very much
And even though you won’t be close;
Can not reach out and touch

I know we’ll talk and even see
each other time to time
When touching base or catching up
To know each other’s fine

But like a tide, sometimes in life
Friendships will ebb and flow
Each person has a life to live
And down a path we go

And even in those times when we
might drift further apart
You’re someone I’ll always hold near
and cherish in my heart

Fly Fly away now little bird
Go off and spread your wings
And I’ll wait here till you return
When once again we sing

I loved you with my heart,
I loved you with my soul,
I gave you credit of everything I became,
I heard all that you said,
I followed you blindly,
I believed it when you proposed me.. ,
When I was a child..a teenager..,
I believed you when you said YOU LOVE ME..!!

I believed you when you said I am 'different' for you..,
I believed you when you said I am 'different' from others,
I never objected when you befriended many..,
I understood when you said 'you can't marry me'..,
I understood when you did not inform me 'you are engaged'..,

Yet

The only thing I wanted to believe,
The only thing I wanted to know that "YOU LOVE ME"...!!

We stayed friends, platonic always..,
In the moments of my need,
You helped me always,
During exams and competition..
You motivated me always..,
You saw no harm came to me always..,
All these were acts  giving credibility to my belief...
The fact for me that..
You 'cared' for me always..!!
That in bottom of your heart 'you love me always'!!

But one day...

Towards the end of that cherished relationship..,
The time had come for us to move on..,
You came to say a final good bye,
The FINAL MOMENT had finally come..,
I asked you one thing, with tears in my eyes..,
Waiting either to flow out or to roll back forever..,

I asked you one last time
"DID YOU EVER LOVE ME?"

And that one last time.. You answered,
"NO, NEVER"!..

SILENCE PREVAILED...!!!

And then...

It doesn't matter that we did not marry..
It doesn't matter that you proposed marriage to me just a month after this..,
It doesn't matter you divorced your wife after one month of marriage,
It doesn't matter the whole world blamed our friendship for your divorce,

IT DOESN'T MATTER ... At all...!!!

That NO, NEVER... Stayed with me..
Is still staying with me..
Will stay with me forever..

Even today I credit you for what I have become..,
Even today I know you have chiseled me a sculpture..,
Even today I know "YOU LOVED ME BACK THEN"...

But IT DOESN'T MATTER, DOES IT??


Sparkle in Wisdom
24/6/2018

This is the only difference!

In the middle of life,
In between the chain of thoughts,
Free flowing ideas,
Weaved up intense in my heart...

In your thoughts
I sit,
gazing the sky beyond,
Huge, blue deshaped sky's deep blue color,
It's deep like thoughts,
Gazing intently in horizon I sleep in slumber thoughts...

I sleep with you,
I wake up with you...
But you are not besides me..

This is the only difference....

When my eyes open,
I see your little innocent face,
But when I touch it...
The feel is not thr...

That's the only difference

My eyes wells up in tears...
My head's rests on your chest..
Your hands touch my head...
But I don't get that feeling of being touched..

That's the only difference

You are there yet not there...
That's the only difference

You try to bring smile on my thoughtless face
But your eyes cannot see that smile..

That's the only difference

This is the only difference.....