I'm proud to be a ******
Maybe I'll always be one
Besides
Being that close with someone frightens me

Perhaps I will take a pledge to remain chaste

Have you ever been to a sporting event ladies
Perhaps track or football

Where you got to watch powerful men compete
Did you watch the men at track practice

Their shirts off
Bodies glistening in the sun

Rock hard abs
Powerful chests

Strong powerful legs
And tight buttocks

You watch him throw the javelin
The javelin is like a symbol
Of his powerful male member

Do you want to run your hands on his powerful body?
You begin to massage your inner thigh
There is a cool breeze blowing
You spread your legs slightly
As the wind rushes up your skirt
You didn't wear ******* to this practice

It's time to return to your dorm
And fantasize about him
While you explore with your *** toys

I just wish I had someone to hold
But I'm going to bed alone again
Oh well, at least I have stuffed animals

I hope to be a kind and loving boyfriend
To a beautiful goddess one day

I promise to cook her dinner
And run her bathwater too

I won't forget the scented candles
And rose pedals as well

I live to please her
And put her needs before mine

I love to give her oral pleasure
For as long as she desires

Truly I adore her
And live to please her

Spotify I love you
Thanks for all the great music

Sometimes it is hard
Life can be so lonely

At least I have my music
Anyone care to chat on Skype or AIM?
Message me and we can exchange contact info

Lol people who write poems are awesome
It's hard to be a human being sometimes
The loneliness is what is difficult for me

Just keep trying to do what is right
Show the light inside of yourself

Sometimes the world can be cruel
It's okay, just persevere

I spent the day by myself
At the gym

Not employed right now
Then I walked a bit down the street
Cried some
Held this cross necklace I have

Well
I've seen some times now
I'm almost 30

I've studied history and philosophy
Read many great minds

It's quite a thing to be a human being
Don't give up
Don't give up
On your dreams

I grew up with hate
Tried to push me down

It's love that will overcome
Love
I am the keeper
I keep the days and the times

Ladies
Do you Love a well-hung stud?
Do you love a muscular and powerful man?

With high *** drive
And a rather long and thick manhood?

Do you enjoy his ****** stamina?
If you do

Write a poem for me
About how your well-hung stud
Sends waves of pleasure through your body!

He says, "Is this a stool?"

Turn it upside down and it is a wastebasket
Now it's a drum

There are no concepts
It is what it does

Anything you can use it for is what it is
A stool can be all these other things as well

Buddhism does not define
If you believe that, you are stuck with an idea
And are clinging onto it for spiritual security

You have a great laugh Alan

There is nothing you can hold onto
So man let go!

If you're enlightened you're like a dumb man
Who has had a wonderful dream

Nirvana means blow out

If you hold your breathe you lose it
Breathe out and you get your breath back

The ultimate reality is Shunyata

You don't meed any gizmos to be in the know

Every teacher of Buddhism is a debunker
He or she does it out of compassion

I am viewed by the system
As a machine

Work, work, work
Where is my job?

There are no jobs in California
You go to college
Then get more education

And the best I'll be able to do
This year is working part time somewhere
For thirteen dollars an hour

What a joke

You know
The more I live
The less I think of this place called earth

Better to think of it as like a matrix system

Besides I live life in what I feel is the wrong body
I would have had more fun as a woman

Oh well
I won't waste anytime thinking about it

Money!
That's all that matters
And I'm poor
Always poor
No jobs to be found

What a joke
This stupid game

I didn't go to college
Then go get sixteen months more of education
So I could work for minimum wage

What a joke
And our country is trillions of dollars in debt

I like to write poems when I am in a bad mood
Sometimes I am not so optimistic
It's good to write poems in good and bad moods

Buddham Saranam Gacchami
Dhammam Gacchami
Sangham Saranam Gacchami

I don't like living here
With the way this economy is
I'll have to live here for another year at least

Well I refuse to go work
For minimum wage

If the powers that be
Will not hire me
To do my duty then fine!!!!!

It's not my fault
I've done everything right
And I do not care anymore

Alan Watts said the Hindus
Say get lost man

Get caught up in the beauty of life
The Hindus see life as a great drama

What a fun day I had yesterday

I had steel cut oatmeal for breakfast
Then worked out at the gym

At night I was at the putting green
In the distance I see a man slowly disappearing as he jogs away

To my right A mother soothes and holds a baby

Today I was at two different college campuses
I recorded some of Alan Watts' book on the Tao

So many beautiful women
I walked around campus
And saw such beautiful women

Oh my goodness
I could not believe how short
Some of the women's shorts were
They barely covered their tight bottoms

I'm not complaining
The women really love
To strut their stuff at this Christian University I attended

Tonight I was at old junior college
I took classes there ten years ago

First I walked around
I was smiling as I listened to Kashmir
People smiled at me too
I think they saw what a good time I was having

I had my Australian hat on
It is great because it covers the neck

Then I watched water polo
Referee blows whistle
Swimming back and forth

Then I was walking
And a guy with a Led Zeppelin shirt walked by
I told him I was listening to Kashmir
He said, "awesome" and walked by
What a strange coincidence for that to happen!

I was so content
Lying on grass with back against small rock
I saw a young Indian man
Do a side flip
He is skillful acrobat!
I laughed because it was so amazing
I almost clapped for him but didn't

Tao is wise mother
Tao is everyday consciousness

On way back to car
I looked at home across the street
There was big television on

I came home
And put glass of orange juice in freezer
It became like orange slushee
Yummm!

I am watching youtube tutorials on how
To do sideflips and Kip Ups
Maybe I will try to do a Kip Up
But side flip too hard for me!
Also it looks kind of dangerous

Now I listen
To Heart Sutra
As I type

Every Boddhisatva depends on highest perfect wisdom
Because mind meets no obstacle
Because no obstacle no fear is born

Gone beyond all topsee turvey absolutes
Attain Nirvana
Past Present and Future

Every Buddha depends on highest perfect wisdom
Therefore attain supreme perfect enlightment

Sentient beings are numberless,
I vow to save them,
Desires are inexhaustible,
I vow to put an end to them.
The Dharmas are boundless,
I vow to master them.
The Buddha Way is unsurpassable,
I vow to attain it.  

When I was walking today I felt
Like I was walking on air

I want to buy cross necklace
And Emerald Buddha Amulet

I don't see why I can't love Jesus
And practice Buddhism at the same time

They are both wise teachers

Jesus I love you
And am thankful for what you have done for me

Thank you Buddha for teaching me not to cling or grasp
In this ever changing world

When I walk the cross and amulet
Will jingle together

Remember to love others
Remember to show the loving compassion of the Bodhichitta

Surely if I do this
I will live good life!

I wish I could see
All times and places
At the same time

To see the people come and go
I like to see the big picture
I wish I could be in different places at once

On the putting green
I watched the ball break

To my left the cars came and left the parking lot
In the distance a man jogs down the street
I watch him become smaller

To my right I watch a family with a young child
Leave the driving range

I can only watch in wonder
In amazement
At the Tao

So beautiful
Ever changing
Coming and going
One time to next time

If you spend many hours alone like me
You know the Tao

No clinging
No grasping

Changing names and changing faces
Seeing different places

A strange world of happenings

One time to next time
That's it

“When mortals are alive, they worry about death. When they’re full, they worry about hunger. Theirs is the Great Uncertainty. But sages don’t consider the past. And they don’t worry about the future. Nor do they cling to the present. And from moment to moment they follow the Way.”

My house is buried in the deepest recess of the forest
Every year, ivy vines grow longer than the year before.
Undisturbed by the affairs of the world I live at ease,
Woodmen’s singing rarely reaching me through the trees.
While the sun stays in the sky, I mend my torn clothes
And facing the moon, I read holy texts aloud to myself.
Let me drop a word of advice for believers of my faith.
To enjoy life’s immensity, you do not need many things.

“Too lazy to be ambitious,
I let the world take care of itself.
Ten days’ worth of rice in my bag;
A bundle of twigs by the fireplace.
Why chatter about delusion and enlightenment?
Listening to the night rain on my roof,
I sit comfortably, with both legs stretched out.”

She made me wear
A pink french maid's uniform that day
I had to wait on her and her black stud lover Tyrone

Fix them drinks and make them dinner
These are the duties of the ***** cuckold

It's hard to be inferior to him
He is so well-built and powerful
A perfectly sculpted body
A large and powerful manhood
He is every woman's dream

She reminds me that no beautiful woman
Will ever want to be with a ***** like me
That my manhood is too small
That my *** drive is too low
Nature has dealt me a bad hand

I sit by the bedroom door
This time I am not allowed to watch
She only told me that they would be doing it *******

I sit next to the door
I hear her load moans and sighs
I know he is pleasuring her
In ways I never could

My goodness
Forty-five minutes have passed
And they are still going at it

I peer through a crack in the door
He is so powerful that he can hold her up
As he thrusts deep inside her

I am not strong enough
To have *** in the standing position

What a man he is
He can squat 300 pounds
And has a strong powerful ***

Look at him ******
She screams in ecstasy

After she is finished
She will tell me how wonderful he was
As I polish her high heels

After he leaves
I have the humiliating and exciting task
Of giving her oral pleasure

These are the duties of the ***** cuckold

Oh Henry
What a star you are!
You always loved to be at the center of attention

Your accomplishments in diplomacy are well known
You brokered the peace treaty between Israel and Egypt
You effected detente with the Soviet Union
You opened up the way for Nixon in China
You negated the Communist threat in Chile

You said it yourself      
"Power is the ultimate aphrodisiac.”

You have admitted that mistakes were
"Quite possibly made"
By administrations in which you served.

You have questioned whether, 30 years after the event,
"Courts are the Appropriate means by which determination is made".

And Cambodia Henry?
You were complicit
In the illegal carpet bombing of neutral Cambodia
Which sowed the seeds for the murderous Pol *** regime

Pinochet was indicted for human rights violations

Diplomacy is a ***** business
You did what you thought needed to be done

You remain cold and secretive
Do you have any remorse or regret?

The old Russian proverb is wrong Henry
Time does not heal all wounds

There is blood on your hands

“Why do you so earnestly seek
the truth in distant places?
Look for delusion and truth in the
bottom of your own heart.”

Surely, the memory chips in drones and robots
Are not programmed to reflect a Kantian standard for the use
Of deadly force and destructive weaponry
It is exactly because of this lack of understanding
Between right and wrong
That drones and robots are so attractive
To the enforcers of the imperial empire

Coming, going, the waterbirds
don’t leave a trace,
don’t follow a path.

After the rain,
the empty mountain
at dusk
is full of autumn air.
A bright moon
shines between the pines;
The clear spring water
glides over the rocks.
Bamboo leaves rustling –
the washer-girls bound home.
Water lilies swaying –
a fisher-boat goes down.
Never mind that
spring plants are no longer green.
I am here to stay
my noble friends!

The skilful masters (of the Tao) in old times, with a subtle
and exquisite *******, comprehended its mysteries, and were deep
(also) so as to elude men’s knowledge. As they were thus beyond men’s
knowledge, I will make an effort to describe of what sort they
appeared to be.

Shrinking looked they like those who wade through a stream in
winter; irresolute like those who are afraid of all around them; grave
like a guest (in awe of his host); evanescent like ice that is melting
away; unpretentious like wood that has not been fashioned into
anything; vacant like a valley, and dull like muddy water.

Who can (make) the muddy water (clear)? Let it be still, and it
will gradually become clear. Who can secure the condition of rest?
Let movement go on, and the condition of rest will gradually arise.

They who preserve this method of the Tao do not wish to be full (of
themselves). It is through their not being full of themselves that
they can afford to seem worn and not appear new and complete.

True words aren’t eloquent;
eloquent words aren’t true.
Wise men don’t need to prove their point;
men who need to prove their point aren’t wise.

The Master has no possessions.
The more he does for others,
the happier he is.
The more he gives to others,
the wealthier he is.

The Tao nourishes by not forcing.
By not dominating, the Master leads.

There  is a certain emptiness inside
I suppose it comes from
Mostly Always being alone

I'm tired of this
Tired of being broke

Month after month
No money
And I still can't find a job

This economy really *****                
Maybe I'll never find a job
Just sell my car
To pay off my credit card debt

Forget driving anywhere
Just set up permanent residence
In my parent's home

And I'm so tired
Of this house

Will I ever leave?

I'm angry
At our society
You work and work and work
An undergraduate degree plus sixteen months of education

Still no job
Can't even find part time
What a ******* up state California is

Well, at least there is golf
I love chippping and putting
Something relaxing about it

It requires great focus
Watching the ball take the break
Chipping underneath pine tree

Little finches hopping to and fro
Listening to my buddhist mantra

Golf is a beautiful game
A solitary game for the individual

I hope to meet a fun lady to play golf with
But maybe that is just a dream
I'll probably always play alone
And that's okay

I hope to meet a beautiful woman
Someone beautiful on the inside
To be friends with
Maybe that is just a dream

But a good dream indeed

Fiber is good for you
Because it keeps things movin' right through

I am the Keeper
The one who keeps the days and the times

I am suffering and emptiness
I have a breathing problem sometimes
Maybe it is this suffocating environment

This stupid ******* economy!!
I have a four year degree and 16 months
Of education past that
And still no job

And I still have to live with my ******* parents!
And I have lived in this home for 17 years!
And I am tired of this!!

Tired and empty and lonely
And I'll work and work and work
And work like some ******* slave
On this slave planet

And on and on and on
And I'll never find anyone

And I'm not that attractive
And I'm always alone
But I'm tough and mean

And I have a ******* gold cross with little diamonds on it
Hehe
And I walk around with it in my pocket
It is for protection or something
Hey, everybody has to believe in something
On this miserable rock!

Our borders are wide open
I bet there will be a terrorist attack
Sooner or later
WIth all these executive orders
Are rights have been stripped away

At least I have iodine pills
And a nuclear biological chemical suit
On its way

I'm a man for all times and all seasons
For all reasons
I'm so poor!!

And I can't even afford to drive out to my college
I go there hoping to meet someone
To talk to someone
That gives a **** about me!
But all these 22 year olds
All they do is go on their ******* iphones
And nobody has a conversation anymore

I'll just read my philosophy again
Or something like that
Who really cares anyway
All I ever wanted was a hug
But the huge never came

Know thyself and love thyself
No pain no fear
Each day is like a thousand years
Why am I breathing like this?
Nothing is wrong, it's all in my head
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I want my own apartment
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
The death of the American dream
And the American dollar

The globalists will have their way
As they usher in their New World Order

Drones and drones, everywhere
Eeeeek
All this technology
And I'm just some guy
6 feet 172 pounds typical ******* WASP

But I'm tough and I'm mean
And I am full of emptiness and pain

You know the name
Maaaaadddddeeeeline!!!!!!!

So here I am at my old college library
Charging my Ipad
I was taking pictures of pages
In different religious
And philosophical books
I like to make audio files
With my microphone
They can be added to Itunes
Then placed on my iPod nano

Alone at the library
It was always the case
Now and from 2005 to 2008
Didn't make any friends in college
Just acquaintances

Sure would be nice
To meet someone today
Someone to ask how I am
I'd like to inquire how their studying was going

I wish I had more friends
Seems I am always alone
Oh well, at least I have the great minds
To listen to
And the consolation of philosophy

So I'll wait for my ipad to charge
And check out the beautiful women
As they walk by the window
Just as I did some six years ago

And I'm still broke
Can't seem to start my career

Sometimes I think
I'd just like to spend
The rest of my life
Studying here

All these hot babes
But they always ignore me
Oh well
At least I have philosophy and golf

It is a shame
I'd be such a loving boyfriend
And put her needs before mine
I hope to find a girlfriend one day

This life is so real

What is it?
What is it?  
Alan Watts asked
We can't get at it

There is republican and democrat
Christian and Jew
Young and old
The mind creates categories
What is the category of all categories then?
It must be love

Love is the source
The source of all life

It's quite a thing to be a human being
In the 21st century
I follow the ancient way
Of the teacher
From time to time
One time to the next time
That's it?

Crazy I know
How the times change

I try to do what is right
To cultivate the loving compassion
Of Jesus and of the Bodhichitta

Nobody ever told me
About the emptiness of existence
About the longing I would feel
I hope to be loved

Trying, trying so hard
To be happy
Trying to do what is right

Nothing like a good hard try

It's quite a thing to live a life on Earth
To work and work and work
I salute all the good human beings
Who try to do what is right
Who are kind, loving and patient
Who are determined and persevere
Love conquers all

Just keep trying
And doing what is right
When you look back at your life
You will feel so satisfied
Cultivate sympathy and sensitivity
Life will come to you

Love conquers all

It's so easy
Don't you know
To try to show
The love
That Jesus shows

Have to let this food digest
First I had broiled salmon
Then some chocolate covered raisins
Then some sparkling mineral water
Crunchy carrots are tasty too
Some more water
Finally I topped it off
With a bowl of shredded wheat
I have to remind myself to let the food digest
Before I keep eating!

6 feet, 172 pounds
I think I just gained two pounds
Well, I'll just to extra sit-ups ups tomorrow

I love the smell of incense
On the morning of Aug. 18, 2014

So what is this place
This place called earth
I'll work and work and work
Until my body breaks down

I'll probably always be alone
Maybe I like to be alone
Because it is all I have ever known

I am envious of beautiful women
Sometimes I wish I could have been a woman
I feel like I inhabit the wrong body at times
Oh what a joy
To experience the thrill of multiple *******
I imagine myself as a beautiful blonde
Riding my hot powerful black man

But those are just dreams
Wishful thinking
Better to accept the cold hard reality

Oh the emptiness of it all
Shunyata--Free from permanence
Neither permanent nor non-existing, and that is, ultimately, how things are

Lao Tzu says
"At the center of your being
You have the answer;
You know who you are
And you know what you want

I know who I am
I know I want to be a lifelong teacher
Beginning is so difficult
I hope I am able to start soon

Being a human being can be quite difficult

Future operations will use drone and robotic weapons whenever possible
Since human doubt in a rightful purpose in the mission
Is rapidly diminishing
The technocratic authoritarians diminish the sacred nature of life
With each New death system

It's all so terrible
The things people do to each other
Such a primitive race
Such a primitive race man is

And the young college kids are glued to their iPhones
I just wish more people had an appreciation for history
Of the human story

Buddham, saranam, gacchami
Dhammam, saranam, gachami
Sangham, saranam, gachami

I listen to these words as I write this poem

I go to the Buddha for refuge
I go to the Dhamma for refuge
I go to the Sangha for refuge

Please try to grasp the scope
Of what has gone on here on earth
We each write our own story

Please remember Colonel Glen Frazier
One day he suffered a severe cut on his hand
Which went to the bone
It was so cold and he was so emaciated
That the wound did not bleed
Some days later he was walking across the camp with his hands
In his pocket, to keep warm, and quickly found out
That this was against the rules
He was taken before a judge and sentenced to death,
But was saved by a miracle of God.

With a gun to his back and a saber to his throat,
His assassin asked Colonel Frazier if he had anything to say
Before his head was cut off

He was then given, as he recalled,
"A mouth and wisdom"
"You can **** me but not my spirit,"
He told the stunned Japanese soldier,
"And my spirit is going to lodge in your body
And haunt you for the rest of your life."

Buddham, saranam, gacchmmi
Dhammam, saranam, gacchami
Sangham, saranam, gacchami

You cannot **** my spirit
All those mean and nasty comments
He who must not be named
Has said to me
I hate you!

I do not ever want to see you again
My spirit cannot die

But the world is full of hate
And so as Colonel Frazier learned how the hate devoured him
He learned to forgive
I try so hard to forgive
But still so hard for me
Forgive but not forget!

Stone Buddha
Stone Faced Buddha
Impermanence of reality

Buddham, saranam, gacchami,
Dhammam, saranam, gacchami
Sangham, saranam, gachami

And what about the ego maniacs
The ego is a social construction

Anatman or non-self is the reality

The Upanishads sought to free individuals from ego-attachment
By pointing out that the real self
Is the Universal Self rather than the individual self,
The Buddha sought to free individuals from ego-attachment
By pointing out that there is no individual self
To which to become attached

No man is an island
There exists a certain mutual arising
Alan Watts says
We see how things kind of go together in a connected net, rather than as a Chain of billiard *****, banging each other around
The world is like a network of dew drops on a spider's web
And in each dew drop the reflection of that drop can be seen
And so we rely on each other

I live with one who does not live
Thirty years she has done nothing!
The degeneration of the American mind
Is what I have witnessed
Countless hours spent mesmerized
In front of the television

Wake Up!
A wise man would say before giving his lecture
You are all asleep and if you don't wake up
I won't give any lecture

Wake Up!
And still she sleeps
Her life away
Unable to face the challenge
How pathetic
Just to exist
And never to live
Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
What a waste
Do something!
Don't just sit in front of Fox news
At 4 p.m. again
And talk to the dogs

Well, I've told many a tale by now
And still hope remains
That is all I ever had really

I know something of love
But not really much from human beings
And who is this Jesus anyway?
Well I love him I guess

I hope to feel love one day
And still
The drudgery continues
Work work work
For increasingly worthless American dollars!

I hope to be able to have my own small apartment
And work myself to death
Well, at least there is the incense to enjoy
And the occasional cigar

College graduate
And another 16 months after that
And still
I am going to the market
She has collected spare change
So I can put them through the machine
For a few lousy bucks
Haha!

At least I have a good car
And a good diet
And a gym to work out in

One should be determined in this life
As I see my life unfold I come to understand
That maybe this is the most important quality

Though shall not fear
Sayeth the Lord!
Stop barking dogs

Buddham, saranam, gacchami
Dhammam, saranam, gacchami
Sangham, saranam, gacchami
(Repeat)

Thank you to those
Who have liked my poems
And follow me

If one can call this poetry
I suppose it is like a stream of consciousness
I never did realize
How much I would enjoy this

Cries some

Will I ever leave this home?
Will my dreams ever come true?
I ask that you think of me
Off in internet land

Do you know I once closed
The Captains of Crush #2 gripper
Manufactured by Ironmind
Look it up, if you would like, it is a hard gripper to close

Do you know I used to bend and break the white and green nails?
Made by Ironmind for this purpose
The metal made hot by the pressure placed upon it
I bent it back and forth until it collapsed
I had to stop because it places too much stress on the hands over time

Do you know
Once did about 150 total pullups in one day
Up and up and up

What was I trying to prove anyway
I'm not sure
Sometimes we must test ourselves

Know thyself, and your limits!
One day the hard times may come
The tough and mean times
I will not live with fear in my heart!

Asdas

I guess I'll always be alone
Women don't like me you know
My ***** is too small

It would have been nice to be a woman
To feel a well-hung stud thrusting deep inside me
It would have been nice to have a feminine form
To play with my rabbit *******

Oh well, You can't always get what you want
As the song goes

I am a very boring person
I enjoy the outdoors
I enjoy golf
I will do my duty

I guess life as a human being isn't all that great after all
To live is to suffer

Buddham, Saranam, Gacchami
Stone faced Buddha

I'm tougher than you
I will not cry

Bring the pain, bring the suffering
Bring the pointlessness of it all

I hate this home
Once I leave I don't ever want to see it again

Stone faced Buddha
Heart full of emptiness

I will win
Win, win, win
For all times

I love the game of golf
I love the game
I asked Jesus to let me play it in heaven for eternity too
After the trials on earth have passed
But I want earth conditions when I play the game for eternity
Maybe I could play with all the great players of all time
My soul is strong

I do not live with fear in my heart
Jesus is Lord of heaven and Lord of earth
Every knee shall bow down before Him
He taught us the way
Don't you see.
He overcame this hate, this hate in our hearts.
It's the only way for man, the only way.
Jesus have mercy on us all.

I've read all the great minds, studied all the schools of philosophy.
Jesus is the Master teacher.

You must Love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.

Blessed are the merciful for they will be shown mercy.

Those who mourn are blessed, for they will be comforted.

Those who hunger and thirst for righteousness are blessed, for they will inherit the earth.

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.


Look into my eyes
You will see hope
You will see someone that wants to love
You will see someone who knows
Someone who knows that the most important time
The time for all times
Was when the Son of Man rose.

Up, Up, Up,
Rise, Rise, Rise,
He who goes before me
He who watches over me
He who lives in me

King of Kings,
Lord of Lords.

You see, you must believe in your heart
In your heart you must believe
Jesus of Nazareth, Son of Man

You were blameless and yet they crucified you.
Human beings can be filled with so much hate.
But in the end
Your great love conquers all

He who lives in me
He who goes before me
He who watches over me

In a quiet and holy place
He is waiting
I approach Him from a distance
Is it you Lord?

I finally got the hug I always wanted
But this time it was from Jesus
The King of Kings

I told him how I always believed in Him
And He told me how he always loved me
The love of Jesus overcomes all

I love you Jesus,
You will reign forever

In my heart I shall not fear
For in His Word he reminded me
That he would be with me always
Until the end of time

Jesus is Lord
Jesus is Lord
Prince of Peace and King of Kings
Jesus you will reign forever!

Charge the charge card
That is what it is for after all
Charge the charge card
Even though I am completely broke

I need to play golf again and again
To make it through this difficult time

I feel like a failure at times
Unable to change my life

Oh well, my time will come
I have read many great minds
Going back to the beginning of time

This life is some test
So is golf
Each moment I must concentrate
Play every round like it is my last

My father taught me how to hate
With all his mean and obnoxious comments
Lord help me forgive him

I'm playing eighteen tomorrow
I don't care how much it costs
It's a battle out there
Grinding on each shot

I'm going to be a teacher
I'm going to teach for a long time
I don't believe in retirement
The way our economy is, I will probably never get to retire anyhow

The middle class is being decimated in this country
The dollar is being devalued as the Fed continues its policy of quantitative easing

I don't think I am going to find a job this upcoming year
I think I might have to keep living here
Things are getting awfully tough
This life can be tough and mean

Maybe I'll meet someone one day who gives a **** about me
Well, at least there is Jesus
I have read God's word and know it well

I have been set aside by society
Like some type of cast away
I am not sure why
I try to always be a kind and considerate person

I am an intellectual
I love philosophy and history
Life is a great saga
I love my stuffed animals
Feels good to hold them because I have always been alone
Laugh at me if you want
I don't care
There is no shame in having stuffed animals

Well, it's a mean tough road
I'm poor and in debt
But I will charge the charge card
That's what its for after all
I will charge the charge card
To make my parents pay
For every mean comment
That they have said over and over

What comes from the high places
And goes to the low places
What is present everywhere
And when you try to grasp it
It disappears

Be like water

Form is Emptiness
Emptiness is Form