Core-Ra - inner sun.
timeline twister, finally won,
victory be to those spin with phi
on the yellow brick rode to self fulfilling fantasy
amplify the nodes, to find the few in the many
while you're seeing yourself no different from any  
qi be whole not single source, quantum.

I don't want to be an advocate.... I want advocacy to be something I regularly do.

I don't want to be an artist, but I hope that my creations strike those who see them as well designed and art-ful.

I don't want to be addressed by my genitalia in my pants, but boy howdy do I know how to effin' use them - if I want to.

I want to be a little bit of everything, even when I feel like a whole lot of nothing.

Can we just be, do, start to see what's true?

'cause all these titles and valuations seem to leave us tried, tested, - found wanting, sad and blue.

Waking up just as tired as I am going to sleep.
I hope you speak up, peep.
Cause the wolves are counting sheep.
Lined up, looking good to eat.
They're our friends, this won't be cheap.
It's time for the void, quantum leap.

Just queenin'
sittin on my throne makin' dukes,
servin' up the saddest soft serve you EVER heard,
PRETTY BIRD - ****!

I know so many stories that aren't mine,
that won't make sense to anyone? Fine.
I have tales, that can never be told,
by those alive and dead, those so bold.
There's a reason I only try to help
'cause I've heard so many people yelp.
No reason for us to hurt so
more than you? no
Tried to do something great
Got lost in ideations; big mistake
Apparently trauma can make you better
If you don't sit in it and fester

Hearts keep breaking, illnesses keep taking our loves away, nobody's here to stay. We keep on chuggin, sportin mean muggin, keeping woes at bay, isn't that the way? </3

Achievement Unlocked: p and I have been working for you to do this with you for years now you are going on with me to get you a little more grounded out of this is a good one that will help us understand the situation I got in with my body in preparation and the fact of my mind and my brother has been very clear that he was a lot more sense now and he is not going there but like actionable current policy on his Instagram page he says he cannot do that to me so much that I can get the job just for a few years and have to be able and I will get you a new one for me and you will have a great time to get back up to your need to do it with your hands all day so decided to make a list for this one cause you know how it is and what it does this thing is that way if they don't want you two to chat and host some of my friends don't like it was just that you are the best I have a good one that will help me get the same idea as your teacher and student at a distance you're not supposed I know how it works and society is not going there instead to help you out a lot more sense then you have a great day to post to insta and double down the line you're going through a few times before or when you're going through this layer of the game and get a few things done if the world doesn't work then do what I do it is a great idea tonight and it is time for me and your team should be good at the game to get a good team and I think you can do a better Brette game than the average bear is going up to a lot more than I am so glad you were able and to get the best for the game to get the game back to you but you are a lot more than I do what you think of that is so good to be able and I have to be able and to get the ball rolling and the game to get the game back and we will have a lot more than I do for work and if I have a chance on the team to talk about it i am not going there but like actionable content I can get the same amount as the gut's in a few more times in the next step and we will have a good day for the team

If you decide to stand up for hate instead of help then I believe you have a lot of growth to engage with.

I love the future. I love our potential.

I believe that good hearts will win the day, and I believe in better ways than passing on pain.

I love our ability to grow when we see the lessons but don't refeel the pain of the situation.

We twist memories in our mind to protect ourselves, but we can learn the real lessons if we listen with loving awareness.

I am trying to be better, please join me when you're ready

No rush.

Meet the maker inside
I'm sure you'll find
inside you just as any other
the holy spirit resides

why does a spirited one
have to go ghosting around for others
if she's too invisitble to be seen anyhow
when nobody ex-spectres the un-ex-spectered

she rarely gets invited out either
when she can be so scary and goes boo

most just want to put their ***** in the holy
'cause she's been worn through
but what they don't see is that anyone else
could be just as shiny, too.

Did that so long that she became a ghost in tthe streets, the sheets, and to her too.
So, what else is a poor ghost to do?

Eiheurmentated - gleerage

Jahous - yaos

Eiayeeae

Tiiyaee

Teiyaruh

Maiyeae

Romancing the aether. If soul mates are just little parts of the big bang that are meandering their way back.  Knowing everyone is just a little remix of what they came across up to that point... then maybe when you meditate and be one with the universe you're just allowing everything to reorganize back to it's natural space. Telling everyone that their learned fears and hatred are not necessary... we're all fragile little bits of stardust trying to find where we fit again. If you give love, and understand that we all just want to survive, feel happy and loved... then it's so much easier to abandon all these unnecessary negatives we have collected. Fall in love with everything and nothing. Be appreciative of the space between.

How you win big! Healing, growth. Quick successes. Find the helpers, and amplify their efforts. Manifest strength. Clear out he old. Get better regulated with behavioural gold. Continue on the path, no suffering on suffering. Good catharsis. Continued betterment. Protect aether.

There is nobody but maybe your parents who can treat you better than you can treat yourself, you know how hard it is to get a good manager, doctor, agent, or partner? Nah, friend, might as well start assembling your own manual, 'cause nobody can save you if you can't save you.

140 characters
i ching
2 birds ****** on the wire
twerpin textual transfers tween the tethered typers
dun do dunbar
over 140-something it's had to find trust
in characters
orphaned
or
widowed
by the pack of typed faces and masked meanings
leading me on, em-dashing my mind

Whoa-den skoden, manifested reality - bolden.
More time with the fore-time, when's the next moontime?

The future is debt on the choices we make now.
When you meet yourself then, better make yourself proud.

It's fun when you're no-thing-ness and one comes along Ee-Da-**** Wrex some **** sometimes.
But it's okay hopefully Yamaya stitches it all back together in time.
We can all find the forms needed to respect the moments we're given and fill the cracks with golden behaviours that echo more than this falliable false-saviour

Lala from the N to the S and the E plus some W. Here to slice you off some fruity zest.

Motivational Mondays mean my mind must move mindfully, morally ... more megalithically. My modes marred, matted, marking mere moments made mighty mired matriarichally mending musty mindtraps and melting my modalities making a massive megazord made of multitudes of memories.

I'm but a remix of those who opened doors.
I keep searching knowing there's something more,
cause I got sick and tired of always staring at the floor.

The "flaw" of attraction is only thinking it - our heart is our leader, the brain just assembles data from the time line to self-confirm whatever bias we hold.

Abracadabra = as I say, so it is created. ❤

crystalized self is finding those you see the most often, and pouring epic amounts of love into them so they don't basically, continually reinfect you with sad stories... it sounds weird, but we're a houseplant with more complicated emotions and a machine learning ai with a lot of faulty, burdensome code that needs to get a little cleaned up. Lol.

You're going to all be so much more amazing when you are allowed to see with new eyes.

Whatever feels good is meant for us - turn towards the light so shadows may fall behind - fear keeps us little, but children, they learn so much faster 'cause we assume they're dumb, and we teach them what we want, we ask them to behave the way we need them to to respect our boundaries.

❤ Brave new opportunities for us to see past the fire is love, opportunity, and we can always walk around the BBQ pit instead of right in it if we stop staring at the flicker.

I think one thing I'm going to have to learn is that if someone doesn't like me... I should just not give that energy anymore.

I keep reaching out to people who don't reach out to me and wonder why I can't help them... why I can't feel like a good friend.

I'm not meant for everyone, and not everyone is meant for me.

Why would I watch while they showcase their pain yet shun me for trying to connect with my understanding.

I'm withdrawing self and advice.

I want to observe more.

Let's see what happens next.

I can't wait to feel more welcome, but that sometimes means that I have to stay in good spaces, to protect my energies, to not keep searching, keep reaching, keep puting vibe where it's not welcome.

That's really, really okay.

The only way to find out where you belong is to see what feels good and put the love back into those that love you.

I keep forgetting it's not the soak but the gush.

It's not the next destination. It's not the things to be done tomorrow. It's the right here, the right now, the what shows up and what makes you proud.

I love my good friends, the ones that show, the ones that know, the ones that can take a good blow.

It's never the critic who stands on the sidelines ripping apart the one in the arena who is already battling fiercely...

The show has always been on, and you're not being watched by me... you're being watched by yourself... good luck to you.

"Hell is meeting the person you could have been at the end of your life...."

I'm trying to live a heavenly life, by appreciating my suffering and being with the little girl that hid in a closet... she always needed a friend. I can be her friend. <3

I like being useful, having fun, learning, playing, etc.
having a body/being human/making decisions/thinking/remembering meh
not into it

hindsight being 20/20 we now know the learnings that we get from allowing male chauvin-ist pigs to make rules for others, get away with more than their share, and the issues of figureheads for the masses. We are doing better after this day, this is the upswing. Thanks for you.

WE are better now, we are smarter now, we take our learnings forward, we love with our fullest selves, and we. GET. BETTER.
This is not shame, this is guilt, we learn from mistakes.... and we believe in rehabilitation.

Swarm is forever.

Only some cops are bad now that we'll have the ability to decipher who can deal with the call of duty and who cannot.

"3, 6, 9, 13
The whole be greater than the sum of parts.
I'm just tryin' to be chordial with you, kids

when the C, E, G forms a whole C again - that's harmony, baby!"

but I had never heard those stories
nor do I want to know how others use me in their protagonist stories

fighting so many battles
inside our own

It's like I tell Missionaries
"I don't want to be a tool for your salvation"

But everyone has their own life to live

I gotta focus on making my story great

The villain always paints the hero with weird hues to gain followers

but those who stand in infinite truth are seen from miles away

"Maybe I should've hit you more as a child"
is a really weird way to say thanks, but it's what I get.

Divine design, you will become what you're meant to become.

You will be tempted, baited, irritated and infatuated.

Nuture self, stay with your gut, be present, mindful and fill each good moment with power.

Show up for yourself.
Fully realize the chance you have to be happy, better, stronger.

You have choices you make along the way... how do you allow yourself, surrender to yourself and the moment?

Why do we keep staying with our brain imagining old stories, and designing new futures that never become when we can stay with self, hands and mind.... where we can do things.

Be here meow.  

Good people deserve to take up good space.
Be passionate. Stay yourself. You are brilliant, my star. <3

I am solid,  I am smart, I am safe...
I am seeking solace in words and whispers to protect me from the mind's night.

Be light - both as a feather and also able to illuminate the sky with brightness and happiness.

Now is the time. I will be alright.

Still haven't punched anyone in the face!! 🙂

Plant it with your finger,
or a digital footprint,
new life will spring forth

Arrived finally,
pretty sure this is my home,
among planted seeds

Thank you for being here,
I was searching forever,
for my kind to exist ♡

My version of this is the ole 6 to 1...
If I catch myself saying something negative about myself I have to compliment sandwich the eff out of myself.
For instance, today...
"I can't believe you slept pretty much the whole day away..."
Is a negative I woke up with, so, adding a minimum of 6 positive buffers to keep my mind aligned to success.
"You deserved the rest for all the stress."
"You are likely needed a longer sleep since you deny yourself it regularly."
"Yesterday you did two loads of dishes, rearranged furniture, worked on a bunch of projects and connected with many people."
"You are in the process of resetting subluxed shoulderblades."
"Ehlers Danlos Syndrome makes you into an athlete who needs to recoup energy."
"It is Saturday, have a great weekend, so what you can, but don't ever stop."
"Rest time and active work time are valued the same."
"If I get up now and start the day, there's still time."
♡
Turns out, if you don't want to have to think about how to "fix" the one negative... you start being more positive generally.
And that is a kindness we all deserve.
Also, its scientifically proven to be more effective than criticism. So, are you being mean to yourself cause you actually want to get stuff done or because you're addicted to thinking you're a ****** human?
You're a great human.
Thanks for trying to be better. ♡

Remember, the current is the best part of the river, its a lil dangerous, but you can do so many thrilling tricks. You can't stand in the same river twice, anyhow. Stop being in the shallows, jump in' - the waters fine.

I can hear the wind against the window.
The blinds are low and beneath my breath I whisper, "No."
I doubt I will have many reasons to acknowledge anything outside my tower when the snow holds the ground as it's dominion.

I dislike the cold.
I thought outside was supposed to get frigid - not me.

The secret of birds, bees, fish and trees.
Enough space to join and leave,

To dance, pivot and spin.
To know where self ends, and others begin,

To be allowed to exist, to be
To appreciate dynamics in harmony,

The flock, the school, the group and way,
Permission to deviate but still be okay.

To speed up or slow down,
The shyness of the crown,

Oh, there is in nature to be seen,
For in said glory, we can glean.

Like a Bene Gesserit she talks with her hands faster than she could with her tongue and if you were honoured enough you could put your hand in her Gom Jabbar~ the spice must flow.

I remember why the echoes are here... it's hard lessons that will reappear. Each time I forget what I am taught, the pains come back again; remind me I ought not let the moral of the story be forgot.

An ex once told me he'd murdered before,
and not all the bodies had been found,
To which I retorted, "Don't threaten ME with a good time -
I can't wait to be six feet underground."

Not everyone knows
what shakes in between atoms
likely some do here

it's a nifty thing
speaking in a sort of code
filled with beat and flow

loving riddles and rhymes
palindromes and the wordplay
when I'm challenged I speak

truth comes in between
what is and what could have been
it's hard to have voice

all of the vibrations
abracadabra and all
intention is everything

taking solace in
knowing what is meant for me
will appear when needed

the aether speaks softly
for those who dare to listen
to the spaces in between

Who told you you were supposed to be happy, without pain, or suffering?
The ego lies.
Suffer with me, purposely.
These are the wars we choose to fight so the wars don't get fought against us or inside us.
New story for me? I enjoy this pain now. I choose this pain. I thought I didnt love myself, that's why I never could take care of myself... nah.
I loved myself too much that I thought I was above this "life", that I "deserved better"
I choose this battle, now. I am here for it. Hi.

I show up to downtown just as everyone starts heading out. It was such beautiful chaos and carnage. Wigs, masks, bits of feather boas literring the streets. The lost and fearful gaze of those trying to locate their brethren. Panicked phonecalls, fights over cabs. Glass and debris everywhere... The stale stench of smashed beer bottles mixed with the thick scent of ***** that you can blatantly see trailing down the asphalt from the alleyway. I kind of like the after-hour societal decay more than I might have enjoyed the night itself. Gross realness. I mean that as two meanings... The sheer amount and the level of filth. Glorious.

Spreading ruma is ugly, finnish'd, but spreading rumah-rumah in indonesian is houses others
Buku-buku
qiyahmah kiyah of koran and karate
kick in a high knee
Prophet Margin of Error - Proper Up-Raise-All
Idolatry from graven images
E-manual, wonderful counsellor
isn't everyday judgement day?

Unhinged jaw of the leviathan
our horse artemis atimiz
building ***** manor
kin of the castle
neo cosmic egg

Irish taitnionn iz shiny tightneon
Tautology say it twice, time constant
7 chinese qi, nana, shichi
Double Pepper's Ghost Torus Field

Full halo proton event
Moon prism power make up
the moon's stars on the broad way

Dark oxygen bubbles

Loyal opposition tweedledee and tweedle dum play ping pong but to score you gotta send the ball to empty space otherwise its just pitching and catching stalemating

Could be aliens, or just a passing truck
Dyuloka is a Sanskrit term for "heavenly world".
annie are you oll korrect?
Mind the Ginnungagap existing between Niflheim and Muspelheim.
Inspecting and expecting the spectacular

Rubrum argilla
mor muman & braiding liliac
Growing up...
Crown shyness: the murmuration of the forest
sphinx in bloom
Unorthodox planting of seeds

David knows how to please a deity, trusting from core, dancing, secret chords... I wanna see that show
*** = them who are they if not us?
Hubba hubble ****** tension
The evolution of the great wave
The rain chain, best linkages
pure seduction?

close-knit skeining
Quota-able metrics
new record? keeping it!
re:awarding
getting SMARTER
energetic investments

Fact Orly? Reset
World computer rendering speed

mighty might-be boss tones of potentiality
self add voca, see!
clean spirit radio signal
compositional undertones
Speak FOR yourself
To each their own

it all is, has been and will be, we must show up with our males and females in balance in each moment we can.... internally first. I hope as a female outward, your male innards are better than anyone who presents male outwardly.
We made them act "manly" for us for a long time, when the feminine insides in roughened exteriors ended up making mistepps out of heavy expectations... then we just .. made excuses for bad behaviour, and self-hatred applied to justify the swings....
when internally we're in charge of the balancings.

I feel like you'll like that, too.

My writings are coming out weird and faster now

I've been picturing the universal balancing points.

like what if whenever someone showed up "too needy" "too Much" "too this" --- was just the balancing point.
of what I was hiding.

since we're all mostly projectionists. so.... I'm trying to show up more balanced.

just to see... my friend likened it to the stillness that reflects...

mirror surface

Please let the wise ones watch over me
Please let the ones who soar set me free

Please have the dark ones keep me safe at night
And the illuminated ones light the path so bright

May the tricksters remind me it's all a game
And the ones with epic strength provide me with gains

May the learned ones speak to my mind
And the ever knowing shorten the search to find

My self, my heart, my mind and spirit
My voice, the sounds and the ears to hear it

Guide my hands, my words and my essence
To where the highest good would have my presence

I am here, whole, one and a part of all
Keep me getting up after every fall

Neona

...I called in help for re-locating my shoulders....
my body has been on the edge of fasting a lot.

Popping myofacial and muscle knots...
bruising appears,
skin dries and becomes scaly...

got help legit holding it in place while I snake writhed it closer to intended positioning.

Bawled cause the pain is so searing and real.

"What was that?"
"I let it go."

Sometimes we feel most comfortable slouched over into a little protected ball...
our body's give and curl and build up the strength where we couldn't.

For years I was propped up, tensed to ****...
and my body tried to come to my rescue while I shifted and forgot about the beautiful clustering of bits.

A circus of cells with no ringmaster.

Little monkeys running around with no direction.

I have been in a good deal of pain.

I had to get over the woe to find the woah...

lots of meditation,
isometric strength,
weights,
positioning,
breathing...
and what feels like still a long journey ahead of me.

I've heard that this has great processing potential.

I am excited to see the other side of this machine.

I love all my friends who have been checking in,
keeping me focused,
helping me go forward and loving me.

It's like I have magical,
psychic creatures around me
helping me elevate self and game.

Feel the pain,
say hi to it,
thank it for its service and be there with it...
all it wanted was to be seen, see it, feel it, love it,
be grateful for what that is showing me and let it ******* go.

I let it go. I am going to let it go again.

And again.
And a ******* gain.

Thank you for your existence. ♡

I found an inflatable crown. Here comes a lording lady, built up by hot air.

Why dont you just do what you can't so I don't have to see you suffer? Says the lover to the other.

You never needed anyone to understand before - why start caring now?
You'll never win over the haters
and you'll lose your lovers,
trying to fit into someone else's mold.
Girl, do what you love to do,
Say what you feel is true.
As long as you learned as you grew.
Babe, you do you.
Yeah, you do you.

Did you find a goal or game?
Your claim to fame or the dance and swerve of lanes?
You're the only one who has been with yourself through all the moments of the day.
If you have yet to figure out your way - there is nobody to blame.
Babe, you do you.
Yeah, you do you.

Looking for the thing you lack usually means you ignore who's got your back

I've seen people ask if it's a ****** attraction to pans, but really, it means it doesn't matter what's in the pan, but if you know how to cook with it.

The pan is but a vessel to operate divine nourishment through to human form.

Whatever horned snake will be, will be.
Winged angel for some, to see.
***** creature, etymologically.

Lord of The Ringmaster
Kanga + Tigger Broadway of Juliet & Romeo = loinspawn Joey Fatone, pretty great

Thicc Tigro Morendo

In Vince Able form

bone daddy on the scene
big baller in the hizzouce
didja find yer marbles?
but do you know what my favourite is?

401 to er is neo-human, mal
rebuke the sin, not the sinner
bundling the best: sol-stuff tetris
wholly coronagraph'd
stellar to get the groove back
devotion to the ineffable
remembrance day of the dead
keeping it under wraps. mums the word
la mort is feminine
re:animation back from the dead inside
is it jubilee yet?

prep n pump-kin patch
how do you like them dirt apples?
juicy fruits of the labours
pipedream for a cheesecake

it's novel: choose your own adventure
balancing the books: big business
complex character development
first draft pickies
to break a record you must first keep record
EPIC! Great work
it's the thought that counts

cat-like reflexives!
don't judge a cat by its pajamas
cheetahs can change their spots
do you purr oh now or wait for purolator?
let us hear your rawr!
cocky language: bananas peacocking over *****
the return of fish hat fashion
full ****** moontime, buddy

quelle suprise, new tricks
the price of power and glamour

self-stabilizing, recalibration and in-balancing
just be & be just
rest & rejuvenation
how to fill the cup
managing realistic expectations
keeping it super simple
consistent chunks
through the refiners fire
purposeful pursuit with pivot
to be okay with where you are
state-dependant power play
just showing up is okay
playin' the numbers game
"Limitations" as objective parameters
developing adequate pace setting
leadership in the mundane
habitually game changing
psychological promptings

do not come for me go for comfort
yorokonde! not for pleasure but with pleasure
gib it a lil kissikiss
tis the season enough space for everybody to win
a wee bit of the leeway
coast2coast maintaining momentum
both time and progress are not so linear
comfort, choice & chance
making a passing grade

melee of the kalikimakka
its a friggin miracle
going for gold
continually la kay days
FA FA FA for fortune
cultivating true names and magic words
meaningful value of appreciation

gentle warm up
wildcard win(d) conditions & changes
the force to be reckoned with
the wind has a way to talk to me
harley stank ***** iv tout le temps
whatever resonates with you
ever-enduring lil stinker
extra sensory perceptions
creative expression ~ get it out of the system

specular reflection: smokes & mirroring
not just black and white
core information mysteriously changes shape

mr. everything duran mother django man go frou ting, now
in-joy a bull non-cents
giver the ole wigglejiggle

for the six to nine
4 86in it saintly style
flex 4 hope & cuddle 4 gains

a lil something something nice nice
of chicanery and shenanigans

feelin' the feelings
gonna work with it
I was gonna title this but...
I don't want to call it...
maybe? kinda! sorta?
this title was intentionally left blank
no comment

and the rest of what remains

I think it is wizardry.

I've been grounding,
breathing up like a tree reaching out,
hitting white light,
drawing it back into self,
tensing up - redistributing self as shadow holding point, acknowledging fullness,
finding error,
releasing - then I grab the knot and I hold it for a minimum of 10 seconds,
thank it for it's service but let it know I'm trying to rebuild and repeat.