I ain't tryna be perfect.
I'm good at flirting with the devil.
With intentions always certain,
I can never play the victim
If I caused the others hurting.
But I ain't give another reason
To get treated like a merchant..
Like a servant
So indentured,
You can't even see she's worth it.

You ain't gonna step up, are you?
Mrs. Get it done when I want.
Procrastination's gonna harm you.
Don't be hating on my blunt.
That's the only thing that seems to
Warm you.
And now, I don't give a ****.

That's what you wanted.
What you asked for.

All this pain is past due.
You talking tryna glue it,
But I'm looking right past you.
Can't be crying, looking foolish.

You don't deserve a look from my eyes,
When they searched your heart for
So long.
You wish you could make me believe
I'm tripping, but that is just so wrong.

And we ain't got no old songs.
No rings and no future.
Nothing left so baby so long.
That distance gon be torture.
But for you, not me.
I'm used to being lonely.
Only difference is, I'm still alone,
You just can't hold me.

From the purple abyss,
I sip.

I blink, I lean.

Please don't bother me.

I swallow the chalky
Pills.

This feels rather real.

So please don't bother me.

I don't play with them
Blades no more.

No lethal swords.

But please don't bother me.

I get tempted by
Disastrous things.

If you gon' watch me bleed,
At least,
Don't bother me.

From my friends and lover,
To siblings and mother,
My father, my doctor...

Just please keep it
Honest.

If I died today, like the
Dearly departed,
Y'all tears would last miles
From the point that they started.

And that's so hard to say,
'Cause the days I could breathe,
Y'all were one step away
In the distance near me.

Hell has no mercy on my soul.
They bless this angel with flames.

I guess I'm only holy by the gift of my
Name.

Not a single love song can save me.
Borderline genius and borderline
Crazy, maybe?

I hope to God, He don't hear me when
I'm struggling.
He always likes to add more **** to
What I'm already juggling.

I get to cussing and fussing over
Nothing,

It seems.

Abusing that syrup has got me
Rough
At the seams.

And I don't follow no meter.

My writing is a reflection of me.
My mirror's been shattered by grief.
And splattered with ink.
I dabble in things that only
Shake and rattle my peace.

It's a never-ending battle with me.

Traffic in my head.
Blade to my wrist.

I kinda hate when I start thinking
Like this.

My heart is the home you should
Lay your head.
Lay your head on my chest and
Rest.
I promise you that I can give my
Best.
My best is amazing, it is nothing less.
You are nothing less than a *** of gold.
For all your love, my soul is sold.
I'm comfortable with it growing old.
I just hope that you never flip or fold.
But you can fold my heart in two,
If you,
Decide my pain is beautiful.
I won't cry. I won't even lie,
I'll just give my life and my truth to
You.

That girl don't love me like she
Say she do.
If she did, she'd make herself
More available.
But she don't, she leaves me in
The cold air.
She leaves me broken, with no
Care.
I often find myself excusing this.
I blame it on my uselessness.
That girl don't need me like she
Say she does.
I'm just a swift enjoyment.
An energy rush.
And now she's burnt out, with no need
To give
And now I'm burnt out with no reason
To live.
I'm not love sick nor love ridden.
She must've forgotten she's forgiven.
Forgetful and smitten.
My heart can't take the
Torture.
That girl don't love me like she
Say she do and I
Cannot force her.

I dream of colors in your eyes and
I can only imagine
How it would feel if I could glide
In the depths of your passion.
You hold me tight, you keep me close
Like I'm fresh out the womb.
With lacerations to my soul,
You always tend to the wounds.
Enough pain in the world, so
You relate quite well.
Never losing your religion,
Or just tamed by Hell?
See, please don't get offended
When I ask these questions.
Still a blessing, I ain't stressing
Over your intentions.
Oh, I've seen enough evil to
Embrace your flaws.
I mean, you accept mine
Whenever duty calls.
Whatever blood on my palms,
You gladly rinse away.
So whatever pain on your surface,
I can kiss away...
I seem to always get like this when
I dream of you.
And to even think of you is
A dream come true.
It's a dream come true, or
It's a dream well seen.
I say I dream of you,
But really, you're my dream.

You're awfully beautiful,
But not an awful person.
Is it even possible to love you
Without being a whole burden?
I'm nervous and uncertain
'Cause you neglect my heart so
Often.

All my thoughts running with the
Stampede in my head.
I tried to tame the beast, it started
Teething instead.

Don't you cry... nightmares got you
Peeing the bed?
And when you don't, you only have
Dreams of regret.

Regretting all the moves that you
Made in the dim.
Got bedtime prayers for a lifetime of
Sin.

Never had to question if it's water, if
It's wind,
But the things that I've seen even
Make the blind squint.

You don't wanna know what I
Think under my sheets.
I cuddle with my pillow, close my eyes
And count my sheep.
I don't ever get to sleep, so I'm tossing
And I'm turning,
And I'm tryna knock this feeling.
It's an aching and a burning.
It's a yearning and a craving.
A desire for a touch.
My body whispering her name,
I keep telling it to hush.
But it ain't tryna stay quiet, so I ain't
Putting up a fight.
And if we're being honest, I'm tryna
Love on her tonight.
So, I get out of bed, and open the
Window for a breeze.
As the air hits my skin, I'm wishing
It was her touching me.
Her hands are a paradise. I'm stressed
Out, need release.
Her lips are the only thing that'll
Give me inner peace.
So, I'll weep every night
And never sleep every night,
Because her love is the only thing I
Need every night.
But until I get her love and the
Rest that it brings,
I'll be tossing every night, still
Thinking 'bout these things.