I watched as you
cast yourself away
one step at a time;
with my gaze fixed
at your dauntless irises
how could I have known
that with every breath
you were drifting further away.

The clocks ticked away,
and all I have is the last of
second chances.

I watched as you slowly,
very slowly,
with such grace,
effortlessly,
faded into the horizon.

And all I have to thank
is the image of you
my eye lids were able to retain.

I'm hurting
My eyes are hollow
Swollen with unshed tears
Blent with forgotten images
Filled with longing

I'm hurting
And there's nothing
Anybody can do
Because for the longest time
This is the only feeling I knew

I'm hurting
An unwanted plea
In my smile
Please help me
I no longer want
To be *hurting

The wind blew in the desert
Of my heart
Wrecking even the salvages
Claimed as war spoils
And u were the oasis
That quenched my thirst
You were the sky
That showed me beauty
You were the rain
That gave me hope
And maybe now I'm
Not so barren

I am bursting to find out
What you would say
What you would look like
What you would feel like
What colour your eyes would shine in the morning sun
What would your lips would taste of..
(Mint and Chocolate like yesterday hon?)
The firmness of your hands
And the sharpness of your breath
The way you smile
Is better then watching the sun set
The way your heart races when I touch your hand
The way you play with my hair
Oh god , even the way you stand
Baby I can't wait to find out
Becoz everything still feels new
And after all this time
I'm still very much in love with you

I will never be enough of a man
To dowse my saffron robes
In cold gasoline and set it aflame
In buddhistic conviction--
My dreams would scamper
From my burning head to find another,
My flesh would crack and burn
Like old parchment
In rough palms.

I will never be enough of man
To eat buckshot out of
A hollow cold steely gun
My mouth wrapped around the
Reaffirming thickness--
My eyes would dart and then close
My ears would ring and then collapse
Like an old building
Consumed in flames.

I will never be enough of a man
To wrap a rope round my neck
And stare blankly ahead
To seize the day
From God's hands--
My face would bulge
My limbs would twitch
Like a dying rodent
In the throes of cancer.

I will always be enough of a man
To kiss your lips
With my own and feel
Your curves in my hands
And look at the sun--
My trembling hands falter
My eyes can't see to feel for you
Like a blind pianist
Playing the blues.

I knew the moment we touched
Things would never be the same
I knew the moment you smiled
My feelings could not be tamed
I knew the moment our lips met
That I was desperately in love
I knew the moment you came in
That it was too late to go Back to
Being friends
That it was too late to hide the feelings I had confessed
That i was too far gone
To ever return to what I was
What things were
Before you

For before you
Seems like an alternate dimension
That I had suffered and lost
Because there was no life before you
And there won't be life after

Parts of me I didn't know existed
Awaken to your touch
I didn't know it was possible
To long for someone so much
Closer than my heartbeat
I feel you
Your breath on my face
Nd ur lips on mine
I wish we could stay like this
Till the end of time