whether hero
or failure
we all have a breaking point
the difference between the two;
how much is loaded up
before the camel's back breaks

did I take
the road less travelled
or
was it merely
the easiest route?

I'm trying
to be more positive
it's not as easy as
they say

optimism is
simply
accepting the worst
smiling
until the **** drains away
and the stench
starts to clear

when the absence
lulls you
makes it feel
like paradise

yet
still
there is a puddle of excrement
about your heels

i sit
and watch the fly
in its directionless ballet
it is frustrating
                and tiring
just watching
as it changes it's mind
incessantly

i laugh
i know as little as the fly
down which path
the right choice lies
maybe if i help
i'll get some help
in return

i open the window
and wait;
over
and
over
it flies into the pane

i can't decide
if its inspirational
or
pitiful

i used to think
i could conquer
anybody
anything

nothing out of reach
unobtainable;
nonsense

but no

mistakes
failings
resentments
regrets

heartbroken

         ­                   forgotten

                                   ­                left behind

now
all it takes
to break me
is
a beautiful pair of eyes
looking
the other direction