Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
there's screaming behind my skin
but nobody believes me,
I tell them that someone must have hid a body under my skin,
not dead - very alive
they tear through my skin trying to get out.
and sometimes give up
they leave me in peace for a while
only to come back when I least expect it.

The little person attacks me at night
keeping me awake
begging to be let out
I never do
and so he cries

sometimes this little person almost escapes
and out slips a word or a burst of emotion
then I push them back down
"they must have been put there for a reason?"
or so I hope.

There are times that I wonder
"Who locked this little person away?"
"Why?"
"Who is this fellow?"
but I remain ignorant to the answers

Then one night
the little person stopped begging
I asked what was different
he simply looked me in the eyes and
calmly asked why I kept myself locked away
in the dark.

I was the warden of this poor fellows prison
and I was the one who threw him there.
This poem was really hard for me to write simply because of the point of view, so my bad if it doesn't make so much sense...
4h · 17
Call out my name
My name, a name I've hated
for most of my life
an unnatural patchwork
the result of my family's toxicity
I got the **** end of the deal
I didn't even get a say
and they wonder why I was bullied
every **** day.

So call out my name
let it roll off your tongue
with its choppy pronunciation
and unnatural feel

I wish I were a hermit crab
so I could shed this old shell
~I'm sorry
but not really
~I'll try harder
when I hurt you tomorrow.

The beast in my breast
is a glutton for revenge
it only stays close
to feed on your sorrow.

Oh how I hate you now
that you love me so much
way back when the tables were turned
you had me for lunch.

You cut my heart out
I lay like a pig on the dining room table
eyes wide open
your mouth even wider
when I heard that sickening crunch.

Now same as you I burn the next fool
who would have known
that it was going to be you.

now you beg for your life
and say that your sorry
but I've heard it all before
so I give you
My Un-apologies

You lay on the dining room table
eyes wide open
my mouth even wider
when you hear that delectable crunch.
Karma is a *****, but sometimes people are worse
The music starts, a languid, cruel design,
Your hand extends, a forced and hollow sign.
My fingers brush, a touch to endure,
Each measured step, a silent, bitter war.

Your eyes, a void where nothing gentle dwells,
Reflect the lies that this pretense compels.
A practiced smile, a whisper at the ear,
Ignites a cold and deeply buried fear.

The closeness burns, a searing, unseen flame,
Each beat a pulse that whispers out your name.
The breath, a phantom, chilling haze,
Trapped in this dance through shadowed, tangled days.

The body moves, a puppet on a string,
Resentment coils, a venomous, sharp sting.
This waltz of pain, a burden to bear,
A grim tableau, suspended in the air.

And when the song finally fades to light,
We'll break apart, into the lonely night.
The touch forgotten, the charade laid bare,
Leaving behind the ghosts of what we were.
The hum of spheres, a cosmic lullaby,
Where stardust drifts, and worries fade away,
A silent pact with the eternal sky.
No earthly weight, no tear, no weary sigh,
Just endless light, where souls can truly play,
The hum of spheres, a cosmic lullaby.
Through nebulae, our hopeful vessels fly,
New worlds revealed with every stellar ray,
A silent pact with the eternal sky.
We chart the paths where ancient wonders lie,
And greet the dawn of a celestial day,
The hum of spheres, a cosmic lullaby.
Though memories of earth may slowly die,
We build our home where galaxies hold sway,
A silent pact with the eternal sky.
So let the distant galaxies draw nigh,
We live among the stars and choose to stay,
The hum of spheres, a cosmic lullaby,
A silent pact with the eternal sky.
You.
I have a few words for you
you snake
to have shown me such great love
to have given me what I desired,
A family
at a young age you hurt me
without a second glance
was it ignorance or stupidity
I don't care anymore
I stepped around the eggshells,
needles, and pills.
and still I loved you
all I know is the rage I feel
when I think of you,
you sickly being
how could I
have ever
called you
mom
13h · 53
What if?
I hurt you?
I dessert you?
Break you?
Make you hate you?
Sacrifice you?
Turn you?
Regret you?
What if I manipulate you?
Spurn you?
Burn you?
What if you do this to me?
But even worse...
What if I love you?
And take you back with no hesitation.
I know the risk you've done it all before
And I still cant help
But fall.
14h
Habit #1
This is my first bad habit
to speak before I think
I've tried to iron out the kinks
but this one just wont shrink
I found a way to hide it though
although it really stinks
but the only way I **** this thing
is simply not to speak.
sorry for the inconvenience
but I refuse to let my thoughts leak
if my thoughts are what you seek
then pry me open and take a peek
however be warned
its going to take time
similar to climbing a mountain range
peak to peak
what you find might not
be what you want
so until that day I just wont speak
14h
Binding
You, were spread open
Just like a book
each corner held down and tied tight,
so I wouldn't lose sight of my spot
reading your pages line by line
savoring the ink
my favorite book to take my time
To savor the smell of old paper,
the sound of the cover groaning and pages flipping
but most of all to taste the words roll off my tongue
to describe the feeling in a word,
Seductive
and when I am finished with such a delightful read
I find myself in ecstasy all over again
soaring to new heights
all because the last page is simply
Blank
14h · 77
Self Sabotage
Tempting as it is I will not give in
Of course, there is no excuse.
Obliterated conscience continues to hesitate

Lapse in judgement could end it
All of it
Try as I might to stay nice
Every thing I've worked for is thrown out.
TOO LATE
1d · 25
split skin
Blood
flowing from my lips
onto my tongue
Metallic
the pain is numbing
adrenaline pumping
heart thumping
THWACK!!
my nose is broken
my anger seethes like a blister
now I'm on top
beating a drum
before I find my rhythm
I pass out and come to
on the ground
getting kicked like an animal
I manage to run -- They follow
kicking me all the way home
my demons beat me
long after its over
but they take their time
and **** me
as slow as possible
the bruises and cuts hurt much less
than what's in store for me later
because one day they'll get me
and get even
This poem is for all of the fights I never wanted to get in, for all the ones I've gone too far, and the consequences thereafter.
1d · 32
a small problem
I had a problem
I was addicted to fitting in.
even though I knew the odds are slim,
I looked as though I should've be part of "that" clique.
but I was just too different,
I hated sports
I loved to dance
I was too loud
I loved a good fight
...
I was socially awkward
I still am
It's not my fault
my mind was built different
I realized that soon enough
but only after the damage was done
I hid my true self
I started working out
I stopped dancing
I never spoke
I let myself get bullied
all so I could be popular
...
Looking up "How to glow up" on YouTube
buying clothes that I hated
and never really being satisfied with the results
...
and here I am today
still as lame
and uncool
and boring as the next person
all because I couldn't love myself
fitting in doesn't matter
Beautiful, Sweet thing
hanging from my neck
like a chain
a bee sting in July,
a growing pain.
In a dream I sweat
we wed in the tropics
cross-eyed and tongue-tied
at the thought of your lips
my thoughts are doing the hokey-pokey
don't slap me silly, slap me serious
I need to get a grip
I have a devil harassing my hips
I'd melt like a mint, in the heat of your mouth
Hurricane in a blouse headed angrily down south
raining fabric off our backs
the umpire called three strikes,
and only now are we finally going out
When she's away from me
My heart reaches, like a baby from its crib
helpless without the love of those who love it.
Her voice fills my skull like wine in a glass,
smooth and intoxicating
occupying every nook and cranny
Her smile is the moon shining on a snowy night.
Her eyes are speckled with rust
I give them my trust.
When she is away
her touch is hot and loving and feverish
when shes a way I'm sick
but its worse when she's near
I'm a **** addict, a *******
when she's gone I suffer withdrawals
when she's near I'm high as a kite,
that's fine I'm happy.
That's what really matters, right?
1d · 37
Blue
I see the sky blue as sea,
Sprinkled with clouds, there they be.
I lay on this soft plain.

Feeling no such important thing
Other than ultimate peace
I see the sky blue as sea,

Many struggle with a wrinkle in their suit
When they should go with the heavenly flow
I lay on this soft plain.

Come lay on this soft plain
And contemplate where we belong
I see the sky blue as sea,

Watch the clouds keep flying by
As they keep watch over, us bundles of nerves
I lay on this soft plain.

Close your eyes and breathe deep, close your brain
Try to go to sleep, dream
and see the sky blue as sea,
lay on this soft plain with me
"Forever"
but that means, eternity
I suppose that happiness can feel like an eternity.
love is a minefield, be sure to watch your step
because at one moment your dancing
and the next your legs are gone.
I suppose I could have been more literal,
I mean who actually lasts forever?
I learned the hard way that I ought to be saying
Maybe Never.
1d
Stolen
You Villain,
Like a thief in the dark
you stole my heart
with you a black cloak, mask and daggers sharp
you severed my heart
and nabbed it.
Now here I am back at the start
what many call love, is my laborious task
has me helplessly hooked like a carp
you own my delicate heart
I'm lucky you haven't torn it apart.

— The End —