I don’t want to ever find myself apologizing to you today I am saying sorry by vomiting today I am saying sorry by not moving today your face is in my hand & I am kissing it today my body expands like lung cancer I am always writing about expanding bodies I am never not vomiting even when I am really not at all last night I got 4 hours of sleep this morning my headache is full of scraped knees today I do not move today I think about kissing you today I think that kissing you would not be very different from kissing a taxi today I think that I want to ignore you & kiss you forever & ever but I cannot do that if you ignore me today my stomach is angry at the world today I am in love with too many people today I am waiting for the world to thank me & I am waiting for an astronaut, a moon, a lit-up screen, ellipses in your rotten mouth, some beestings in my throat

The stomach pain is horrendous
The taste of dessert coming back
The look of disaster
stab me, choke me, **** me
The disapproval upon the faces
The miserable sounds in the background
The insecurity peaking out
save me, help me, rescue me
The choke before the gag
The spit before the rest
The death in my stomach
take me, be me, please
The blood in my gums
The ache in my throat
It's over–
I'm alright again.

~~<♡>~~

Here's a concept! Here's a race!
Let's put a SMILE upon a face!

Know a poet who is new?
Or one who's hurting just like you?

One who's bullied? One who's left?
They don't have to be HERE.
Perhaps bereft?

Move a finger and follow them
And write up a quick po-em

About their poetry and style
Make them happy! Make them smile!

Take a moment of your time.
I may make your poem shine!

Let them know HP's "the place"
PUT A SMILE UPON A FACE!!!

♥ Catherine