I have to show up
As who I am

I can't show up
As someone else

And expect to be loved
For me

I'm sorry
For my temporary
And situational
Uncouth behavior
In response
To the change
You ****** me into

I couldn't
Easily accept
The coming days
Of loneliness

But in that time
I reflected
On your hurt
And mine

I now realize
You were right
Life without you
Is better
For both of us

Sorry that I am
The only one of us
Who can truly be rid
Of you

Enjoy forever
Void of me
Lost within
Yourself

I am never going to find in you
What I need to be searching for
Within myself

What in Hell
Or Earth
Did I do
To deserve you?

Speak as you wish
But I'll believe as I may

You simply don't comprehend
The mountains I would have moved
The rivers I would have parted
Chaos I could have calmed
Or created
The tides I'd shift
Or the cards I'd fold
But I guess none of that matters now
Or ever
If it even did at all

Look
I get it
And I wish you well
But truly I wish
We could have both been well