I hate this
I just wanna give up
but then I don't
some days I feel like im ready for death
then come days when I feel like I wanna live forever
I Really really do hate my life and I hate myself im not ******* happy I've had happy days but nothing big ughhhhh im super lost!

what is a child to do? when he/she
is on their own
No place to call home
No one to tell them their strong
No one to tell them that their not alone,

What is a child to do?
when their told to keep a secret
and if they tell mommy would get heated,

What is a child to do?
when they don't know who to trust
when mommy and daddy fuss

What is a child to do?
when they are being bullied
and told what they should and shouldn't be,

what is a child to do?
when they are alone at night and suicidal thoughts flood their mind, and cuts burn like fire and drugs can no longer get them higher,

what is a child to do??????????

He's Not a MAN!
I tell myself
a MAN wouldn't beat you,
a MAN wouldn't hurt you,
a MAN wouldn't make you feel less of a woman,
a MAN would never put you on the street's and make your seal your body,
a MAN wouldn't threaten to **** you
a MAN wouldn't let you cry for days
a MAN wouldn't keep you from your family,
a MAN wouldn't try to break you down, drug you up, and ******* around.
NOPE A MAN WOULD NEVER DO THOSE THINGS! BUT A COWARD WILL.

Next time you make an empty promise
Shatter it against the concrete
And rip open my flesh with the sharpest point,
Pour salt in my wounds
And leave me to rust.
And then tell me again
How it pains you to see me suffer.
Darling, all this time you were killing two birds
With one stone,
But since when can I fly?

Tears pooling in her eyes
Slowly, steady, realize.
Pull back to the beginning
Shamelessly pretending that your winning.
The hollow feeling in your chest,
How you pray for it to rest.
Hold your head above the shame,
Pull yourself together and play the game.