I want to see your smile,
Share your happiness for awhile.
I wanna be your hero,
But always been a zero.
Tired of being just like myself,
Tired of reading those books off a shelf.
Want to live my story, my life,
Never be boring, in strife.

I can’t rip through these bindings,
maybe it’s myself I’m finding
That’s in my way

So I just keep on fighting,
The hate inside I’m inciting
It’s in my way.

In my head there’s a war being fought,
Contradictions, self-loathing in every thought.
Don’t get in my way.

In my world, everything revolves around me.
In my world, all that exists is what I can see.
In my world, I wonder who you think I am.
I’d see it your way, but I don’t think I can.

In your world, I just disappear when you forget,
In your world, you can’t feel the things that I regret.
In your world, You don’t know me like I do,
Even if you wanted to, I do want you to.

In my world, I might just walk a path all alone,
In your world, you just might barely hear my sad moans.
In our worlds, we can see the other going,
We have our own minds, our own way of knowing

First, already lost for words,
Second, keeps pushing forwards.
Third, the limits are closing in,
Fourth, Another scrunched paper in the bin.

Start again, the first sentence sounds nice,
The next one… Well, it’ll suffice.
Stop, and realize it’s not even that great,
Forget it, put it away, and procrastinate.

Our everyday blends together
becoming a mess
gathering dust.

Everything’s the same,
nothing ever changes,
nothing happens.

I’ve figured it out,
what life needs,
My Answer.

Life needs ups and downs,
can’t just let it plateau,
That’s what you learn from the EKG monitor

Chewed fingernails, drinking wine,
                                                           ­                      It’s not very hard to see.
Doesn’t take much to find,
                                             That there’s something very wrong with me.
It’s only me, nevermind,
                                                      ­      I guess this is the only way I can be.
Tried to change my ways,
                                                       Clean it up, wear the only suit I’ve got.
Pretending at halcyon days.
                                                       But I melted when the heat got too hot.

Cells and stars, From protozoa to Mars.
Shooting stars like the headlights on cars.

from nothing we’re born,
from nothing we’re torn,

Away to live our little lives,
And why? Not one of us survives.

Death will come to us all. Death is coming and it already has.
That end’s inevitable, what matters is the journey and all that jazz.

I’m just trying to say, in my roundabout way,
Is You Only Live Once, Carpe Diem, seize the day.